我们都是联系在一起的。 -We are all connected.
从基因上来说，所有人类99.9%都是相同的。 Genetically, all humans are 99.9% identical.
由相同的元素组成的 Composed of the same elements.
氧气。碳。氢。氮。 Oxygen. Carbon. Hydrogen. Nitrogen.
钙。磷。 Calcium. Phosphorus.
但是社会制造了把我们分开的障碍。 But society creates barriers that separate us.
我们断开。 Disconnect us.
有时候我们害怕那些与众不同的人。 Sometimes we fear those who are different.
忽略它们。屏蔽它们。 Ignore them. Block them out.
或者只是把目光移开。 Or simply look away.
如果我们花点时间停下来呢? What if we took a moment to stop?
看上去怎么样?听? Look? Listen?
跳出我们自己，站在他们的立场上? Step outside of ourselves and into their shoes?
也许我们能找到联系的方法。 Perhaps we could find a way to connect.
嘿,那里。嗨。嗯… Hey, there. Hi. Um...
我叫奥利弗·沃尔夫。呃，我是个医生。 My name is Oliver Wolf. Uh, I'm a doctor.
你还好吗?-每个人都只是四处走动， Are you okay? -Everyone's just walking around,
就像一切正常一样。 acting like everything's normal.
-我的意思是，我不认为有什么标准的方法 -I mean, I don't think that there is any standard way
存在的或感知的 of being or perceiving.
-你也看到了吗?-嗯,当然。 -Do you see it, too? -Uh, sure.
只是，嗯…… Just, um --
再提醒我一次，我们看到的到底是什么? Just remind me one more time, exactly what are we seeing?
——龙。 -The dragon.
我是皮特。 This is Pete.
他正在经历一场极其生动的， He is in the throes of an extremely vivid,
持续出现龙的幻觉。 sustained hallucination of a dragon.
-哦,酷。 -Oh, cool.
我是说，对他来说不是。就像医学上说的 I mean, not for him. Like, uh, medically speaking.
-我们说的是精灵宝可梦龙还是权力的游戏? -We talking Pokemon dragon or Game of Thrones?
快龙（宝可梦）太可爱了。我爱他。 -Dragonite is so baby. I love him.
-我完全不明白你在说什么， -I have no idea what any of that means,
但我会说哪个最吓人就选哪个 but I would say whichever's scariest.
-找到他的社交网络。-让我猜猜。 -Found his social. -Let me guess.
福特汉姆大学的兄弟会成员? Frat boy from Fordham?
宾果。-你是怎么做到的? -Bingo. -How did you do that?
像他这样的人我们每周至少有两次。 -We get one like him at least twice a week.
大学生在大城市里疯了。 College kids gone wild in the big city.
可能是头撞在桶上了。 Probably hit his head on a keg.
-现在他需要我们的帮助。 -And now he needs our help.
-好的。我们会做化验，做UTox。 -Okay. We'll run labs and a UTox.
-嘿,嘿。他从哪里来? -Hey, hey. Where did he come from?
-我救了他。 -I saved him.
来自一条龙。 From a dragon.
-当然了。 -Of course you did.
好吧，确保他正式入院。 Okay, well, make sure he gets formally admitted.
你知道，这是标准的病人程序。 You know, standard patient procedure.
你可能听说过。 You may have heard of it.
头儿要马上见我们。 Chief wants to see us right away.
别拿龙女开玩笑。 And do not make a dragon lady joke.
-你说的，不是我说的。 -Your words, not mine.
埃里卡，去对付皮特。不仅仅是实验室。 Ericka, take point on Pete. And not just labs.
我想知道他到底看到了什么，为什么。 I want to know exactly what he's seeing and why.
[敲门]-啊。 [ Knock on door ] -Ah.
今天早上我的一个病人出了点问题。 I'm having trouble with one of my patients this morning.
因为慢性胆石症要去做膝洞手术。 Scheduled for a lap chole for chronic cholelithiasis.
-为什么首席医疗官要切除胆囊? -Why is the Chief Medical Officer removing gallbladders?
手术太多，外科医生不够。 -Too many surgeries, not enough surgeons.
不管怎样，就像我说的， Anyway, as I was saying,
我的病人取消了今天上午的手术 my patient has called off her surgery this morning
因为她做了一个令人不安的梦。 because she had a disturbing dream.
醒来时觉得自己暂时无法动弹。 Woke up feeling that she was temporarily unable to move.
-睡眠瘫痪，术前焦虑? -Sleep paralysis, pre-operative anxiety?
-我就是这么说的。但她已经歇斯底里了。 -That's what I said. But she has gotten hysterical.
她说她觉得没人听她说话 She's expressed that she doesn't feel listened to
或者她被认真对待了。 or like she's being taken seriously.
我们都知道这样会有什么后果 And we all know how that can blow up
如果她传到社交媒体上。 if she takes it to social media.
-所以你把我们叫来是因为你担心形象问题？ -So you called us here because you're concerned about optics?
-不。我需要神经和心理评估。 -No. I need neuro and psych evaluations.
确保她手术安全。 Make sure she's safe for surgery.
我们在尽职调查。 We're doing our due diligence.
-是的。听她的话，认真对待她 -Yeah. Listening to her and taking her seriously
看起来是个不错的开始。 seems like a great place to start.
-我们马上处理，头儿。 -We are on it, Chief.
-谢谢。 -Thank you.
等下。 -Wait.
你的病人是杰西卡·威廉姆斯? Your patient is Jessica Williams?
-嗯。-那个街区的杰西? -Mm-hmm. -As in Jessie from the block?
-是的。-哪个街区的杰西? -Yes. -Jessie from which block?
-布朗克斯区，宝贝。 -The boogie-down Bronx, baby.
WNBA全明星，史上助攻榜第一 WNBA All-Star, all time assist leader,
而且是个各方面都很好的人。 and just all around good people.
她去年退休了， She retired last year,
现在她是当地女子大学代表队的教练。 and now she coaches a local girls Varsity team.
她是家乡的英雄。 She's a hometown hero.
我丈夫、女儿和我从不错过任何一场比赛。 My husband and daughter and I, we never miss a game.
-奥利弗，我能跟你说句话吗? -Oliver, may I have a word?
卡罗，如果你不介意的话 Carol, if you don't mind --
-当然。 -I do not.
-[嘟囔着] -[ Mouthing words ]
-请坐。 -Have a seat.
-我有麻烦了吗? -Am I in trouble?
-我只是想重申一下 -I just wanted to reiterate
我很高兴你加入了我们队。 how happy I am that you're on the team.
没有人比你更关心病人了 There's no one who is more devoted to their patients
纽约的每个人都知道。 than you. And everyone in New York knows that.
-我感觉到一个"但是"。" -I'm sensing a "but."
-嗯，你给医院惹了麻烦。 -Well, where you get into trouble
你无视医院的规则。 is with the establishment. Your disregard for rules.
-只有当他们妨碍我为病人做最好的事的时候。 -Only when they get in the way of what's best for my patients.
-是的。没错。 -Yeah. Right.
所以，这应该有帮助。 So, this should help.
-请告诉我你没有写回忆录。 -Please tell me you did not write a memoir.
-这是一本手册，概述了我们医院的操作规程。 -It's a manual outlining the protocols for our hospital.
听起来很吸引人 -Sounds riveting.
大人物 -Mugwump,
镇上剩下的医院不多了 there aren't many hospitals left in this town
愿意为你冒险的人。 that are willing to take a risk on you.
我很可能是你最后的机会了。 I may very well be your last chance.
幸运的我。 -Lucky me.
-[叹息] -[ Sighs ]
- 4号床病人的医院外记录 -Outside hospital records for the patient in Bed 4.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
你也早上好，沃尔夫博士。 Good morning to you, too, Dr. Wolf.
