** **
-回想早年的记忆。 -Think back to an early memory.
你还记得什么? What do you remember?
你看到了什么不可思议的东西吗? Was it something incredible you saw?
一种独特的气味?一个声音吗? A distinct smell? A sound?
还是一种感觉? Or was it a feeling?
快乐吗?悲伤? Joy? Sadness?
恐惧? Fear?
[鸟叫] [ Birds chirping ]
爸爸? Dad?
你去哪儿了? Where'd you go?
当我们经历某事时， When we experience something,
我们大脑中的神经元被激活了。 neurons in our brains are activated.
记录内存。 The memory is recorded.
但如果我们不重新激活记忆， But if we don't reactivate the memory,
突触逐渐减弱。 the synapses gradually weaken.
随着时间的推移，记忆会褪色。 Over time, memories fade.
[叹气] [ Sighs ]
就像大脑记忆一样容易， Just as easily as the brain remembers,
它也会忘记。 it also forgets.
** **
如果我们不花时间回顾我们的记忆， If we don't take the time to revisit our memories,
把它们写下来，关心它们， write them down, care for them,
也许有一天我们醒来会发现它们已经枯萎了。 we might wake up one day to find they've wilted away.
** **
[敲门] [ Knock on door ]
[敲门]-开门。 [ Knock on door ] -Open up.
[敲门声继续] [ Knocking continues ]
怀亚特中枪了。 Wyatt got shot.
** **
——[叹气，咕哝] -[ Sighs, grunts ]
很高兴见到你，医生。 Good to see you, Doc.
[古典音乐演奏] [ Classical music plays ]
** **
好吧。嗯……你好。 Okay. Um...hi.
[怀亚特呻吟] [ Wyatt groans ]
这是皮肉伤。 Well, it's a flesh wound.
所以，缝了几针， So, um, uh, a few stitches,
然后你们就可以走了。 and then you'll all be on your way.
[怀亚特叹口气] [ Wyatt sighs ]
你自行车上的新化油器怎么样了? -How's the new carburetor on your bike?
气门加热引擎的速度够快吗? The choke heating up the engine fast enough?
-是的。我不用再哄它发动了。 -Yeah. Uh, I do not have to coax it to start anymore.
好的,很好。 -Good, good.
你下次的演出我请。 And your next tune-up's on me.
好吧?把你的自行车拿来就行了。 All right? Just bring in your bike.
我甚至会给你一个新的悬架。 I'll even throw in a new suspension.
据我所知，你该升级了。 Last time I checked, you were due for an upgrade.
-谢谢，怀亚特。我做的事。 -I appreciate it, Wyatt. I do.
我真不敢问，另一个人怎么样了? I'm afraid to ask -- How is the other guy?
-不是你想的那样。 -It's not what you think.
(笑)我在擦枪。 [ Chuckles ] I was cleaning my gun.
我有时会颤抖 I sometimes get this tremor
我不小心扣下了扳机 and I accidentally pulled the trigger.
-跟我说说这次震动。-没有。 -Tell me about this tremor. -It's nothing.
可能是长途骑行造成的。 It's probably from riding long distances.
我很好。 I'm right as rain.
你是对的。 -You're right.
我是说，也许没什么好担心的， I mean, probably there's nothing to worry about,
但我还是直接把你的子弹拔出来了 but I did just go on ahead and pull your own bullet out of you.
那你为什么不直接来布朗克斯综合医院? So why don't you just come in to Bronx General?
我们要做些检查 We'll run some tests.
我们称之为谨慎行事。 We'll call it an abundance of caution.
-不。我很好。 -No. I'm good.
你在医院说"枪击" You say "gunshot" in a hospital,
警察像秃鹫一样从天而降。 cops descend like vultures.
我们直接来找你是有原因的。 There's a reason we come straight to you.
-枪击?看，当引擎 -What gunshot? Look, when the engine
我在自行车上死了，你做了全面诊断。 on my bike died, you ran a full diagnostic.
你订购了一个零件，几天内就修好了。 You ordered a part and you fixed it in a few days.
我的诊断是神经检查。 A neuro exam is mydiagnostic.
这能帮我们弄清楚到底发生了什么。 It'll help us figure out what, if anything, is going on.
没有警察。[男人发出声音] No cops. [ Man slurps ]
-这茶不错。秋海棠属植物吗? -This is good tea. Begonia?
-嗯，是玫瑰果，但味道相似。 -Uh, it's rose hips, but similar flavor profile.
** **
[喇叭声] [ Horns honking ]
-*对对对* -* Yeah, yeah, yeah*
我想看看当它太多的时候会发生什么 * I'm-a see what it do when it's too much*
是的，一切都会过去的 * Yeah, it can all go away*
一切都会过去的，只要闭上眼睛 * It can all go away, just shut your eyes*
一切都会消失 * It can all go away*
一切都会过去的，只要闭上眼睛 * It can all go away, just shut your eyes*
*一切都会消失* -[哀号] * It can all go away* -[ Wailing ]
一切都会过去的，只要闭上眼睛 * It can all go away, just shut your eyes*
*一切都会消失* -范。 * It can all go away* -Van.
-*一切都会消失* -* It can all go away*
闭上眼睛，一切都会过去的 * Just shut your eyes, it can all go away*
——。-哦,嘿。早上好，埃里卡。 -Van. -Oh, hey. Good morning, Ericka.
坏消息。-什么? -Bad news. -What?
艾米丽回来了。-艾米丽是谁? -Emily's back. -Who's Emily?
艾米丽。嗨。我是沃尔夫博士。 Emily. Hi. I'm Dr. Wolf.
-你为什么拿着一株植物? -Why are you holding a plant?
-哦，这是格特鲁德。她是一株复活的蕨类植物。 -Oh, uh, this is Gertrude. She is a resurrection fern.
-我看她已经死了。 -She looks dead to me.
-[笑]-她没死。 -[ Laughs ] -She's not dead.
她的……只是有点不舒服。 She's...just a little sick.
-你请我还是格特鲁德? -Are you treating me or Gertrude?
-你很幸运，我可以一心多用。 -Well, uh, lucky for you, I can multitask.
单从你的体重来看 And judging by your weight alone,
在我看来你很健康 you seem perfectly healthy to me.
-嗯，大多数时候她是。 -Well, most of the time she is.
但今天早上，她在玩iPad， But this morning, she was on her iPad,
然后我们就知道，她倒在地上，没有呼吸了。 and the next thing we know, she was on the floor, not breathing.
-是的。从我们收集到的信息来看， -Yeah. From what we've gathered,
似乎当她过于兴奋时， it appears that when she gets too excited,
它会引发癫痫发作。-但不是一直都是。 it triggers seizures. -But not all the time.
我们带她去看泰勒·斯威夫特，她很好。 We took her to Taylor Swift and she was fine.
-嗯,泰勒?——“爱情故事”。 -Uh, Taylor? -"Love Story."
——“坏血。”-“甩掉它。” -"Bad Blood." -"Shake It Off."
-你们都冷静一下。 -Uh, you all need to calm down.
-也是她的一首歌。 -Also one of her songs.
你确定你不是神秘的斯威夫特? Are you sure you're not a secret Swiftie?
-我不知道那是什么。 -I don't know what that is.
但我肯定我不是。 And yet I'm certain I'm not one.
如果你不介意的话。1秒。 Uh, if you would excuse us. One second.
** **
我们治疗过艾米丽好几次了 -We've treated Emily multiple times.
