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我叫詹姆斯 I'm James.
今年17岁 I'm 17.
我非常确定自己是个心理变态 And I'm pretty sure I'm a psychopath.
♪ I'm laughing on the outside ♪
去他妈的
世界
第一季 第一集 - By aBu 20170116
♪ Crying on the inside ♪
♪ 'Cause I'm so in love ♪
♪ With you ♪
我在八岁时发现自己毫无幽默感 I was eight when I realized I didn't have a sense of humor.
为什么女王不挥这只手？ Why doesn't the Queen wave with this hand?
为什么女王不挥这只手？ Eh? Why doesn't the Queen wave with this hand?
因为这只是我的手 'Cause it's my hand!
我总是想往我爸脸上揍一拳 I'd always wanted to punch my dad in the face.
♪ Laughing on the outside ♪
有听懂吗？ Did you?
我九岁时，他买了一台油炸锅 When I was nine, he bought a deep-fat fryer.
那是他在一个美国购物频道看到的 He saw it on an American shopping channel.
有次我把手放进去 One day, I put my hand in it.
我想让自己有所感觉 I wanted to make myself feel something.
15岁时，我把邻居家的猫 放进纸箱里带到森林 When I was 15, I put my neighbor's cat in a box and took it into the woods.
它或许有个名字吧 It probably had a name.
在那之后，我杀了更多动物 After that, I killed more animals.
每一只我都清楚记得 And I remember every single one.
♪ Laughing on the outside ♪
♪ Crying on the inside ♪
♪ 'Cause I'm so in love ♪
♪ With you ♪
学校对我来说无聊透顶 School was beneath me,
但那是适合观察并选择目标的好地方 but it was a good place for observation and selection
因为我有个计划 because I had a plan.
我打算杀掉更大只的猎物 I was gonna kill something bigger,
比以往都还大只 much bigger.
嗨 Hey.
我见过你玩滑板 I've seen you skating.
你的技术超烂 You're pretty shit.
给我滚 Fuck off.
(艾莉莎)
有时我会觉得非躺下来不可 I get these moments when I have to lie down
因为一切都让人难以承受 because everything feels, sort of, too much.
我躺着望向天空 有时蓝、有时灰、有时黑 And I look up and see the blue or the grey or the black
我会觉得自己融化于其中 and I feel myself melting into it.
而就在某一瞬间 我能感到自由和快乐 And for, like, a split second, I feel free and happy.
天真无邪 Innocent.
像一只狗 Like a dog.
或一个外星人 Or an alien.
或者一个婴儿 Or a baby.
请移驾进屋，小姐 Your presence is required, young lady.
你干嘛学《唐顿庄园》的老派腔调？ Why are you talking like Downton Abbey?
快进来帮忙 Just get inside and help.
我妈原本很好，直到她跟我爸离婚 My mum used to be nice, but then she divorced my dad
遇见了东尼 and met Tony.
上礼拜，他说他觉得 我得穿大一点的胸罩 Last week, he said he thought I needed a bigger bra.
于是我就拿基辅鸡丢他的头 So I threw a Chicken Kiev at his head.
我妈装作没听到他说的话 Mum pretended that she hadn't heard him.
现在她有了完美房子和完美花园 Now she has the perfect house and the perfect garden
住在完美小区，还有一对完美双胞胎 in the perfect neighborhood with perfect twins.
好吧 Well...
他们的头确实香香的 their heads do smell nice, though.
真的 It's true.
我从八岁起就再也没见过我爸 I haven't see my dad since I was eight.
他无法融入社会，照顾不了家庭 He never fitted in. He couldn't settle.
所以他必须离开 So he had to leave.
我不怪他 I don't blame him.
他每年总是会寄生日卡片给我 But he sends me a card, without fail, every single birthday.
(生日快乐)
(祝福一位特别的少女，17岁)
其实我能理解 I understand, actually.
我不信任那些能融入社会的人 I don't trust people who fit in.
这是你传的吗？ Is this from you?
-怎么了？ -有没有搞错？ What? - What the fuck?