[嘲笑] [ Scoffs ]
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[关上门] [ Door shuts ]
-你是脑科医生吗? -Are you the brain doctor?
他们叫我来见你。 They told me to come and see you.
杰西。嗯… -Jessie. Um...
你可以叫我沃尔夫。奥利弗。 Yeah, uh, you can call me Wolf. Or Oliver.
-他们告诉你我疯了吗? -Did they tell you I was crazy?
-我相信他们用的词是歇斯底里的， -I believe the word that they used was hysterical,
顺便说一句，我们这代人都知道 which, by the way, our generation knows
不能再说那个词了。 not to say anymore.
-你做过这样的梦吗 -Ever have one of those dreams
感觉如此真实，你无法摆脱? that feels so real, you can't shake it?
整天困扰着你吗?-一直都是。 Haunts you the rest of the day? -All the time.
-这比这糟100倍。 -This is 100 times worse.
我现在还能感觉到，好像有什么不对劲。 I can still feel it in my body, like something is wrong.
你能给我描述一下那个梦吗? -Can you describe the dream for me?
-我在床上。 -I was in my bed.
但我漂浮在空中， But I was floating above,
低头看着自己。 looking down at myself.
当我想动的时候，我 And when I tried to move, I --
我不能。 I-I couldn't.
我觉得……身体不存在了。 I felt...disembodied.
-这是玛瑙。 -That is agate.
其中最年轻的一颗大约有1300万年的历史。 The youngest of its kind is almost 13 million years old.
你拿着的这块花了几千年才形成， That piece you're holding took thousands of years to form,
一个分子一个分子，一层一层。 molecule by molecule, layer by layer.
我很抱歉。不，不，不。 -I'm so sorry. -No, no, no.
没必要，没必要道歉。 There's -- There's no need to apologize.
那只是一块傻石头而已 That's -- You know, it's just a silly rock
这种情况非常罕见。 that happens to be exceedingly rare.
篮球运动员的手应该更灵巧些。 -Basketball players should be better with their hands.
我不知道为什么会这样。 I don't know why this is happening.
-你知道，意念不会产生噩梦 -You know, um, the mind doesn't produce a nightmare
没有原因，就像玛瑙无法形成一样 without a reason, much like an agate can't form
没有预先存在的岩石。 without a preexisting rock.
懂我说的意思吗？ Am I making any sense?
有点让人难以相信，但我懂你的意思。 -Shockingly, yes.
太好了。我想用篮球来类比， -Good. I'd use a basketball analogy,
但我担心我会“三振出局”。 but I'm worried I'd "strike out."
有什么生理症状吗？杰西 Any, um, physical symptoms, Jessie?
很明显，我有点发抖。 -I'm a little shaky, obviously.
我不知道这是身体上的还是我的幻觉。 I don't know if that's physical or just in my head.
-当我们做噩梦的时候， -Well, when we have a bad dream,
我们的逻辑大脑，前额皮质， our logic brain, the prefrontal cortex,
会脱机。它会导致物理上的变化。 goes offline. It becomes physical.
心率上升。呼吸变快。 Heart rate rises. Breathing quickens.
-所以你不认为这只是心理问题? -So you don't think it's just psychosomatic?
-不。你的感觉是非常真实的。 -No. What you're feeling is very real.
现在，我的工作就是确保事情不严重。 Now, it is my job to make sure it's nothing serious.
我们先做些测试，然后我的同事 So let's just run some tests, and then my colleague
皮尔斯博士，会花点时间陪你。 Dr. Pierce, uh, is gonna spend some time with you.
警告下，她是你的粉丝。 A warning -- She is a fan.
-[笑]谢谢你的提醒。 -[ Chuckles ] Thanks for the heads up.
你会得到很好的照顾的，杰西。我们会照顾好你的。 -You're in good hands, Jessie. We are gonna take care of you.
-他有绿色发光的鳞片。 -He has green, glowing scales.
这些又大又尖的红色爪子。 These big, sharp, red talons.
他的眼睛就像微弱的光盯着我。 And his eyes are like tiny, dim light staring right at me.
皮特。类似的东西? -Pete. Something like that?
该死的,雅各。这很好。 -Damn, Jacob. That's pretty good.
-没想到你是乐队里的艺人。 -Wouldn't have pegged you as the artist of the group.
-戴娜，我是一个多才多艺的人。 -Well, Dana, I am a man of many talents.
这些天赋可以用来检查Pete的UTox结果吗? -Can one of those talents be checking Pete's UTox results?
已经完成了。实验室已经备好了，但波西亚在帮我赶时间。 -Already done. Lab's backed up, but Portia's rushing it for me.
-波西亚是谁?-别担心。 -Who's Portia? -Don't worry about it.
-皮特，这些有好看的吗? -Pete, any of these look right?
-皮特，怎么了? -Pete, what's wrong?
你现在有在看吗?龙? Are you seeing one right now? Dragon?
-我想他要吐了。 -I think he's gonna hurl.
-[呕吐物] -[ Vomits ]
接得好。皮特怎么样？宿醉得非常厉害 -Good catch. How's Pete? -Extremely hungover.
-给他一升LR。加入硫胺素和叶酸。 -Uh, give him a liter of LR. Add thiamine and folate.
我需要两个志愿者帮我检查一下…杰西。 I need two volunteers to help me with a workup on...Jessie.
你们俩，我们走吧。 Uh, you two, let's go.
** **
-为什么我总是被困在照顾兄弟 -Why am I always stuck babysitting bros
嗑药过量还狂看《龙之屋》的人? who O.D. on shrooms and binge "House of the Dragon"?
-你说的就是我。每个星期天的样子。 -You're describing me. Every Sunday.
找到什么? -Find anything?
-额，检测的结果都没问题， -Uh, these labs are all in the black,
但我想多观察一段时间，来看是否有变化。 but I want to give this thing time to declare itself.
我们要多注意她的情况。太迟了。 We need to keep an eye on her. -Too late.
她想要去做手术。说她感觉好多了 She's going in for surgery. Said she was feeling better,
她说她想尽快手术，然后离开医院。 said she wanted to get it over with and get out of here.
已经签了手术同意书，还有我的球。 Signed her paperwork and my ball.
-拿到收藏品当然是好事。 -Well, that must be nice, to have a collectible.
杰西打碎了我的玛瑙。 Jessie broke my agate.
你的什么? 你知道吗? 我甚至不—— -Your what? You know what? I don't even --
你和你妈妈怎么样了? How did things go with your mom?
-哦，她给了我作业。 -Oh, um, she gave me homework.
——[笑] -[ Chuckles ]
-拜托? 幸灾乐祸吧，卡萝尔。 -Really? I'm so glad you find this funny, Carol.
我在这里工作很辛苦 I am having a really hard time working here
和她一起在医院这就像…… at this hospital with her. It's like...
又当回孩子了，而且不是以一种有趣的方式。 being a kid again, and not in a fun way.
-沃尔夫，你知道这很难。 -Wolf, you knew this would be hard.
看。这么多年来，我对你的妈妈问题了如指掌。 Look. I've had a front row seat to your mommy issues for years.
你们俩得把这事搞清楚。 You two need to figure this thing out.
-你说得对。她可以先开口。 -You are right. She can go first.
杰西说她感觉没有实体。 Jessie said she feels disembodied.
你不觉得用这个词很奇怪吗?那么具体。 Don't you think that's such an odd word choice? So specific.
-她的心理评估结果是良性的。 -Well, her psych eval came back benign.
杰西说和你聊天让她感觉好多了。 Jessie did say that talking to you made her feel better.
这并不奇怪。 It's not surprising.