这些情节是反复出现的。她崩溃…… The episodes are recurring. She collapses...
-脑电图，核磁共振，所有你能想到的实验室。 -EEGs, MRIs, every lab you can imagine.
一切都是正常的。-我们试过了 Everything's normal. -We've tried her
奥卡西平，卡马西平，托吡酯。没有什么工作。 on oxcarbazepine, carbamazepine, topiramate. Nothing works.
-好的。给我详细描述一下这些情节。 -Okay. Describe the episodes for me in detail.
-恩……-嗯…… -Um... -Well...
-我们还没见过艾米丽的癫痫发作。 -We haven't actually seen one of Emily's seizures.
-你还开了药? -And yet you've prescribed medication?
-波特博士建议-谁?哦,是的。 -Well, Dr. Porter suggested -- -Who? Oh, yes.
我记得。那个离开去大型制药公司工作的主治医生。 I remember. The attending who left to go work for Big Pharma.
看来他真的很关心他的病人。 Seems like he was really invested in his patients.
我想我们已经确定了我做事的方式有点不同。 I think we've established that I do things a bit differently.
那就多陪陪艾米丽，激发她的情绪， So spend time with Emily, provoke the episode,
评估，诊断，然后治疗 evaluate, diagnose, thentreat --
按这个顺序。 in that order.
-是的，先生。-是的，先生。 -Yes, sir. -Yes, sir.
-早上好，医生。-哦。医生。 -Good morning, Doctor. -Oh. Doctor.
有一群相当令人生畏的人 -There's a group of rather intimidating men
穿着皮夹克在候诊室找你。 wearing leather jackets in the waiting room looking for you.
-那一定是怀亚特。-你的朋友? -That must be Wyatt. -Friend of yours?
-嗯,不。我的病人。还有我的机械师。 -Uh, no. My patient. And my mechanic.
-他是帮派成员吗?-如果用“帮派”， -Is he in a gang? -If by "gang,"
你是说一群杰出的绅士 you mean a group of distinguished gentleman
谁有同样的热情 who share a passionate enthusiasm
骑摩托车，那没错，他是帮派成员。 for motorcycle riding, then yes, he's in a gang.
-[呻吟]-叫做哈德逊骑士 -[ Groans ] -Called the Hudson Riders.
你知道吗?别担心。 You know what? Don't worry about it.
-试着喷一下。通常都能奏效。 -Try misting that. Usually does the trick.
-我知道。今天早上我带她去洗澡了。 -I know. I took her into the shower with me this morning.
爸爸的小费。 Dad's tip.
还有一些高质量的时间。 That, and some quality time.
-说到这个， -Speaking of which,
我很想在工作之余叙叙旧。 I'd really like to catch up outside of work.
吃顿好午餐怎么样? How about a nice lunch?
-哦，这是忙碌的一周。 -Oh, it's a busy week.
许多病人。头里。 Many patients. -Come on.
我们已经好几个月没单独见面了。 It's been months since we've had one-on-one time.
我会带百吉饼和奶油奶酪…… I'll bring bagels and cream cheese...
-Russ & Daughters? -Russ & Daughters?
-你只要告诉我什么时候有用。 -You just let me know when works.
你注意到震动多久了? How long have you noticed the tremor?
地震吗?他是这么告诉你的吗? -Tremor? Is that what he told you?
不。 No.
怀亚特不是因为颤抖才开枪自杀的。 Wyatt didn't shoot himself because of a tremor.
他开枪自杀是因为他忘了枪上了膛。 He shot himself because he forgot his gun was loaded.
是的。大约一个月前， Yeah. About a month ago,
他开始重复故事，你知道，笑话。 he started repeating stories, you know, jokes.
最后两周，情况变得更糟了。 Then it got worse in the last two weeks.
所以什么?我忘了几件事。 -So what? I forgot a few things.
-你说的"几件事"是指? -By "a few things," you mean?
-这么说吧，我们的地下室里有九个空气炸锅 -Well, let's just say we have nine air fryers in our basement
因为他总是忘记他已经点了一个。 because he keeps forgetting he already ordered one.
我喜欢做鸡块。 -I like to make chicken nuggets.
-当第三个空气炸锅出现的时候， -By the time the third air fryer showed up,
我是说，我就知道不对劲。 I mean, I knew something was off.
-好的。还有什么不寻常的吗? -Okay. Anything else unusual?
-[叹息] -[ Sighs ]
-好吧，我有时会头疼。 -All right, I get these headaches sometimes.
我比平时更累。 I'm more tired than usual.
发生在每个人身上的事情。 Things that happen to everyone.
宝贝，我不明白你为什么这么害怕。 Babe, I don't get why you're so scared.
-因为她担心你，怀亚特。 -Because she's concerned about you, Wyatt.
她想确保你没事。 And she wants to make sure you're okay.
我相信你也会为罗西做同样的事。 I'm sure you would do the same thing for Rosie.
我给你做个脑部核磁共振 Uh, let's, uh, get you into a brain MRI
我们会看到它揭示了什么。 and we'll see what it reveals.
——[敲门] -[ Knocking ]
你们能接待不来的客人吗? Any chance you take walk-ins?
玛雅忘了她的足球包。嗯。 Um, Maya forgot her soccer bag. -Hm.
你还是要带她去训练，记得吗? You're still taking her to practice, remember?
-是的，我记得。 -Yep, I remember.
-我想现在不是恢复谈话的好时机。 -I assume this is a bad time to resume our conversation.
视情况而定。哪一个? -Depends. Which one?
-你一直在回避的那个。 -The one you've been avoiding.
任何决定吗? Any decisions?
莫里斯……——[敲门] -Morris... -[ Knocking ]
-哦。嘿,狼。这是,呃… -Oh. Hey, Wolf. It's, uh...
莫里斯。我在任何地方都能听出这个声音。 -Morris. I'd recognize that voice anywhere.
基因组测试怎么样了?-是的。好。 How's the genomic testing? -Yeah. Good.
是啊，我们刚拿到资金在欧文大学做老鼠实验。 Yeah, we just got funding for testing on mice at Irving.
令人惊异的。 -Amazing.
如果你成功克隆了你妻子，记得告诉我， Well, if you ever clone your wife successfully, let me know,
因为这个世界绝对需要多首圣诞颂歌。 because the world definitely could use multiple Carols.
-[笑]对不起。这是不可复制的。 -[ Chuckles ] Sorry. This cannot be replicated.
-是的，她是独一无二的。 -Yeah, she's one of one.
我不打扰你们继续工作了。 I'll let you guys get back to work.
-很高兴见到莫里斯。 -Well, it's nice to see Morris.
还是不高兴见到莫里斯吗? Still not nice to see Morris?
-[叹气]-这让我很难过。 -[ Sighs ] -This is upsetting for me.
夫妻咨询没有帮助吗? Couples counseling's not helping?
-精神科医生是最糟糕的病人。 -Oh, psychiatrists make the worst patients.
-你结婚15年了， -You have been married for 15 years,
在一起多久了，20年? together for, what, 20?
这意味着不止一个错误。 That has to mean more than one mistake.
-Mnh-mnh。不。我不接受建议 -Mnh-mnh. Nope. I'm not taking advice
从一个拿着死植物的人那里。-好吧，它没死，而且 from a man holding a dead plant. -Okay, it's not dead and --
红色代码。核磁共振成像。三楼。红色代码。核磁共振成像。三楼。 -Code red. MRI. Third floor. Code red. MRI. Third floor.