-怎样？ -我就在这里，就在你面前 - What? I'm here. I'm literally here.
这又不用钱 It's free.
♪ I've got so angry lately ♪
♪ Don't know what's wrong with me ♪
我不认为他能解救我 I'm not saying he's the answer,
但他是某种特别的存在 but he's something.
♪ It's been so weird lately ♪
♪ Don't know what's wrong with me ♪
♪ Found you staring at the... ♪
-嗨 -嗨 Hey. Hey.
我见过你玩滑板 I've seen you skating.
其实没有 I haven't.
-你的技术超烂 -给我滚 You're pretty shit. Fuck off.
艾莉莎是新来的 Alyssa was new.
她在那学期转来这间学校 She'd started that term.
我认为杀掉她会很有趣 I thought she could be interesting to kill.
♪ Never fall in love again, no, no ♪
♪ Never fall in love again, no, no, never fall in love again ♪
♪ No, no, never fall in love again, no, no... ♪
你在等我吗？ Are you waiting for me?
所以我假装爱上她 So I pretended to fall in love with her.
你的手怎么了？ What happened to your hand?
闭嘴 Shut up.
♪ I'll never fall in love again ♪
♪ I lost my one and only... ♪
我没有手机 I haven't got a phone.
好 OK.
我把它摔烂了 I smashed it.
好 OK.
算是故意摔的 Like, on purpose.
-好 -所以你没办法打给我 OK. So you can't call me.
好 OK.
我也没有手机 I don't have a phone either.
-真的吗？ -真的 - Really? - Yeah.
我讨厌手机 I hate them.
我知道谈恋爱的人会去约会 I knew that people in love went out on dates.
你想约会吗？ Do you wanna go on a date?
跟我约会？ With me.
她答应了 She said yes.
嗨，两位需要什么？ Hi, what can I get for you today?
这是真的吗？ Is this true?
“南英格兰前十名 最棒的美式餐厅…”是啊 "One of the top 10 greatest American dining experiences"? Yeah!
我来为你们点餐 I can take your orders.
我要一份香蕉船圣代，樱桃多一点 - Uh-- - I will have a banana split with extra cherries. Mm-hmm.
还有蓝莓松饼 Some blueberry pancakes. Mm-hmm.
和一杯热巧克力加鲜奶油 And a hot chocolate with cream.
你一定是饿了 You're hungry!
还要多一支他妈的汤匙 And an extra fucking spoon.
-你说什么？ -要给他用的 - Excuse me? - For him.
不好意思，你不能说脏话 Sorry. You can't use language like that,
否则我会请你和你男朋友离开 otherwise I'm gonna have to ask you and your boyfriend to leave.
好啦 OK.
好啦，抱歉 OK, I'm sorry.
对不起 Sorry.
我要一份大盘的香蕉船大便 I will have a great big banana shit
上面铺满他妈的樱桃 with extra fucking cherries all on top of it.
很好，抱歉，到此为止了，马文 OK, sorry, that's it. Right. Marvin!
好啊，去找马文来 Oh, yeah! Go get Marvin!
看看马文能不能帮我做一份 香蕉船圣代，你这他妈的贱货 See if Marvin can make a banana split for me, you fucking cunt!
再见，马文 Bye, Marvin!
看来艾莉莎的心理有问题 It seemed that Alyssa had some issues.
我觉得我们所住的小镇 是地球上最无趣的 I think we live in the most boring town on the planet.
是啊，大概吧 Yeah, maybe.
每个人都他妈的一板一眼 Everyone's so fucking square.
他们有钱、有安全感 Well, they've got money. They feel safe.
你也是无趣的人吗？ Are you boring, too?
不是 No.
她是镇上唯一有个性的人 She's the only cool person in this town.
-你说她？ -没错 - Her? - Yeah.
她做过很厉害的事 She's done stuff.
她可能是个间谍 She was probably a spy
而且在堕胎还没合法时 就拿掉过15个孩子了 and had, like, 15 abortions when it was illegal or something.
她有过精彩人生 She's lived.
是吗？ Really?