你对你的病人总是很有一套。 You've always had a way with your patients.
不管你和他们在做什么， Whatever it is you're doing with them,
你应该和你妈妈试试。 you should try it with your mom.
-这是她的签名吗?东东。 -Is this her signature? -Think so.
她给外科住院医师填写了同意书。 She filled out her consent with the surgical resident.
不，完全不同。 -No, it's completely different.
看。看起来这个签名 Look. It -- It looks like it was signed
是一个人用了不同的手写的。 by somebody with a different hand.
也许是某个感觉没有实体的人干的。 Perhaps by somebody who feels disembodied.
她什么时候在这个篮球上签名的? When did she sign this basketball?
-大约两个半小时前。那同意书呢? -About 2 1/2 hours ago. -And the consent form?
-不到30分钟。你觉得她的情况开始恶化了? -Less than 30 minutes later. You think she's declining?
-是的。而且很快。 -Yes. And fast.
-你没在听我说话。-女士，我需要你放松。 -You are not listening to me. -Ma'am, I need you to relax.
-我说了我不想这么做。 -I-I said I don't want to do this.
当麻醉开始时，你会感觉平静多了。 -You will feel so much calmer when the anesthesia kicks in.
-我不想-- 你想怎么样。-住手!嘿。 -I'm not -- How are you gonna -- -Stop! Hey.
-杰西，怎么了? -Jessie, what's going on?
-我躺在这里准备手术， -I was laying here getting ready for surgery,
事情发生了变化。 and something changed.
我的身体，就像我不在里面一样。 My body, it's like I'm not in it.
-你是说像你的噩梦? -You mean like your nightmare?
-要成真了。 -It's coming true.
** **
-杰西同意做手术。 -Jessie consented to the surgery.
是什么让你介入的? What made you intervene?
-她改变主意了。同样吗? -She changed her mind. -Again?
-Jessie表示她的身体感觉不像是她的。 -Jessie expressed that her body doesn't feel like it's hers.
继续进行手术 To proceed with the operation
会造成无法弥补的心理伤害 could cause irreparable psychological damage,
更不用说身体上的伤害了 let alone the physical harm
这可能来自一个在持续变化中 that could come from operating on someone
且尚未明确诊断的疾病状况。 with a progressive and still undiagnosed condition.
你发现了什么？看，在这里。 -What have you found? -Look. Here.
相同的签名，间隔不到两小时。 Same signature, less than two hours apart.
这表明精细运动功能明显下降。 That shows a significant decline in fine motor functioning.
潜在的原因?-我们还不知道。 -Underlying causes? -We don't know yet.
我们会直接带她去做核磁共振， We'll get her straight to the MRI,
排除中风，肿瘤和其他异常后， rule out stroke, tumor, other abnormalities,
给你带回更确凿的证据。 and bring you back something more conclusive.
-让我们找出病因吧。快点，在事态升级之前。 -Let's figure this out. Quickly, before it escalates.
奥利弗，试着别太执着。 Oliver, try not to get too attached.
你我都知道你过去的表现并不好。 We both know it hasn't served you well in the past.
-我对此没什么印象了。 -I do not get too attached.
[上课铃响了] [ School bell rings ]
-很高兴你能光临，奥利弗。 -Nice of you to grace us with your presence, Oliver.
请坐在本尼迪克特旁边。 Take the seat next to Benedict.
今天, 奥利弗？。 Today, Oliver.
-那不是本尼迪克特。[同学们窃笑] -That's not Benedict. [ Classmates chuckling ]
-如果你少花点时间 -Perhaps if you spent a little less time
去做白日梦， with your head in the clouds,
你现在就应该知道你同学的名字了。 you'd know your classmates' names by now.
[同学们窃笑] [ Classmates chuckling ]
-他怎么了? -What's wrong with him?
我们继续。打开你的罐子。 -Let's continue. Open your jars.
把棉球放进去 Place the cotton ball inside
让标本安乐死。 to euthanize the specimen.
[青蛙叫] [ Frogs croaking ]
-嘿，小家伙。 -Hey, little buddy.
奥利弗? -Oliver?
奥利弗，你这是要去哪? Oliver, where do you think you're going?
-这是正式的病情诊断吗? -So, is this an official medical examination?
-我想你可以这么认为。 -I guess you could say so.
你的脑部核磁共振显示正常，但还是有些地方不对劲。 Your brain MRI was normal, but something's going on.
我想观察一下你的状态。 I wanted to observe you in your element.
你打什么位置? What position did you play?
控球后卫。我负责进攻，指挥战术， -Point guard. I ran the offense, called out the plays,
确保我们作为一个整体一起工作。 made sure we all worked together as a single unit.
一个伟大的团队都是一个整体。 A great team moves as a single body.
这就是我想教给我女儿们的。 Now that's what I'm trying to teach my girls.
我猜你不玩? 篮球吗?不。 I'm guessing you don't play? -Basketball? No.
(笑)团队运动， [ Laughs ] Team sports in general,
不是我的菜。这来自同性恋孩子的创伤后应激障碍 not really my thing. PTSD from being the gay kid
因为体育课总是最后一名。 who always got picked last in gym class.
嗯。 -Mm.
-怎么了?-我只是—— -What is it? -I just --
感觉不太对。-像是什么情况? It doesn't feel right. -In what way?
-就像我脱离了我的身体， -It's like I'm outside my body,
就像我在看自己的视频一样 like I'm watching a video of myself,
但我控制不了 but I can't control it.
-你以前有过这种感觉吗?在我的梦里， -Have you ever felt this before? -In my dream,
然后当他们为我做手术准备的时候。 and then when they were prepping me for surgery.
感觉我的身体… It felt like my body is...
要么死了，要么不是我的。 dead, or not mine.
** **
-没事的，杰西。 -It's okay, Jessie.
我们会继续做检查直到找出原因。 We're gonna keep running tests until we figure this out.
[远处的警笛声]-Dr。皮尔斯。 [ Siren wails in distance ] -Dr. Pierce.
你知道沃尔夫医生送来的那个病人吗?皮特吗? You know the patient that Dr. Wolf brought in? Pete?
-他从怪物手里救出来的那个? -Uh, the one he saved from the monster?
龙。如果我们在吹毛求疵的话。 -Dragon. I-If we're splitting hairs.
我们做了额外的检测 Uh, well, we ran additional tests,
他的LSD呈阳性，但他还是能看到龙 and he's positive for LSD, but he's still seeing dragons
在他最后一次服药后24小时。Dana说 24 hours after his last dose. And Dana said
这种刺激通常不会持续那么久， that acid typically doesn't last that long,
所以我的直觉告诉我这可能是精神崩溃。 so my gut tells me it might be a psychotic break.
谢谢，皮尔斯博士。 Thanks, Dr. Pierce.
-别急，别急，别急。 -Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, not so fast.
-他看到龙可能是药物引起的幻觉 -It's a drug-induced hallucination,
或许是他第一次精神病发作的前兆。 possibly tipping off his first episode of psychosis.
这不是心理问题吗?-我们还不清楚。 Doesn't that fall under psych? -We don't know yet.
皮特是你的病人，你不能就这么溜走 And Pete's your patient, so you can't just skip off
去和沃尔夫一起调查神秘的脱离肉体的案子 and join Wolf on his mystery disembodied case just yet.
来吧。你跟我走。 Come on. You're coming with me.
皮特，你被诊断过 So, Pete, have you ever been diagnosed
有精神疾病的人?-不。 with a mental health disorder? -No.
-有家族病史吗?-据我所知没有 -Any family history? -Not that I know of,
除非你算上乔治爷爷告诉整个高尔夫俱乐部的人 unless you count Grandpa George telling his entire golf club
他得了梅毒。那人是个疯子，但他头脑还是清醒的。 he had syphilis. The man's a nut, but he can still get it.