等待!等等!等等!等等! -Wait! Wait! Wait! Wait!
-别碰我!-嘿,嘿! -Get your hands off me! -Hey, hey!
-啊,哇!怀亚特。怀亚特。嘿。怀亚特，我是你的医生。 -Whoa, whoa! Wyatt. Wyatt. Hey. Hey, Wyatt, this is your doctor.
我是纳什医生。嘿，嘿，嘿，看着我。 It's Dr. Nash. Hey, hey, hey, look at me.
看着我。你是好的。呼吸。 Look at me. You're okay. Breathe.
呼吸。——[深吸一口气] Breathe. -[ Breathes deeply ]
核磁共振后发生了什么? -What happened after the MRI?
-我不知道。我迷失了方向。 -I don't know. I got disoriented.
我以为警察在勒索我 I thought the cops were shaking me down
用手电筒照眼睛。 with that flashlight in the eyes.
嘿，那孩子怎么样了?-除了受伤的自尊什么都没有。 Hey, how's the kid doing? -Uh, nothing but a bruised ego.
纳什医生会没事的。-是的，詹姆斯先生。 Dr. Nash will be fine. -That's right, Mr. James.
现在你是我们最关心的。 Right now you're our biggest concern.
我们检测到的是一个肿瘤延伸到 What we detected here is a tumor extending into
阻塞了你的第三脑室， and obstructing your brain's third ventricle,
导致脑脊液积聚 causing a buildup of cerebrospinal fluid
并成长为关键的结构。 and growing into critical structures.
幸运的是，这些类型的肿瘤 Fortunately, these types of tumors
可能是良性的，而不是癌性的。 are likely benign, not cancerous.
我可以移除它。-所以他会好起来? I can remove it. -So he'll get better?
停止遗忘? Stop forgetting?
-不幸的是，事情比这更复杂。 -Unfortunately, it's more complicated than that.
——是对的。 -That's right.
肿瘤正在侵入你的大脑区域 The tumor is invading areas of your brain
在那里制造记忆。 where memories are made.
所以你才这么健忘。 That's why you've been so forgetful.
切除肿瘤能救你一命， Resecting the tumor will save your life,
如果我能得到全部的话。 if I can get it all.
但它也可能对这些地区造成更大的破坏。 But it could also do greater damage to those areas.
-你可能会失去形成新记忆的能力。 -You may likely lose the ability to form new memories.
-这是一个高风险的过程。 -It is a high-risk procedure.
顺行性失忆是最好的情况。 Anterograde amnesia is the best case scenario here.
-好吧，他还会记得我吗? -Okay, will he still remember me?
-是的。他已经拥有的记忆 -Yes. The memories he already has,
那些成就了他今天的人 the ones that make him who he is today --
他们应该是安全的。 They should be safe.
-如果我不想做手术， -And if I don't want to get the surgery,
我还有多长时间?-随着肿瘤的生长 how long do I have? -As the tumor grows
来自流体的压力增加… and the pressure from the fluid increases...
可能是几周。 could be weeks.
幸运的话，几个月。 Months, if we're lucky.
-他多久能取出来?-等你准备好了，怀亚特。 -How soon can he remove it? -As soon as you're ready, Wyatt.
-我建议马上去。 -Immediately would be my recommendation.
怀亚特…… -Wyatt...
我知道这让你很震惊 I know this comes as a complete shock,
我知道它会影响你的每一天， and I know that it will impact your day to day,
你的生活, your livelihood,
但它不必毁了你的整个生活。 but it does not have to ruin your entire life.
-你还能修自行车。 -You'll still be able to fix bikes.
我可以在店里帮你。 And I can help you at the shop.
你没听医生的话吗?毫米。 Are you not hearing the doctors? -Mm.
-你会没事的。你可以活下去。 -You're gonna be okay. You can live.
我们仍然可以做所有我们想做的事情。 We can still do all the things we wanted to do.
去大峡谷。北极光。 Go to the Grand Canyon. Northern lights.
托斯卡纳。-哦,亲爱的。 Tuscany. -Oh, honey.
如果我都不记得了，为什么还要去那些地方? Why go to those places if I can't even remember them?
-我会帮你的。我将成为你的回忆。 -I'll help you. I'llbe your memory.
-最后怨恨我吗?不,谢谢。 -Oh, and end up resenting me? No, thanks.
我可不想每时每刻都有个保姆 I don't want a babysitter every second of every day
在我的余生里。 for the rest of my life.
我对自己不记得的生活没有兴趣。 I have no interest in living a life that I can't remember.
-他拒绝手术。怀亚特, -He's refusing the surgery. For Wyatt,
失去形成新记忆的能力 losing the ability to form new memories
是一种比死亡更可怕的命运。 is a fate worse than death.
-嗯，有很多东西要消化。 -Well, it's a lot to digest.
-我担心他的肿瘤会阻碍他 -I'm worried that his tumor may be impeding him
不能做出合理的医疗决定 from making a sound medical decision.
-好吧，别再说了。我会做一个心理评估 -Well, say no more. I'll do a psych eval,
确保他有能力。-谢谢。 make sure he has capacity. -Thank you.
是。狼。艾米丽的父母想见你 -Dr. Wolf. Emily's parents want to see you.
-我们真的想弄清真相。 -We're really trying to get to the bottom of it.
-你好。你找我? -Hi. You wanted to see me?
-你的实习生一直在挑衅我们的女儿 -Your interns have been trying to provoke our daughter
癫痫发作几个小时。 to have a seizure for hours.
他们做了很多事，从用闪光灯照她的脸， They've done everything from flashing lights into her face,
在她面前做后空翻。 to doing backflips in front of her.
后空翻令人印象深刻。-谢谢。 -The backflips were impressive. -Thank you.
-是啊，都不行。 -Yeah, uh, none of it is working.
-对。这些事情非常复杂。 -Right. These things are incredibly complex.
这需要时间。 They take time.
-是的，但是这些情节很恐怖 -Yeah, but these episodes are scary
等着你去制造一个， and waiting around while you try to cause one,
这是痛苦。我明白了。 it's traumatizing. -I understand.
没人想看到你害怕， Um, nobody wants to see you scared,
但为了让我们更好地了解她的情况， but in order for us to better understand her condition,
观察她大脑不受控制的电活动 observing her brain's uncontrolled electrical activity
当它发生的时候， while it's happening,
这能让我们了解更多 that's gonna give us the most insight
如何控制或预防更多的癫痫发作。 into how we can manage or prevent any more seizures.
我请求你相信我们 I am asking you to trust us
这样我们就能查个水落石出 so that we can get to the bottom of this and --
让你女儿感觉好点。 and help your daughter feel better.
你能再告诉我们一遍是什么导致了她最后一集吗? -Can you tell us again exactly what led up to her last episode?
-呃，还早呢。早上7:15 ? -Uh, it was early. Like, 7:15 in the morning?
-是的。爱米丽在她的房间里 -Yeah. Emily was in her room
在iPad上做数学作业 on her iPad doing her math homework.
-嗯。 -Mm-hmm.
-真的?艾米丽，你是不是… -Really? Emily, were you...
你一大早就起来做作业了? You were just up bright and early doing homework?
-我没在做作业。 -I wasn't doing homework.
我在看《活宝三人组》。 I was watching The Three Stooges.
我的父母禁止我看屏幕，直到我的成绩提高。 My parents banned screen time till my grades got up.