-[笑]好吧。明白了。 -[ Chuckles ] Okay. Got it.
跟我说说我听说的那条龙吧。 So, tell me about this dragon I've been hearing about.
你现在看到了吗?-是的。 Do you see it right now? -Yeah.
但当我在聚会跳舞的时候，感觉要很强烈的多。 But when I was tripping, it felt so intense.
——现在?-我还能看到，但是… -And now? -I still see it, but...
我知道它并不在那里。 I know it's not really there.
这不是真的。忘记它。 It's not real. -Got it.
我要和肯尼医生说几句话。 I'm just gonna speak with Dr. Kinney for a moment.
他知道龙是他的幻觉。 He's aware that the dragon is a hallucination.
精神崩溃的基本特征是 A psychotic break is fundamentally characterized
失去与现实的联系。 by a loss of contact with reality.
如果他能分辨真假…… If he can distinguish between what's real and what isn't...
-那他还跟现实有联系。 -Then he's still in touch with reality.
这意味着…… -Which means...
-这是神经科病例。 -This is a neuro case.
-玩得开心，医生。 -Have fun, Doctor.
-我姐姐的球队下周有季后赛。 -My sister's team has playoffs next week.
女孩们在问她会不会没事。 The girls are asking if she's gonna be okay.
-告诉他们我们正在尽我们所能 -You tell them we are doing everything we can
尽快把她送回去 to get her back to them ASAP.
你感觉怎么样，杰西? How you feeling, Jessie?
-我不喜欢脊椎穿刺的声音， -Well, I don't love the sound of a spinal tap,
但如果能从医学上解释我的投球三不沾， but if it gives us a medical explanation for my air ball,
我完全接受。[两人轻笑] I'm all for it. [ Both chuckle ]
现在马库斯要去采集样本 -Dr. Markus is gonna collect a sample
脑脊髓液 of cerebral spinal fluid.
结果会让我们知道的 The results will let us know
你是否有感染或炎症 if you have an infection or inflammation
导致了你的症状 that's causing your symptoms.
-呃，你介意吗 -Uh, would you mind
身体向前倾一点?谢谢你！ leaning forward just a little? Thank you.
深呼吸。 Take deep breaths.
-一切都好吧，马库斯医生? -Everything okay there, Dr. Markus?
-是的。只是，只是没想到会有观众。 -Yeah. Just, uh -- Just didn't think I'd have an audience.
[慢慢呼气] [ Exhales slowly ]
[猛吸一口气]该死的。 [ Inhales sharply ] Damn it.
-范-拿着这个我做不到。 -Van -- -Take this. I can't do this.
——好。 -All good.
你可能会觉得有点疼，好吗? You might feel a little pinch, okay?
3 2 1。 3, 2, 1.
做得好。 Good job.
嘿。马库斯? -Dr. Markus?
刚才发生了什么? What happened in there?
-我不知道。我不知所措。 -I-I don't know. I got overwhelmed.
-是啊，这很明显，但为什么呢? -Yeah, well, that's obvious, but why?
-就像，太紧张了我 -It's, like, this thing that happens.
就好像我能感觉到针扎的疼痛。 I-It was like I could feel the pain from the needle.
别提你的失望了 And not to mention your disappointment
还有雅各布的判决，还有她全家都在看 and Jacob's judgment, and her whole family is watching,
我当时一团糟。 and just -- I was a mess.
-嗯，看起来你很有自知之明 -Well, I'd call that an accurate assessment.
腰椎穿刺是基本手术，马库斯医生。 A lumbar puncture is a basic procedure, Dr. Markus.
-我知道-杰西已经吓坏了 -I-I know -- -Jessie is already terrified.
你可能会让她更害怕。 And you may have just scared her even more.
解决好问题。 Figure this out.
第4章，计费程序。在记录病人的病历时， "Chapter 4, billing procedures. When logging patient notes,
医生必须遵循“一长串官僚主义的废话” a physician must follow" a long list of bureaucratic nonsense
这不会改善任何人的健康 that improves the health of no one
向保险公司的大厅低头， and bends to the insurance lobby,
因为怕你忘记， because lest you forget,
医药是一个营利性行业。 medicine is a for-profit industry.
[电视上播放篮球比赛，电话响了] [ Basketball game plays on TV, telephone rings ]
是的，我是沃尔夫。 Yeah, this is Wolf.
我马上就到。 I'll be right there.
-结果她的脑脊液检查是正常的，沃尔夫医生。 -Okay, so her tap was clear, Dr. Wolf.
但我不明白怎么会这样。 But I-I don't understand what's going on.
-好吧，发生什么事了，Jacob? -Okay, well, what happened, Jacob?
-我们发现她是这样的。我—— -Well, we found her like this. I --
我—— I --
杰西? -Jessie?
杰西，你能把胳膊放下来吗? Jessie, can you -- can you put your arms down for me?
-[颤抖地]我不能。 -[ Shakily ] I can't.
我控制不了他们。 I-I can't control them.
——没问题。没关系。我会帮你的。 -It's okay. It's okay. I'm gonna help you.
好吧。没关系。简单呼吸就好。 Okay. It's okay. Just breathe.
好吧。开始吧。 Okay. Here we go.
我们走一走就没事了，好吗?所以… We're gonna just walk it off, okay? So...
好吧，你能，你能走几步吗 Alright, can you -- can you just take a couple of steps
去找纳什医生? toward Dr. Nash?
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——[喘着气] -[ Gasping ]
我不能。现在是什么情况? I-I can't. -What is it now?
告诉我，告诉我，你有什么感觉? Tell me -- Tell me, what are you feeling?
就像没有立足之地。 -Like there's no ground to stand on.
我不能走路。我都站不起来了。 I can't walk. I can't even stand.
我到底怎么了? What is happening to me?
-好吧，事情变得很奇怪。 -Okay, things just got really weird.
-我觉得。Van的头挺好看。 -I'll say it. Van gives good head.
-这是对我腰椎穿刺失败的惩罚吗? -Is this punishment for my failed lumbar puncture?
-不。你在帮我阐明一个观点。 -No. You're helping me illustrate a point.
(听不清的谈话)大家安静。 [ Indistinct conversations ] Everyone, shush.
好了，现在，Van往下看的时候， Okay, right now, when Van looks down,
他没有意识到自己身体的存在和位置。 he's unaware of his body's presence or position.
他对自己的身体视而不见。 He's essentially blind to his body.
这就是杰西正在经历的 That's what Jessie is experiencing --
一种非常特殊的神经损伤 a very specific nerve damage
导致本体感觉缺失 resulting in total proprioceptive deficit
从脚趾头到头部。 from her toes to her head.
人们常说本体感觉是我们的第六感觉。 It is often said proprioception is our sixth sense.
你是说她能看到死人? You mean she sees dead people?
-不。怎么啦？ -No. What?
但她觉得她的身体已经死了， Uh, but her body feels dead to her,
就像在她的梦里一样。她的大脑知道有些不对劲 like in her dream. Her brain knew something was wrong
在她的身体出现任何症状之前 before her body showed any symptoms.
-简直就是一部恐怖电影。-好的,Van, -Literally a horror movie. -Okay, Van,
把你的手举到面前。好吗? hold up your hand in front of your face. Right?
好了，杰西可以看到她的手在这个位置， Okay, so Jessie can see her hand in this position,
但一旦它移动到视野之外， but the moment it moves outside the field of vision,
就好像她再也没有一只手了。 it's like she no longer has a hand at all.
-嗯，她是个运动员。她会丧失本体感觉吗 -Well, she's an athlete. Can her loss of proprioception
是因为以前脊椎受伤或挫伤吗? be from an old spine injury or contusion?
-好主意。调查一下。 -Good idea. Look into it.
我们能把灯打开吗?-是的。 -Can we turn the lights back on? -Yes.
-或者海绵体畸形 -Or a cavernous malformation
在她的后脊髓背柱中。 in the dorsal column of her posterior cord.
我们应该再扫描一次，这次扫描整个脊椎。 We should scan her again, the entire spine this time.
-尽快给我结果。-我相信这会发生在 -Get those to me ASAP. -I'm pretty sure this happened
我的一个朋友身上，他太喜欢惠比特犬了。 to a friend of mine who got way too into Whippets.
-这倒提醒了我，那个看见龙的兄弟会男孩怎么样了? -That reminds me, how's the frat boy who sees dragons?
皮特吗?-是的。 -Pete? -Yeah.
-他的脑部CT，脑脊液和脑电图都没有显示异常。 -Well, his CT brain, CSF, and EEG are all unrevealing.
我们还在等化验结果， We're still waiting on a few labs,
但如果不是毒品或精神病 but if it isn't drugs or psychosis --
-我们知道持续的幻觉 -We know that sustained hallucination
不会凭空冒出来的。 doesn't just come out of nowhere.
——是对的。必须是有联系的。 -That's right. It's got to be connected.
让我们继续挖掘。[敲门] Let's keep digging. [ Knock on door ]
大人物吗? 耽误一下? -Mugwump? A word?
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原谅我。 -Excuse me.
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大人物吗?-那是什么? -Mugwump? -What even is that?
-我不知道，但这很尴尬， -I don't know, but it's embarrassing,
我妈叫我她的小黄油豆。 and my mom calls me her little butter bean.
-等等，沃尔夫医生是主任的儿子? -Wait, wait, Dr. Wolf is the Chief's son?
老兄,嘿。 -Dude, duh.
你真的没有谷歌一下你的新老板吗? Did you seriously not google your new boss?
-告诉我一个病人是怎么走进我的医院 -So help me understand how a patient walks into my hospital
就做个常规手术，现在可能再也不能走路了。 for a routine surgery and now may never walk again.
-在被打断之前，我正想解决这个问题。 -I was trying to solve that before I was interrupted.
-可能是病毒传播。-嗯，我们正在调查 -It could be viral. -Well, we're looking into it --
-自身免疫细菌环境暴露 -Autoimmune, bacterial, environmental exposure.
如果我们不知道原因， And if we don't know what caused it,
我们不知道如何阻止它，也不知道它会发展到什么程度。 we don't know how to stop it or how far it could progress.
-我说我正在处理 -I said I am on it
虽然我的判断不太正确，但我们现在是同事了。 Now, against my better judgment, perhaps, we are colleagues now.
所以不要再叫昵称了。别再管我了。 So no more pet names. And stop micromanaging me.
做好你的工作，我就不用管了。 -Do your job, and I won't have to.
——[自嘲] -[ Scoffs ]
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-我不想杀青蛙。 -I didn't want to kill the frogs.
我想成为一名医生。不想伤害。 I want to be a doctor. Do no harm.
-我知道。 -I know.
你没有麻烦，亲爱的。 You're not in trouble, honey.
我带你来这里是为了让你学会解剖 I brought you here so you can learn to dissect
用正确的方式。 the proper way.
-那是谁?-一个人选择把身体 -Who is that? -It's a body that a person chose
捐给医学院 to donate to the medical school,
这样有抱负的医生就可以学习解刨 so aspiring doctors can learn
然后有一天去帮助别人。 and one day help people.
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好吧。 Okay.
从锁骨开始。 So, you start at the collarbone.
一旦穿过胸骨，就能看到心脏。 Once you're through the sternum, you'll see the heart.
这可不容易，大人物。 It won't be easy, Mugwump.
你得比你想象的切得更深。 You'll have to cut deeper than you expect.
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[敲门]-沃尔夫医生。嘿。你找我? [ Knock on door ] -Dr. Wolf. Hey. You paged me?
-我20分钟前找你的。终于来了。 -I did, 20 minutes ago. It's about time.
-我在做手术。你需要什么? -I was in surgery. What do you need?
-我要会诊一下我的病人杰西。 -Ah, I need a consult on my patient Jessie.
急性、严重的本体感觉缺陷。 Acute, severe proprioceptive deficit.
她来做一个常规手术，现在她不能走路了。 She came in for an elective surgery, and now she can't walk.
病情发展的很快。我从来没见过这样的事。 It's moving fast. I have never seen anything like this.
-总是这样吗?你，呃…… -Is that how this works? You, uh --
你只在需要我的时候才和我说法? You only acknowledge me when you need something?
拜托。你总是从我身边擦身而过。 Come on. You keep blowing past me out there.
-什么? 什么时候?-今天, -What? When? -Today,
在三个不同的场合。 on three separate occasions.
-你还记下了?-这很失礼，好吗? -Why are you counting? -It's rude, okay?
这是失礼的表现。你太失礼了。-不。 It's rude. You are rude. -No.
我有面孔失认症。 I have prosopagnosia.
这是一种神经系统疾病。 It is a neurological condition.
意思是我认不出人。 It means I can't recognize faces.
-好吧，那你是怎么做的? -Okay, so how does it work for you?
你如何识别人?-嗯，定义特征。 How do you recognize people? -Um, defining characteristics.
风格，步态会触发我的颞叶皮层，或者… Style, gait triggers my temporal cortex, or...
深深的鱼尾纹，幽灵般的白皮肤。 deep crow's feet, ghostly white complexion.
要我给你检查一下脉搏吗? Do you want me to check if you have a pulse?
-算了忘记这个话题吧。 -Let's go back to you ignoring me.
好吧。你和我一样能看懂核磁共振成像，沃尔夫博士。 Okay. You can read an MRI as well as I can, Dr. Wolf.
你我都知道这里什么病变都没有。 You and I both know there's nothing here.
那你为什么打电话给我?-嗯,有时 So why did you call me? -Well, sometimes
即使是最优秀的医生也需要别人的意见。 even the most brilliant doctors need a second opinion.
尼克尔斯……我很担心她。 Nichols...I'm worried about her.
-嗯，希望没有什么需要切除的。 -Well, hopefully the fact there's nothing to resect
从好的一面看。 is good news.
教练，我能问你一个私人问题吗? -Hey, Coach, can I ask you a personal question?
-好的,记者们（ESPN，娱乐与体育节目电视网），开始吧。 -Okay, ESPN. Shoot.
—你退休的时候正值你的黄金时期。 -When you retired, you were in your prime.
你是在隐瞒伤病还是怎么的? Were you hiding an injury or something?
不，我已经准备好了。 -No, I was just ready.
-嗯，不可能那么容易。 -Well, it couldn't have been that easy.
我是说，你曾经是个明星。你的平均是—— I mean, you were a star. You averaged like --
-当然，我害怕离开比赛。 -Sure, I was scared to leave the game.
但一旦我这么做了，我就知道这是对的。 But once I did, I knew it was right.
当我开始当教练时，我突然有了灵感。 When I started coaching, something just clicked.
我知道这是我应该做的 I knew it was what I was supposed to be doing
用我的一生。 with my whole life.
-你知道，嗯， -You know, um,
我以前是四分卫。 I was a quarterback back in the day.
D1（最高水平的橄榄球强校）。该死的! Played D1. -Damn!
你是怎么穿手术服的? How'd you end up in scrubs?
-嗯，脑震荡太多了。 -Um, one too many concussions.
哈。看来你的头脑很聪明， -Mm. Well, it seems you got a good head on your shoulders,
即使它有点破。 even if it is a little banged up.
如果我不能再走路了…… If I can't walk again...