但我能说什么呢?我很喜欢闹剧。 But what can I say? I'm a sucker for slapstick.
加了。-三个谁? -Me too. -The Three who?
-Larry, Curly, Moe。… -Larry, Curly, Moe. The...
没有什么?看看现在谁不懂流行文化。 Nothing? Look who doesn't know pop culture now.
艾米丽，我们给这些外行看点东西怎么样 Emily, what do you say we show these dilettantes a thing
或者是关于经典喜剧的? or two about classic comedy, huh?
[监控器哔哔声，卷毛大笑] [ Monitor beeping, Curly laughing]
[笑] [ Laughs ]
你最喜欢的小丑是谁?我自己也偏爱卷毛。 Who's your favorite Stooge? I'm partial to Curly myself.
手下来。没有人比他更擅长肢体喜剧了。 -Hands down. No one does physical comedy better.
看看他。[笑] Just look at him. [ Laughs ]
棉花! -Cotton!
[两人笑] [ Both laugh ]
** **
[笑声] [ Laughter ]
[监控器快速哔哔声] [ Monitor beeping rapidly ]
艾米丽?艾米丽。 -Emily? Emily.
艾米丽?——! Emily? -Van!
[监视器持续哔哔声]-呃，她没有呼吸了。 [ Sustained beep on monitor ] -Uh, she's not breathing.
-范也不是。但我能感觉到脉搏。 -Neither is Van. But I feel a pulse.
-没有脉搏了。 -There's no pulse.
-我去拿护垫。等待,等待。只是等待。 -I'm getting the pads. -Wait, wait. Just wait.
给它五秒钟。事情会顺其自然的。 Give it five seconds. This will run its course.
以前有过。 It has before.
** **
-我们需要调用代码。 -We need to call a code.
** **
[监视器持续哔哔声]-艾米丽? [ Monitor beeping steadily ] -Emily?
——。-好的。 -Van. -Okay.
-他要回来了。 -He's coming back.
缓慢。你没事吧? Slowly. You okay?
-是的。 -Yeah.
** **
——[深吸一口气] -[ Breathes deeply ]
-你的生命体征如何?他们很好。我只是—— -How are your vitals? -They're fine. I just --
我今天什么也没吃，所以有点头晕。 I didn't eat anything today, so I was light-headed.
-我们还没谈完呢。 -We're not done talking about this.
马登夫妇。 Um, Mr. and Mrs. Madden.
我代表你向你道歉 Um, I owe you an apology on behalf
我的前任波特博士 of my predecessor, Dr. Porter.
他给你误诊了。 He gave you a misdiagnosis.
事实证明艾米丽并没有癫痫 It turns out Emily isn't suffering from seizures
或者是反射性癫痫。 or reflexive epilepsy.
但当有什么事让她笑得很厉害时， But when something makes her laugh very hard,
她的心跳减慢，直到完全停止。 her heart slows until it stops entirely.
-不是神经学的问题。 -It was never neurological.
她有笑声引起的心脏传导阻滞。 She has laughter-induced heart block.
-好消息是，这给了我们一个更清晰的想法 -The good news is that this gives us a much clearer idea
是什么导致了她的发作 about what's causing her episodes,
我们可以采取措施防止崩溃， and we can take actions to prevent a collapse,
或者，更糟糕的是，恶性心律失常。 or, worse, a malignant arrhythmia.
我们现在可以专注于一个疗程了。 We can focus on a course of treatment now.
我想让你再坚持一会儿。 I'd like you to hang tight for a little bit.
我们要把艾米丽留在这里观察 We'll keep Emily here for observation
直到我们想出一个可靠的解决方案。 until we can come up with a reliable solution.
-谢谢。比我快乐。 -Thank you. -My pleasure.
我很快就回来找你。 I'll be back with you soon.
我不想告诉艾米丽的父母 I don't want to tell Emily's parents
她这辈子都不能笑了。 that she can't laugh for the rest of her life.
所以让我们尽快想出一个永久性的解决办法。 So let's come up with a permanent fix soon.
-老兄，里面到底发生了什么? -Dude, what the hell happened in there?
-我们能不谈这个吗，丹娜? -Can we just not talk about it, Dana?
-是啊，拜托，范。 -Yeah, come on, Van.
你知道你总是因为耐心而抓狂。 You know you always freak out with patience.
与此同时，我今天差点被噎死， Meanwhile, I nearly got choked out today,
几乎没有退缩。不过这很酷。 barely flinched. It's cool, though.
你是一朵娇嫩的花。-你知道，如果你问沃尔夫 You're a delicate flower. -You know, if you ask Wolf,
他会说大多数植物都很有弹性。 he would say that most flora are very resilient.
[电梯铃响] [ Elevator bell dings ]
[电梯门打开] [ Elevator doors open ]
嗯。 -Hmm.
-你熟悉植物记忆的概念吗? -Are you familiar with the concept of plant memory?
是啊，我以为你不会问。 Yeah, I thought you'd never ask.
这是植物保存信息的机制 It's the mechanism by which a plant can retain information
通过经验刺激—— through experienced stimuli --
通过它的根，它的叶，它的花。 through its roots, its leaves, its flowers.
帮助它们适应新环境，存活下来。 Helps them to adapt to new environments and stay alive.
你觉得一个12岁的女孩会做出同样的事吗? You think a 12-year-old girl could do the same thing?
-我看到你把无名氏介绍给你的工厂了。 -I see you've introduced John Doe to your plant.
-谢谢。 -Thank you.
-我做了怀亚特·詹姆斯的心理评估。 -I did the psych eval on Wyatt James.
我不知道你加入了一个飞车党。 I didn't know you were affiliated with a biker gang.
-我没有关联。只是… -I'm not affiliated. Just...
他们修理我的自行车以换取医疗。 they fix my bike in exchange for medical treatment.
我们以物易物。物物交换吗? We barter. -Barter?
他很清楚拒绝手术的风险。 Well, the man is well aware of the risks of refusing surgery.
没有混乱的迹象。 There's no signs of confusion.
沃尔夫，他有能力做这个决定。 Wolf, he has capacity to make this decision.
我不得不让他出院。 I had to discharge him.
-但我们可以救他的命。 -But we can save his life.
-好吧，也许他不想 -Well, maybe he doesn't want
我们能给他的那种生活。 the kind of life we can give him.
想象一下，每天早上醒来， Imagine waking up every morning,
不知道前一天发生了什么， no idea what happened the day before,
更别说10分钟前了。 let alone 10 minutes ago.
你觉得这是一种生活吗? Does that sound like a life to you?
-这要看当天的情况。——[笑] -Depends on the day. -[ Chuckles ]
-如果你是怀亚特， -If you were in Wyatt's shoes,
你希望你最后的记忆是什么? what would you want your last memory to be?
毫米。一件容易的事。 -Mm. Easy.
我，莫里斯和玛雅。 Me, Morris, and Maya.
一堆意大利菜。 A mess of Italian food.
好酒好笑。 Good wine, good laughs.
-听起来这是一段值得为之奋斗的回忆。 -Well, that sounds like a memory worth fighting for.
-你知道的，尽管会很疼 -You know, as much as it would hurt
不再和他们制造回忆， to never make another memory with them,
至少他们能和我一起创造新的回忆。 at least they'd get to make new memories with me.
** **
——[敲门] -[ Knocking ]
-看看你， -Oh, look at you,
像个老医生一样出诊。 making house calls like an old-timey doctor.