不能移动…… can't move...
我不想让我的女儿们失望。 I don't want to let my girls down.
这是一个很难成长的地方。 This is a tough place to grow up.
那会是一个艰难的童年。 And a tough time to be a kid.
我会没事吗? Am I gonna be okay?
-嘿，J教练， -Hey, Coach J,
相信我，你还有很多场边指导的机会， you have plenty of court-side huddles left in you, trust me,
好吧?只要你在这里，我们就是你的团队。 okay? And while you're here, we're your team.
在解决问题之前，我们不会放弃。 And we're not giving up until we fix this.
我保证。 I promise.
你应该尽量休息一下。 You should try to get some rest.
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我想我知道原因了。 I think I know the cause.
冰沙。杰西一直都喝 Smoothies. Jessie drinks them all the time,
它们富含补品。 and they're loaded with supplements.
然后我重新检查了她的血检 Then I rechecked her blood work,
她的B6水平很高 and her B6 levels are high.
-所以B6的吡哆醇毒性 -So the pyridoxine toxicity from the B6
可能造成本体感觉损伤， could have caused the proprioceptive damage,
这意味着…… which means...
——解决的希望。 -There's hope.
-他睡得太多了。 -He's been sleeping a lot.
一个月没去上课了。 Hasn't been to class in a month.
经典的皮特生活。 Classic Pete.
不需要关心成绩。他是个传奇人物。 Doesn't have to care about grades. He's a legacy.
-当然了。 -Of course he is.
[远处模糊的对话] [ Indistinct conversations in distance ]
-我去看看冰箱里有没有霉菌。 -I'll check the fridge for mold.
霉菌毒素可能是罪魁祸首。 Mycotoxins could be the culprit.
那是什么味道? What is that smell?
-我闻到了大麻的味道还有被酒浸透的地毯。 -I'm getting notes of weed and, uh, booze-soaked carpet.
让我想起了过去的美好时光。 Reminds me of the good, old days.
伙计，我好久没用猎枪喝过啤酒了。 Man, it's been so long since I've shotgunned a beer.
-(尴尬地笑)-你知道的，就像 -[ Chuckles awkwardly ] -You know, like --
[模仿吞咽]-[笑]是的。 [ Imitates gulping ] -[ Chuckles ] Yeah.
-我的天啊。你从来没用猎枪打过啤酒。 -Oh, my God. You've never shotgunned a beer before.
-嗯- - - -Uh --
-倒立酒桶，爱德华40手，啤酒乒乓? -Keg stands, Edward 40 hands, beer pong?
你在大学里玩得开心吗?-听着，我很愿意 Did you have any fun in college? -Listen, I would have loved
去参加聚会。 to have gone to parties.
我希望自己能成为传奇。 I would have loved to have been a legacy.
我真想偷懒，翘课 I would have loved to have slacked off and skipped class
或者宿醉了一整天，但我很忙 and been hungover all day, but I was busy
拼了命进医学院 busting my butt to get into med school
同时还要打两份工来支付学费。 while working two jobs to pay for it.
这里太脏了! It is so rank in here!
龙。啊哦。 The dragon. -Uh-oh.
你也在看他吗? You seeing him, too?
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杰西? -Jessie?
我们快冲洗完你的系统了 We are almost done flushing your system
看看能不能缓解你的症状 to see if it helps your symptoms.
杰西?教练J ? Jessie? -Coach J?
我们只是在给她输液，这是怎么呢？ We were just giving her fluids. What's going on?
她一分钟前还是清醒的。 She was alert a minute ago.
-她的肺很干净所以液体不是问题 -Her lungs are clear, so fluids aren't the problem.
她的氧饱和度在下降， [ Monitor flatlining ] Her O-2 sat is dropping,
她没有反应。把急救车拿来。 and she's unresponsive. Get the crash cart.
[警报声] [ Alarm blaring ]
我们走，我们走! Let's go, let's go!
[对讲机上不清晰的广播] [ Indistinct announcement over intercom ]
她没有呼吸了! She's not breathing!
快点，Van。快点，Van。快点。 Come on, Van. Come on, Van. Come on.
-没有脉搏。-我开始做心肺复苏。 -No pulse. -I'll start compressions.
我们不可能一直打氧。我们现在需要给她插管。 -We can't bag forever. We need to intubate her now.
麻醉在哪儿?他们马上来。 Where's anesthesia? -They're coming.
-快快！。[人们含糊地说话] -Go, go. [ People speaking indistinctly ]
-拜托，j教练，拜托。加油，教练。 -Come on, Coach J. Come on. Come on, Coach.
我们会让你好起来的. We got you.
** **
-我们冲洗了她的系统，希望能 -We flushed her system, hoping that it would
减缓或逆转她的症状 slow or reverse the progression of her symptoms.
不幸的是，她还不能自主呼吸， Unfortunately, she's still not breathing on her own,
这意味着也许B6根本不是原因。 which means that perhaps the B6 wasn't the cause after all.
但即使我们不知道原因， But even though we don't know the cause,
我们还在寻找解决办法。 we're still looking for a solution.
我姐姐一直都…… My big sister has always been...
不可战胜的。 invincible.
怎么会发生在她身上?-你要明白 How is this happening to her? -You have to understand
你妹妹的情况太罕见了。 how exceedingly rare your sister's case is.
我是说，我读到过类似的病情恶化， I mean, I've read of similar deteriorations,
但没有这么快。 but nothing this fast.
我们可能永远也不知道原因。 And it's possible we may never know the cause.
-你是说这是永久性的吗? -Are you saying this is permanent?
-我还不知道。 -I don't know yet.
但我能告诉你们的是你们所有人 But what I can tell you is that all of you --
她的家人，她的团队，要给她支持。 her family, her team -- give her purpose.
这就是杰西现在需要的。 That's what Jessie needs right now.
一个好起来的理由。 A reason to get better.
-先是Van，现在是你。 -First Van, now you.
你们这些实习生真是烂透了。 You interns are a real time suck.
发生了什么事?没什么。我只是… What happened? -Nothing. I just...
出去写一下笔记。 stepped out to finish some notes.
-好吧，我们不能丢下病人去写笔记。 -Okay, well, we don't walk out on patients to finish notes.
-你觉得我还不够难受吗? -You don't think I already feel crappy enough?
我告诉杰西她会好起来的。 I told Jessie she would get better.
我直视着她的眼睛，对她撒了谎。 I looked her right in the eye, and I lied to her.
-是啊，那可不太好。 -Yeah, that's not great.
但与普遍的看法相反，医生也是人。 But contrary to popular belief, doctors are humans, too.
有时候，我们才需要希望能把工作做得更好。 Sometimes we need hope to be better at our jobs.
有时候我们需要知道什么时候希望是不够的。 And sometimes we need to know when hope is not enough.
-你呢? -And what about you?
你失去希望了吗?-不。看在杰西的份上 Have you lost hope? -No. For Jessie's sake,
我不能放弃。你也不能。 I can't afford to. And neither can you.
-沃尔夫医生? -Dr. Wolf?
我们需要你看看皮特的核磁共振。 We need you to see Pete's MRI.
幻觉的视像保留。-是的。 -Hallucinatory palinopsia. -Yeah.
我们一看到皮特公寓外的龙， As soon as we saw the dragon outside Pete's frat house,
我们意识到这不仅仅是一些随机的幻觉。 we realized that it isn't just some random hallucination.
就像一段回忆， It's like a memory,
他每天都能看到窗外的景象 an image he's been seeing outside his window every day
他大脑的视觉记忆区域一直让他看到， that his brain's visual memory area keeps causing him to see,
即使不是直接在他面前。 even when it's not directly in front of him.
-这只会在有损伤的时候发生。 -Which only happens when there's a lesion.
-对。非接触式CT不可能检测到。 -Right here. The noncon CT never could have picked that up.
枕叶硬脑膜动静脉瘘; An occipital lobe dural arteriovenous fistula,
导致血液积聚和静脉高压 causing a buildup of blood and venous hypertension
在枕叶。- 导致视觉障碍，如视后像。 in the occipital lobe. -Causing visual disturbances
如视觉后像。。-病变可能会出血 like palinopsia. -The lesion could bleed out
随时都可能进入他的大脑，对吧? into his brain at any moment, can't it?
-我要去准备手术室了 -I'm off to prep the O.R.
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-我们的兄弟怎么样了? -How's our frat boy?
-他在做手术。还不好说。 -Uh, he's in surgery. It's delicate.
-嗯，尼科尔斯是最好的脑科医生之一。 -Well, Nichols is one of the best.
-噢，“其中之一。”这不会激发信心。 -Oh, "one of." That doesn't inspire confidence.
-我听说杰西今天有访客。 -I heard Jessie had visitors today.
-是的。对她来说保持联系很重要 -Yes. It's really important for her to maintain a connection
她的社区，她的目标。我同意。 to her community, her purpose. -I agree.
我一直想跟你谈谈这件事。 And I've been meaning to talk to you about this.
如果她在接下来的几周内没有好转， If she doesn't improve in the next few weeks,
我们得谈谈插管的事 we're gonna have to talk about a trach
以及长期护理机构。 and long-term care facilities.
-把她送走，让她被遗忘 -Ship her off to be forgotten
这样你就能腾出一张床了?这不是一个选择。 so you can free up a bed? Not an option.
-不幸的是，这不是你说了算的。 -Unfortunately, it's not your call.
-谁说了算，Carol? -Well, whose call is it, Carol?
我妈妈的吗? My mother's?
这就是我不想在这里工作的原因。杰西是我的病人。 This is why I didn't want to work here. Jessie is my patient.
我根据她的状况决定她的治疗方案， I determine her course of care based on who she is,
什么对她来说是重要的，她会选择什么。 what's important to her, and what she would choose.
我不喜欢你听我妈的话 And I don't like you doing my mother's bidding --
-我不会做你妈妈的-听着，卡萝尔，我认识你 -I'm not doing your mother's -- -Look, Carol, I've known you
20年了。永远不要玩扑克。 for 20 years. Never play poker.
-嘿。我知道你不想听， -Hey. I know you don't want to hear this,
但你妈妈并不总是错的。 but your mother isn't always wrong.
在不知道病因的情况下，我们只能假设 Without knowing the etiology, we have to assume
杰西的神经损伤是永久性的 that Jessie's nerve damage is permanent.
本体感觉对呼吸也是必要的， Proprioception is necessary for breathing, too,
也就是说如果这是永久性的， which means that if this is permanent,
她就不能呼吸了-没错。 she won't be able to breathe -- -Exactly.
她躺得越久，身体就越虚弱 And she's getting weaker the longer she lays there
没有使用或试图使用她的肌肉。 not using or even trying to use her muscles.
你把她送到长期护理中心 You put her in long-term care,
接下来是肺炎，然后是褥疮。 next it'll be pneumonia, then bedsores.
她再也不能自己走路，说话，呼吸了。 She'll never walk, talk, or breathe again on her own.
她的团队需要她。他们不能看到她离开。 And her team needs her. They cannot see her quit.
-看她离开还是看你? -See her quit or you?
沃尔夫，我知道这很难 Wolf, I know this is hard,
但这就是你要做的。 but this is what you do.
你太执着了。 You get too attached.
-那是谁? -Who is that?
-是的，一个无名氏。 -Yes, this is John Doe.
没有身份证，没有病史，没有家人。 No ID, no medical history, no family.
从一家医院转到另一家医院 Transferred from hospital to hospital
每次他都会有新的感染。现在他是我们的了。 every time he gets a new infection. Now he's ours.
没人知道他是谁，从哪里来。 No one knows who he is or where he came from.
病因? -Diagnosis?
-嗯,中风? -Uh, stroke?
不管它是什么，现在已经无法挽回了。 Whatever it is, it's not salvageable now.
无名氏已经不在了。 Whoever John Doe was is gone.
-这就是没人帮助的结果。 -And this is what happens when no one gets attached.
[演奏巴赫《第一大提琴组曲》] [ Bach's "Cello Suite No. 1" playing ]
[狼喘气] [ Wolf panting ]
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-我做不到。 -I couldn't do it.
我拿起手术刀，吓呆了。我动不了。 I picked up the scalpel, and I froze. I couldn't move.
-嘿,老兄。没关系。 -Hey, kiddo. It's okay.
-不，不是。我连第一个切口都做不到。 -No, it's not. I couldn't even make the first incision.
-忘了那些吧。-我不想。 -Forget all that. -I don't want to.
我想成为一名医生，像你和妈妈一样。 I want to be a doctor, like you and Mom.
-好的。 -Alright.
** **
下次，试试这个。 Next time, try this.
走出自我。 Step outside yourself.
不用担心你面前的整具尸体。 Don't worry about the entire cadaver in front of you.
从小事做起。 Start small.
专注于你的手。 Just focus on your hand.
我相信你。 I believe in you.
这就是我们之间的默契。 Enough for the both of us.
[沃尔夫喘气] [ Wolf panting ]
[电视上播放的篮球比赛] [ Basketball game playing on TV ]
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-我们要拔掉杰西的管子。 -We're taking out Jessie's tube.
我们要停止给她右美托咪定 We're gonna stop her precedex,
将通气设置降低到最低支持水平 reduce the vent settings to minimal support,
松开呼吸管， loosen the breathing tube,
准备放血压计袖带的气。 and get ready to deflate the cuff.
-沃尔夫医生，这样她会死的。 -Dr. Wolf, she could die.
-是的，她不能自己呼吸。 -Yeah, she can't breathe on her own.
-杰西不能移动她的身体 -Jessie can't move her body
因为她突然看不出来了。这是不可抗拒的。 because she's suddenly blind to it. It's overwhelming.
但如果她放弃自我控制呢? But what if she steps outside of herself?
如果她用其他感官来控制自己的身体呢? What if she uses her other senses to control her body?
从小处开始，一次只关注身体的一个部位。 Starting small, focusing on one body part at a time.
并不是她的肌肉无力。 It's not that her muscles are weak.
并不是她不能呼吸。她可以。 It's not that she can't breathe. She can.
她只是还不知道，因为她必须学习 She just doesn't know it yet, because she has to learn
以一种全新的方式与她的身体连接。 to connect with her body in a brand-new way.
我们等得越久，她就越虚弱， And the longer we wait, the weaker she gets,
她越是失去希望。 and the more she loses hope.
如果我们不相信她， I mean, if we don't believe in her,
她怎么能相信自己? how is she supposed to believe in herself?
我们进去吧。 Let's get in there.
我们开始吧。 Let's do this.
-他现在在更衣室演讲? -He gives locker room speeches now?
-清澈的眼睛，饱满的心，无法呼吸。 -Clear eyes, full hearts, can't breathe.
杰西? -Jessie?
你能和我一起演练一下吗?就我们两个。 Will you run a drill with me? Just the two of us.
当我们取出呼吸管时， When we take out the breathing tube,
我要在这个托盘上看到你的口气，好吗? I want to see your breath on this tray, okay?
为了做到这一点， Now, in order to do that,
我想让你接受你脱离肉体的感觉。 I want you to embrace your feelings of disembodiment.
从外面看看你自己， Look at yourself from the outside,
把注意力集中在你的胸部， focus on your chest in space,
然后用你的眼睛想象它在动。 and then use your eyes to imagine it moving.