-嗯，除了骑我的自行车。 -Well, except on my bike.
不是马。——(笑) Not a horse. -[ Laughs ]
我清除了。 I'm purging.
让罗西在我走后过得轻松点。 Make things easier on Rosie after I'm gone.
嘿，你想要我的副本 Hey, you want my copy
“摩托车维修的禅宗与艺术”? of "Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance"?
-不。你会错过的。 -No. You'll miss it.
-医生，我不会让你切开我的头的。 -Doc, I'm not letting you cut open my head.
如果我明天醒来什么都不记得了， If I wake up tomorrow and I can't remember a thing,
那是因为我前一天晚上玩得太尽兴了。 it's because I had too much of a good time the night before.
——[笑] -[ Chuckles ]
我不是来说服你的，怀亚特。 I'm not here to convince you, Wyatt.
我只是来谈谈的。 I'm just here to talk it out.
-我妈妈有痴呆。 -My mom had dementia.
忘记了所有人，包括她自己的孩子。 Forgot everyone, including her own kids.
-这是一种可怕的疾病。 -It's a terrible disease.
但这不是那样。 But this isn't that.
-嗯，有时候感觉就是这样。 -Well, some days it feels like it is.
过去的几个月，我感觉自己还活着 These past few months, it feels like I'm living
打地鼠游戏 a game of Whac-A-Mole.
事情就在那一秒， Things are there just one second,
下一秒，他们就不见了。 and the next, they're gone.
我走进一个房间，我不知道 I walk into a room and I have no idea
我从哪里来，甚至我为什么在那里。 where I came from or even why I'm there.
这对我来说并不容易 It's not easy on me,
但这对罗西来说更难。 but it's way harder on Rosie.
** **
就像一场浓雾在夜晚降临。 It's like a thick fog comes in at night.
我不能清晰地思考。 I can't think clearly.
感觉我可能会失去一切…… It feels like I could lose everything...
…把我一个人丢在地狱里。 ...and be left out on my own in limbo.
有那么几秒钟，我被卡住了。 For a few seconds, I'm stuck.
** **
我不想我的下半辈子都被困在这里。 I don't want to be trapped for the rest of my life.
-我也不想那样。 -I wouldn't want that either.
-那我们就谈清楚了。 -Then I guess we talked it out.
-你介意我问一下它的意义吗? -Do you mind if I ask the significance?
-这是我女儿出生的日期-海莉 -It's the date my daughter was born -- Hailey.
这是我人生中最美好的一天。 Best damn day of my life.
我好几年没见过她了。 I haven't seen her in years.
我的错，不是她的。 My fault, not hers.
她和她妈妈分手了。 Messy split with her mom.
天啊，我真希望时光能倒流。 God, I wish I could turn back the clock.
-我们不都这样。 -Don't we all.
但我们不能倒退。 But we can't move backwards.
我们不可能弥补所有的错误。 We can't unmake every mistake.
我们只能继续前进。 We can only move forward.
怀亚特，做这个手术意味着爱你的人， Wyatt, getting this surgery will mean the people who love you,
也许有一天甚至是海莉 maybe even Hailey one day,
还能和你一起制造回忆。 will still be able to make memories with you.
** **
要长久。占用你的时间。 -Oliver. Moment of your time.
(叹气)你错过了员工会议。 [ Sighs ] You missed the staff meeting.
-我和一个病人在一起。 -I was with a patient.
-我猜是怀亚特·詹姆斯吧? -Wyatt James, I'm assuming?
我看到他要做手术。 I saw he's scheduled for surgery.
你改变了他的想法。-他改变主意了。 You changed his mind. -Hechanged his mind.
-你刚好在他家? -And you just happened to be at his house?
-你现在想给我一个大演讲 -You want to give me a big speech now
出诊怎么违反了医院的规定? and how house calls are against hospital protocol?
-我没有准备，但我很乐意即兴发挥。 -I hadn't prepared one, but I'm happy to improvise.
不然我就咬着舌头说 Or I'll just bite my tongue and say
我很高兴你们的机械师做出了正确的选择。 that I'm glad your mechanic made the right choice.
-(冷淡地)是的。 -[ Unenthusiastically ] Yeah.
并不是吗? -Didn't he?
-切除肿瘤能阻止怀亚特 -Removing the tumor will prevent Wyatt
不要制造任何新的记忆。 from making any new memories.
我想到了一个帮助他适应的计划。 I came up with a plan to help him adapt.
但是(叹气)如果这太残酷了怎么办? But [Sighs] what if that's too great a cruelty?
-如果是礼物呢? -What if it's a gift?
-现在你选择做一个乐观主义者了吗? -Nowis when you choose to be an optimist?
-不是所有的回忆都值得重温。 -Not all memories are worth revisiting.
** **
-噢，奥利，看这个。 -Oh, Olly, look at this.
这是一种复活蕨。 It's a resurrection fern.
哦!看到了吗? Oh! See?
它是干燥的。感觉它。 It's dry. Feel it.
没有水，它就会休眠 Without water, it can go dormant
直到雨再来， until the rain returns,
然后它就会从小小的沉积坟墓里冒出来。 and then it'll rise from its little sedimentary grave.
他们是幸存者。 They're survivors.
-就像我们一样。 -Just like us.
-你知道，在日本文化中，蕨类植物代表家庭。 -You know, in Japanese culture, ferns represent family.
叶子合在一起更结实， The leaves are stronger together,
相互保护，相互支持。 protecting and supporting each other.
** **
戴娜，你能多快在网上找到一个人? Dana, how quickly can you find someone on the Internet?
你能多快说出这个名字? -How quickly can you say the name?
下午,珍妮。准备好开颅手术了吗? -Afternoon, Jenny. A Team ready for a craniotomy?
-告诉兰德尔20分钟后准备手术。 -Tell Randall to prep the O.R. Scrubbing in 20.
-医生，病人不是。-怎么样，詹姆斯先生? -Doctor, the patient isn't -- -How we doing, Mr. James?
我到处都找不到他。 -I can't find him anywhere.
** **
-当你说"让我们留下最后的回忆" -When you said, "Let's make one last memory,"
你没说我们会被敬酒。 you didn't say we were gonna get toasted.
我看过的最好的医生。-别太兴奋了。 Best doctor I've ever had. -Don't get too excited.
你女儿在这里管理酒吧。 Your daughter tends bar here.
你是认真的吗?事先说一声就好了。 -Are you serious? A heads-up would have been nice.
-这是比赛时间的决定，怀亚特。 -It was a game time decision, Wyatt.
我想在你失去创造新记忆的能力之前， I figured before you lose the ability to make new memories,
你可能会想要记住和海莉的重聚。 you might want to remember a reunion with Hayley.
[手机铃声] [ Cellphone rings ]
-是吗? -Yeah?
是给你的。 It's for you.
-你好吗? -Hello?
-你最好给我个合理的解释 -You better have a damn good explanation
为什么你会靠近术前病人 why you're within arm's reach of a pre-op patient
是谁违背医嘱离开了医院 who left the hospital against medical advice
而且未经授权。是我授权的。 and without authorization. -I authorized it.
怀亚特有些事 Wyatt has some things
他在手术前需要好好照顾一下。 he needs to take care of before the surgery.
-所以你没通知任何人就带走了他? -So you took him without notifying anyone?
你到底在哪儿?! Where the hell are you?!
-嗯，在路边的小卖部 -Um, at a roadside establishment
叫做岩石堆酒吧和夜总会。 called The Rock Pile Bar and Nightclub.
-你带他去酒吧? -You took him to a bar?
-是啊，听着，我的疯狂是有原因的，卡罗尔。 -Yeah, well, look, there's a method to my madness, Carol.
-沃尔夫，快把怀亚特叫回来! -Wolf, get Wyatt back here now!
我会的，只要我们处理好这件事。 -I will, just as soon as we take care of this thing.
好吧?我爱你。再见。 Okay? I love you. Bye.
狼吗?-他在哪儿? -Wolf? -Where is he?
-你们真的想让一个12岁的孩子服用受体阻滞剂 -You guys seriously want to put a 12-year-old on beta-blockers
她的余生? for the rest of her life?
——非侵入性。 -They're non-invasive.
它们也被证明在类似的情况下有效 They're also proven to work in similar cases
通过减少异常的心源性神经反射。 by reducing the abnormal neurocardiogenic reflex.
我用它们来治疗焦虑，我现在很健康。 I take them for anxiety, and I am thriving.
在给她补充水分和盐的同时 Along with increasing her fluids and salt,
可以工作。-范说得有道理。 could work. -Van's got a point.
父母只是希望他们的孩子快乐。 Parents just want their kids to be happy.
想象一下，如果艾米丽是你的女儿。 I mean, imagine if Emily was your daughter.
你想让她一辈子都静音吗? Would you want her to spend the rest of her life on mute?
-如果在这两者之间选择，或者完全没有生活? -If it's between that or no life at all?
问任何一个家长，他们都会坚定地说“是的”。 Ask any parent and they'll say hard "yes."
-我明白。好吧?我做的事。 -I get that. Okay? I do.
但是来自某人 But coming from someone
谁会像我一样把世界拒之门外 who blocks out as much of the world as I can
因为你说得对，雅各布，我一见到病人就害怕， because you're right, Jacob -- I freak out around patients,
但我亲身经历过，那不是生活的方式，好吗? but I know firsthand that that's no way to live, okay?
尤其是对孩子来说。 Especially not for a kid.
-沃尔夫不希望艾米丽唯一的选择是稀释快乐 -Wolf wouldn't want Emily's only option to be diluting joy
就因为她的大脑不一样。 just because her brain's different.
-从技术上讲，出现神经心源性晕厥 -Technically, neurocardiogenic syncope appears
是大脑的问题。 to be a problem with the brain.
好吧，但我们现在都知道了 Okay, but we all know now
艾米丽的心脏出了问题 that this is more a problem with Emily's heart.
-我们不需要抑制她的大脑。 -We don't need to suppress her brain.
-我们需要支撑她的心脏。 -We need to support her heart.
[门关上，摇滚音乐响起] [ Doors close, rock music plays ]
-哇，哇，哇，哇，哇。术前不给你喝威士忌。 -Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. No pre-op whiskey for you.
-你想让我清醒地做这件事?我做的事。 -You expect me to do this sober? -I do.
** **
-[嘲笑]你开玩笑吧。 -[ Scoffs ] You gotta be kidding me.
你在这里做什么? What are you doing here?
hailey。-[叹息] -Hailey. -[ Sighs ]
-我是怀亚特的神经科医生。我是沃尔夫博士。 -Uh, I'm Wyatt's neurologist. I'm Dr. Wolf.
听着，我知道我们的造访可能会让你有些震惊 Look, I know that our dropping in may come as a bit of a shock,
但你爸爸今天要接受挽救生命的脑部手术， but your dad is undergoing lifesaving brain surgery today,
他要见你，跟你谈谈，然后 and he needed to see you to speak to you before --
-我对他无话可说， -I have nothing to say to him,
祝你额叶切除手术顺利。 except best of luck with the lobotomy.
-那我能说话吗? -Can -- Can I do the talking, then?
这是我欠你的。 I owe you that at least.
海莉，我让很多年过去了， Hailey, I let a lot of years go by,
我很害怕… and, uh, I-I got scared...
把事情做对。 to make things right.
但是，海莉，我想让你知道我这辈子唯一的遗憾 But, Hailey, I want you to know that my one regret in life
失去了你太多的爱。 is missing so much of yours.
我只能说，这不是你的错。 And all I can say is, it's not your fault.
我太自私了。 I was selfish.
你应该得到更好的。 You deserved better.
你应该有个更好的爸爸。 You deserved a better dad.
不管怎样， And for what it's worth,
我爱你，我很抱歉。 I love you, and I'm sorry.
-是啊，你来晚了10年。 -Yeah, well, you're about 10 years too late.
-嘿，我知道，我知道我支持你。 -Hey, I know, I know. I'm with you.
我支持你。他早就该这么做了。 I'm with you. He should have done this a long time ago.
但是我提到的那个手术， But that surgery that I mentioned,
这会导致永久性的记忆缺陷。 it's gonna result in permanent memory deficits.
你爸爸就不能制造新的回忆了 Your dad is not gonna be able to make any new memories
手术后。 after the operation.
所以他是在拿自己的健康和生命冒险， So he's risking his well-being, his life,
一切都是为了你。 everything to be here for you.
这将是怀亚特最后的记忆。 This will be Wyatt's last memory.
就在此时此地。 Right here, right now.
-好吧，那样的话… -Well, in that case...
** **
我的成长过程中没有你的记忆 I-I grew up without you in any of my memories --
演奏会，生日， um, recitals, birthdays,
假期，舞会，毕业典礼。 holidays, prom, graduation.
我这辈子都在努力忘记你的存在。 I spent my entire life trying to forget that you exist.
好了。 So here you go.
你对我最后的记忆是这样的 Your last memory of me is this --
我永远不会原谅你。 I will never, ever forgive you.
** **
-你还好吧?你想坐下吗? -You all right? You want to sit down?
-不，没什么。给我一点时间。 -No, it's nothing. Just give me a second.
[深呼吸] [ Breathes deeply ]
我很抱歉。 -I'm sorry about that.
我通常更擅长家庭聚会。 I'm usually better at family reunions.
-她说了她该说的话。 -She said what she needed to say.
我需要听到。我应该记住的。 I needed to hear it. I should remember that.
怀亚特。嘿。在这里。坐下来。我最好给你检查一下。 -Wyatt. Hey. Here. Sit down. I better examine you.
好吧?到这里来。 Okay? Come here.
告诉我，你现在是什么感觉? Tell me, what are you -- What are you feeling right now?
这是怎么呢？-我不知道。的东西了。 What's going on? -I don't know. Something's off.
我的头快疼死了，我觉得我疼死了 My head is killing me, and I feel like I have
酒醉后的颤抖。[车辆驶近] the shakes from a bender. [ Vehicle approaching ]
令人难以置信的。 -Unbelievable.
你有救世主情结的反面吗? Do you have the opposite of a savior complex?
你不能和我的病人一起兜风! You cannot go on a joyride with my patient!
不是现在。他是混乱的。 -Not now. He's ataxic.
他的头痛和昏睡越来越严重。在这里。 He's got worsening headache and lethargy. Here.
他的脑积水越来越严重了。 -His hydrocephalus is worsening.
我们得送他去手术室，马上! We gotta get him to an O.R. -- stat!
你能开多快? -How fast can you drive?
什么啦? -What's happening?
你要带他去哪里?克斯将军。 Where are you taking him? -Bronx General.