你能帮我吗? Can you do that for me?
[通风机发出嘶嘶声] [ Ventilator hissing ]
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[空气嘶嘶声，警报声] [ Air hissing, alarms beeping ]
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[警报停止] [ Alarms stop ]
放弃自我控制。 Step outside of yourself.
从小事做起。 Start small.
一个呼吸。 One breath.
[监视器快速发出哔哔声] [ Monitors beeping rapidly ]
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我知道你能做到的，杰西。 I know you can do this, Jessie.
我知道你可以。 I know you can.
拜托。 -Come on.
-我相信你。 -I believe in you.
** **
我们彼此信任。 Enough for the both of us.
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[杰西轻轻地呼出一口气] [ Jessie exhales softly ]
[杰西虚弱地喘息] [ Jessie wheezing weakly ]
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-我的天啊。 -Oh, my God.
干的好。 -Good job.
[杰西继续喘息] [ Jessie continues wheezing ]
-杰西工作非常努力。 -Jessie has been working Incredibly hard.
她进步很大。 She's made great progress.
我有信心达到你们的预期 I want to manage your expectations --
沃尔夫。 -Wolf.
没关系。让我们展示给他们看。 It's okay. Let's just show them.
** **
-哇，哇，哇，哇。杰西。 -Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. -Jessie.
——不用。我没问题。 -Don't. I got it.
** **
来抱一下怎么样? How about a huddle?
(大家笑)-是的。 [ All chuckle ] -Yes.
** **
-谢谢。 -Thank you.
谢谢你没有放弃我。 For not giving up on me.
-我也是，教练。 -Right back at you, Coach.
杰西。 -Jessie.
-一旦杰西又能自己呼吸了， -Once Jessie was able to breathe on her own again,
她需要重新学习如何移动她身体的其他部分 she needed to relearn how to move the rest of her body
用视觉和触觉代替本体感觉。 using vision and touch instead of proprioception.
我们从小处开始—— We started small --
一只手和一张纸。 one hand and a piece of paper.
这需要练习。 It takes practice.
但就像打篮球一样，你要从基础开始， But just like in basketball, you start with the fundamentals,
教身体的不同部位作为一个整体运动， teaching different parts of the body to move as one,
就像一个球队的球员一样。 just like players on one team.
我们可能永远不会知道是什么导致了杰西的神经损伤。 We'll likely never know what caused Jessie's nerve damage.
但只要有足够的耐心和坚强的意志， But with a lot of patience and strong will,
杰西正以一种全新的方式与她的身体重新连接。 Jessie is reconnecting with her body in a brand-new way.
一群球员需要努力工作才能走到一起。 It takes hard work for a group of players to come together.
在你尝试之前，它甚至看起来是不可能的。 It might even seem impossible, until you try.
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我知道一起工作不容易。 I know working together is not gonna be easy.
尽管如此，我还是想试试。 That said, I want to try.
-好的。现在我感觉到了一个“但是”。 -Okay. Now I'm sensing a "but."
-不要试图转移我的病人 -Never attempt to transfer one of my patients
不要再和我讨论这件事。 without discussing it with me ever again.
-我对卡萝尔说这些只是为了激励你。 -I only said that to Carol to light a fire under you.
-我不在乎。这也很烦人。 -I don't care. That's annoying, too.
重症监护室的那个无名氏呢? Oh, and that John Doe in ICU?
-他怎么样?他是我的。 -What about him? -He's mine.
他现在是我的病人了。 That's my patient now.
** **
-我和你爸爸有联系。 -I connected with your dad.
他在来的路上了。-谢谢。 He's on his way. -Thanks.
尼科尔斯医生说你几天后就可以出院了。 -And Dr. Nichols says you should be out in a few days.
-你救了我。 -You saved me.
在某种程度上，龙救了你。——[笑] -In a way, the dragon saved you. -[ Chuckles ]
-这是有问题的信号。 -It was signaling something was wrong.
我只是需要仔细看看。 I just needed to look closer.
-好吧，我很幸运你所有的周五晚上都在 -Well, I'm lucky you spend all your Friday nights
在图书馆。（夸她是好学生）我是说，我只是假设。 in the library. I mean, I'm assuming.
-(笑)-还好还不算太晚 -[ Laughs ] -Good thing it's not too late
让我们俩都有自己的生活。 for both of us to have a life.
-我的偏见可能要了皮特的命。 -My bias could have cost Pete his life.
我是个爱挑剔的贱人吗? Am I a judgey bitch?
你不用回答这个问题。 You don't get to answer that.
-Ericka，你犯了个错误。它是发生了。 -Ericka, you made a mistake. It happens.
我们是实习生。我们难免会搞砸。 We're interns. We're supposed to screw up.
Van笨拙地做了一个简单的LP。体育参考! Van fumbled a simple LP. Sports reference!
-我给了一个病人，你知道，虚假的希望。 -And I gave a patient, you know, false hope.
-当然，我很完美。 -And I'm perfect, of course.
但我必须给你们一些值得向往的东西。 But I have to give you all something to aspire to.
——啊。弗拉纳根! -Ah. -Flanagan!
三杯啤酒。装在罐头里。 Three beers. In a can.
-我们为什么要喝啤酒?你在干什么? -Why do we need beers? What -- What are you doing?
-我什么都没做。 -I'm not doing anything.
-你显然在搞什么鬼。-可爱的小天使。 -You're clearly up to something. -Sweet baby angel.
-这是你第一次喝啤酒。 -You're shotgunning your first beer.
哟。今晚。 -Yo. -Tonight.
-是的! -Yes!
我好久没去跳舞了 -* It's been so long since I went dancing *
*跳舞* * Dancing *
*好久不见，好久不见，好久不见* * It's been so long, it's been so long, been so long *
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-术后病人应该很快就醒了， -So, the post-op should be waking up soon,
二小时后需要进行神经检查。 and we'll need Q2 hour neuro checks.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
** **
-嘿，尼科尔斯。 -Oh, hey, Nichols.
我只是在开玩笑。皮特的手术干得好。 I'm just kidding. Good job with Pete.
-谢谢。哦，嘿，呃， -Thank you. Oh, hey, uh,
自从你终于认出了我 since you finally recognized me,
你的定义特征是什么? what defining feature did you land on?
-你知道，到最后， -Oh, you know, in the end,
是那双大得出奇的手。 it was the, um, freakishly large hands.
-(笑)-老实说，你是怎么用那双手 -[ Laughs ] -Honestly, how do you perform
去做脑部手术的？ 他们大的有点碍事吧。 brain surgery with those things? They're liabilities.
哦，还有一个问题。解剖实验室还在吗? Oh, uh, one more question. Is the anatomy lab still here?
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我们在做什么? -What are we doing?
-嗯，一般对一具尸体是很难产生共鸣。 -Well, it's harder to empathize with a cadaver.
他们的感情更少。 They have fewer feelings.
去做吧。让我们看看你最好的脊椎穿刺。 Go ahead. Let's see your best spinal tap.
** **
-我很感激你。 -I'm so grateful to you.
奥利弗回来了，这个 Having Oliver home, it just --
这真的很重要。 It means everything.
他也绝不会同意来这里工作 And he would never have agreed to work here
如果你没有说服他。 if you hadn't convinced him.
——[笑] -[ Chuckles ]
-他真的很信任你。 -He really trusts you.
所以我需要你帮我盯着他。 That's why I'm going to need you to keep an eye on him.
-穆丽尔，我才不要当他的保姆。 -Muriel, I am not gonna be his babysitter.
-我就知道你会这么说。 -I had a feeling you were gonna say that.
但我儿子的过去有些事 But there are things about my son's past
连你自己都不知道。 that even you don't know.
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