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[车门关闭] [ Vehicle door closes ]
[悬疑音乐] [ Suspenseful music plays ]
怀亚特。呼吸。呼吸加快。 -Wyatt. Breathe. Breathe faster.
-让他坐直点。给他换气。 -Sit him up more upright. Get him to hyperventilate.
降低他的颅内压。-我知道如何管理 Bring down his ICP. -I am aware of how to manage
颅内压升高。 elevated intracranial pressure.
非常感谢。打开收音机。 Thank you so much. Turn on the radio.
-什么?你想要…-是的。收音机。音乐。 -What? Do you want the... -Yes. Radio. Music.
-* boom- shakalaka-laka, boom-chick-a-boom* -* Boomshakalaka-laka, boom-chick-a-boom*
-这就是你听的?-这是我的健身组合。 -This is what you listen to? -It's my workout mix.
另外，我们需要快速处理他的颅内压。 Plus, we need something fast to manage his ICP.
-怀亚特，嘿，我需要你 -Wyatt, hey, I want you
随着音乐的节拍呼吸。 to breathe to the beat of the music.
这是我们唯一能降低你大脑压力的方法。 It's the only way we can bring down the pressure in your brain.
好吧?怀亚特。吸气，呼气。 Okay? Wyatt. Breathe -- in, out.
[蓝牙叮当声]-新消息 [ Bluetooth dings ] -New message
来自达斯汀健身课春分。 from Dustin Abs Class Equinox.
“昨晚太热了。今晚有空吗?” "Last night was so hot. You free tonight?"
-什么?-你想回复吗? -What? -Would you like to reply?
-* boom- shakalaka-laka-laka, boom-laka* -* Boomshakalaka-laka-laka, boom-laka*
-怀亚特，醒醒!怀亚特，深呼吸，好吗? -Wyatt, wake up! Wyatt, breathe for me, huh?
他是减轻。你不能开快点吗? He's obtunded. Can't you drive any faster?
-在这一点上，它不会有什么不同。除非… -At this point, it wouldn't make a difference. Unless...
取出脊髓针。 Take out a spinal needle.
我们要做一个经眶心室穿刺。 We'll do a transorbital ventricular puncture.
-什么?我们在移动的车里。 -What? We're in a moving vehicle.
我可能不小心刺到他的眼球。 I could accidentally stab his eyeball.
你车里怎么会有脊椎针? Why do you have a spinal needle in your car?
-你现在为什么问一些无关紧要的问题? -Why are you asking questions that don't matter right now?
听着，如果你做对了 Look, if you do this correctly,
你要穿过眼睛上方的轨道 you're gonna go through the orbit just above the eye
去除脑脊液 to remove cerebrospinal fluid
降低颅内压。 and decrease intracranial pressure.
现在，拿起你的针。-也许要尽量避开坑洼。 Now, take your needle. -Maybe try to avoid potholes.
-小心地穿刺眼眶顶部 -Carefully puncture at the roof of the orbit
就在瞳孔中线的中间 just medial to the midpupillary line
瞄准水平45度角。 and aim 45 degrees horizontally.
-无论你做什么，都不要急转弯。 -Whatever you do, don't swerve.
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[空气嘶嘶声] [ Air hissing ]
-他15分钟前失去知觉。我降低了 -He lost consciousness 15 minutes ago. I lowered
经眶室穿刺检查颅内压。 his ICP with a transorbital ventricular puncture.
他可以被唤醒，但语无伦次。 He's arousable, but not coherent.
-如果我失去他，就是你的责任。 -If I lose him, it's on you.
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[关门] [ Door closes ]
——起搏器吗? -A pacemaker?
我们在讨论可能的治疗方法 -We were discussing potential treatments,
我开始想，与其试着去做 and I started to think -- Instead of trying
不让艾米丽笑 to keep Emily from laughing,
心脏起搏器可以覆盖她的心脏 a pacemaker could override her heart's
对笑声的不恰当反应。 inappropriate response to laughter.
沃尔夫博士是怎么想的? -And what did Dr. Wolf think?
他是你的主治医生。 He is your attending.
-他坚持要我跟你谈谈。 -He insisted that I speak to you.
他让我给你看这些。 And he told me to show you these.
-谢谢。 -Thank you.
笑声引起的心脏传导阻滞的起搏器并非闻所未闻。 A pacemaker for laughter-induced heart block is not unheard of.
但对她这个年纪的人来说，这是一种非传统的手术。 But it's an unorthodox procedure for someone her age.
-比服用受体阻滞剂好 -Better than taking beta-blockers
在她的余生里。 for the rest of her life.
尊敬的首席。 Respectfully, Chief.
-我打电话给心脏科，安排她去做导管室检查。 -I'll call cardiology and get her on the cath lab schedule.
干得好，马库斯博士。 Strong work, Dr. Markus.
-谢谢。 -Thank you.
-还有一件事。沃尔夫博士坚持要我参与吗? -One more thing. Dr. Wolf insisting that I weigh in?
请。下次别帮他打掩护了。 Please. Next time, don't cover for him.
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我永远不会原谅这个混蛋，如果他死在我面前。 -I'll never forgive the bastard if he dies on me.
-怀亚特的人很能干。 -Wyatt is in very capable hands.
尼科尔斯医生是其中之一 Dr. Nichols is one of the --
他是个优秀的外科医生。 He's an excellent surgeon.
[脚步声走近] [ Footsteps approaching ]
-你爸爸每天都在谈论你。 -Your dad talks about you every day.
你在这里对他来说意味着一切。 It'll mean everything to him that you're here.
-希望他能活着看到。 -Let's hope he lives to see it.
[关门] [ Door closes ]
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-手术的延迟意味着我们的工作更加复杂， -The delay in surgery meant our work was more complicated,
但我们切除了肿瘤。 but we were able to remove the tumor.
因为肿瘤造成的损伤 Due to the damage the tumor caused
负责形成记忆的关键结构， to key structures responsible for forming memory,
我们对记忆丧失的预测很可能是准确的。 our predictions of memory loss are likely accurate.
但他还活着。 But he's alive.
他还活着，他没事。 He's alive and he's okay.
他正在从麻醉中苏醒过来… He's coming out of anesthesia now...
-*有些日子* -* Some days *
-回忆是了解过去的有力窗口。 -Memories are powerful windows into the past.
他们可以让我们充满喜悦，也可以让我们充满悲伤。 They can fill us with joy or overwhelm us with grief.
一段我们想要留给自己的时光。 A moment in time we want to keep to ourselves.
其他时候，它们是共同的经历。 Other times, they're shared experiences.
当我们努力记起它们时， And when we struggle to remember them,
需要全村人来填补空缺。 it takes a village to fill in the gaps.
-嘿，硬汉。 -Hey, tough guy.
如果你正在看这个视频， If you're watching this,
意思是你这个固执的混蛋完成了手术。 it means your stubborn ass went through with the surgery.
是的，你昨天看过这个视频 And yes, you watched this video yesterday
也可能是前一天。在你的游戏中没有羞耻。 and probably the day before. No shame in your game.
如果你想知道还发生了什么， If you're wondering what else is going on,
看看你床边的笔记本。 check the notebook next to your bed.
那是你要记录的地方 That's where you'll record all
你一天中精彩的细节 of the riveting details of your day
帮助未来的你记住。 to help future you remember.
-*我试着去理解* -为了怀亚特 -* I'm trying to understand * -For Wyatt,
保持自己的记忆是很重要的。 it was important to be the keeper of his own memories.
但怀亚特也不得不接受他的村庄的帮助。 But Wyatt also had to accept the help from his village.
-*什么时候结束?* -* Where does it end? *
它从哪里开始?* * Where does it begin? *
哦，恐怕我永远也不会知道了 * Oh, I fear I'll never know *
-为了真正治愈 -In order to truly heal,
怀亚特不得不接受他的过去。 Wyatt had to make peace with his past...
- - -一切都是突如其来的 -* Everything comes all at once *
-嘿。嗯? -Hey. -Hmm?
-我想让你知道我爱你，爸爸。 -I want you to know that I love you, Dad.
我知道这很不容易，但我原谅你。 And I know it hasn't been easy, but I do forgive you.
-*哦哦，哦哦哦* -* Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh *
明天你能再提醒我一次吗? -Can you remind me again tomorrow?
-*总有一天* -是的，我会尽力的 -* Some days * -Yeah, I'll try.
-*有些日子* -* Some days *
-…但最重要的是，从他的礼物中找到快乐。 -...but most importantly, find joy in his present.
—挑选一个。你的选择。 -Pick one. Your choice.
——啊! -Ah!
-因为有时候生活是向前的 -Because sometimes a life lived forwards
-好了，艾米丽，准备好了吗? -All right, Emily, you ready?
这次，我们要监测你的心率。 This time, we're gonna monitor your heart rate.
起搏器应该让你的心脏保持跳动， The pacemaker should keep your heart beating,
不管卷毛多逗你笑。 no matter how much Curly makes you laugh.
-不,杜松子酒。 -No, schnapps.
[性交!)哦… [ Bonk!] Oh...
-[笑][监视器持续哔哔声] -[ Laughs ] [ Monitor beeping steadily ]
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[笑] [ Laughing ]
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[监视器持续哔哔声] [ Monitor beeping steadily ]
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[笑] [ Laughing ]
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——(笑) -[ Laughs ]
[艾米丽笑] [ Emily laughing ]
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-玛雅又忘了她的足球包了? -Maya forget her soccer bag again?
-你在国内很难确定， -You've been hard to pin down at home,
所以我想在收费时间给你打个电话 so I thought I'd try you during billable hours.
结果如何? What's the verdict?
莫里斯…… -Morris...
…就像我想告诉自己的那样 ...as much as I want to tell myself
我可以从过去的事中走出来 that I can move on from what happened...
…我想我做不到。 ...I don't think that I can.
-Carol，如果我能把一切都收回 -Carol, if I could take it all back --
你不能。 -You can't.
这是我欠自己的…… And I owe it to myself...
这是我们欠彼此的 We -- We owe it to each other
看看我们分开后的生活是什么样子。 to see what our lives are like apart.
我觉得我们应该分开。 I think we should separate.
-试一试怎么样? -What about a trial basis?
-[叹息] -[ Sighs ]
很好。我们给它几个月的时间。 Fine. We'll give it a few months.
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[流鼻涕] [ Sniffles ]
我们什么时候告诉玛雅? -When do we tell Maya?
——[深吸一口气] -[ Breathes deeply ]
别让我做决定。 Don't ask me to decide.
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[敲门]-Dr。狼。分页吗? [ Knock on door ] -Dr. Wolf. You paged?
是。马库斯，请进。 -Dr. Markus, come on in.
-我想我要被解雇了。 -I assume I'm getting fired.
-你为什么这么说? -Why would you say that?
-我不能做脊椎穿刺。在艾米丽面前倒下了 -I couldn't do the spinal tap. collapsed in front of Emily.
-当然，你有过一些失误， -Sure, you've had some stumbles,
但你也赢过。 but you've had wins, too.
你的心脏起搏器帮艾米丽解决了 Your pacemaker solve for Emily
让她有机会重新过上充实的生活。 gave her a chance to live a full life again.
和… And...
我觉得可能是神经学上的原因 I think there may be a neurological reason
为什么她死了，你却停止了呼吸。 why you stopped breathing when she did.
我觉得你可能是神经系统出了问题 I think you may have a neurological condition
被称为镜像触觉联觉。 called mirror-touch synesthesia.
有镜像触觉的人真的能感觉到这个人 People with mirror-touch literally feel what the person
他们说话的对象是感觉。 that they're talking to is feeling.
-现在，我感觉 -Right now, I'm feeling
好像你有点太兴奋了。 like you're a little too excited about this.
-不。我很抱歉。它——它…… -No. I'm sorry. It -- It is...
这是令人兴奋的。这种情况非常罕见。 It's exciting. It's incredibly rare.
你对这些有共鸣吗? Does any of this resonate for you?
-是的。 -Yeah.
我是说，我看到有人在地铁里哭， I mean, I see somebody crying on the subway,
然后我就失控了 and I just lose it.
我看见有人在吃三明治 I see somebody eating a sandwich
就像他们真的把食物塞进我嘴里。 and it's like they're literally shoving food into my mouth.
-但你也能感受到美好的事物。 -But you also feel the good things, too.
你眼中的诅咒可能是真正的财富。 What you see as a curse could be a real asset.
我们只需要想办法利用它为我们所用。 We just need to figure out how to use it to our advantage.
-你在怀亚特·詹姆斯身上冒了很大的风险。 -You took a real risk with Wyatt James.
他可能已经死了。——是对的。 He could have died. -That's right.
但他没有。这是一场赌博。有些风险是值得的。 But he didn't. It was a gamble. Some risks pay off.
-有时候你让我想起了你爸爸 -Sometimes you remind me so much of your dad --
任性，毫无悔意，理想主义到极点。 willful, unapologetic, idealistic to a fault.
-你刚刚列举了我的优点，所以… -Well, you just listed my best qualities, so...
——[笑] -[ Chuckles ]
嗯。 Hm.
复活蕨类植物。 Resurrection ferns.
没有水, Without water,
它们休眠，直到雨季来临 they go dormant until the rain returns
它们从小小的沉积坟墓里冒出来。 and they rise from their little sedimentary graves.
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嘿。 Hey.
这是一种复活蕨。 It's a resurrection fern.
他们是幸存者。 They're survivors.
-就像我们一样。 -Just like us.
是你…… It was you...
是谁带我来的。 who brought me here.
没有爸爸。 Not Dad.
但每次我提起这件事， But all the times that I brought it up,
你为什么什么都不说? why didn't you ever say anything?
-我想让你记住那一天 -I wanted you to remember that day
就像你想要记住的那样。 the way that you wanted to remember it.
-但是爸爸在哪里? -But where was Dad?
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[门打开] [ Door opens ]
-我们给格特鲁德浇水怎么样 -How about we water Gertrude
让你爸爸好好休息，木瓜? and just let your dad rest, Mugwump?
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-那天他一直没离开沙发。 -He never got off the couch that day.
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我把很多东西都屏蔽掉了。 I blocked so much of it out.
-记忆是主观的。 -Memories are subjective.
-[流鼻涕] -[ Sniffles ]
-大脑中没有任何机制 -There's no mechanism in the brain
这可以保证他们的真实性。 that can guarantee the truth of them.
但我可以告诉你，奥利弗…… But I can tell you, Oliver...
你记得你父亲给你的爱…… the love you remember feeling from your dad...
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…这是真的。 ...that was real.
-嗯…… -Well...
(叹息) [Sighs]
…我想我只能相信你的话了。 ...I guess I'll have to take your word for it.
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