随便啦 Whatever.
我们可以去你家吗？ Can we go to your house?
好啊，没问题 Yeah, sure.
你家怎么这么诡异？ Why do you live in such a weird house?
我不知道 I don't know.
太多窗户了 There's too many windows.
大概吧 Maybe.
这是你妈吗？ Is that your mum?
没错 Yeah.
她住在日本 She lives in Japan.
真酷，你长得像她 Cool. You look like her.
-这好复古喔 -我不喜欢这东西 - This is pretty retro. - I don't like it.
为什么？ Why not?
就是不喜欢 I just don't.
艾莉莎对性爱有点入迷 Alyssa was kind of a nymphomaniac.
怎么了？ What?
呵 Huh?
糟了 Oh, no.
猎人回家啰 The hunter has returned!
我敬你 Cheers!
这真是太棒了 Well, this is nice.
什么东西？ What is?
现在这样啊，你们两个，对吧？ This. You two. Eh?
我终于放心了 What a relief!
我告诉你，我根本不确定 他会不会…你知道… I tell you what. I've never been sure if he even, you know...
我总觉得他哪里怪怪的 I always thought there was something wrong with him!
其实我每个礼拜 都会为了健康需求自慰一次 I actually masturbated once a week for medical purposes.
我知道累积太久对身体不好 I knew it wasn't good to let things build up.
我以为他有可能是同性恋 I thought probably he was gay.
是的话…也没关系，当然啦 Which is... That's fine. Like Obviously.
但现在你出现了 But, uh, here you are.
说不定我是同性恋 Maybe I'm gay.
说不定他是无性恋 Maybe he's asexual.
现代人的性向多元得很 We're dealing with a really broad spectrum these days.
你爸真是讨人厌 Your dad's a prick.
对，我知道 Yeah, I know.
有时我会想往他脸上揍一拳 Sometimes, I feel like punching him in the face.
你有机会一定要揍下去 You should definitely do that.
你有帮女生口交过吗？ Have you ever eaten a pussy before?
在这种时候一定要展现自信 It was important to be confident in moments like this.
有啊，有过几次 Yeah. A few.
我希望你帮我 I want you to eat mine.
现在吗？ Now?
明天 Tomorrow.
我早上11点会过来 I'll be here at 11.
我在11点准备就绪 I was ready at 11.
事实上，我10点就准备好了 Actually, I was ready at ten.
事先排练实际流程是很重要的 It was important to work out the exact logistics beforehand.
到了12点，我开始觉得她可能不来了 When it got to 12, I started to think she might not be coming.
有时我会担心自己把事情搞砸 Sometimes, I worry that I ruin things.
但我觉得…不知道 But I feel... I dunno.
我觉得跟他在一起很自在 I feel comfortable with him.
有种安全感 Sort of safe.
艾莉莎… - Lyssa. Alyssa. - What?
-干嘛？ -换上这套衣服到楼下来 Put these on and come downstairs.
-什么？ -参加派对啊 - What? - The party.
门都没有，我说过了，我要出门 No way, I told you. I'm going out.
我不想再跟你吵同样的事，艾莉莎 I am not having this argument again, Alyssa.
妈，我不可能答应你 Mum, there's no way!
拜托了，亲爱的 我希望你在场，为了我 Please, love. I want you to be there. For me.
♪ Here I go, falling down, down, down... ♪
好了，这些不是给你吃的 拿去发给大家 Right. Those aren't for you. Hand them round.
你好 Hiya!
♪ I go deep into the funnel of love ♪
-你好吗？ -走开 - All right? - Go away.
这给你 Here.
喝瓶啤酒 Have a beer.
放松一下 Chill out.
谢啦，阿东 Thanks, Tone.
这一切都是狗屁 This is a load of bullshit.
你们的生活全是狗屁 Your life is bullshit.
如果你这么讨厌这种生活… Oh, well, if you hate it so much...
那就离开 leave.
我是认真的 I'm serious.
这样对我们都好 Do us all a favor.
你稍作打扮还蛮正的，对吧？ You look good when you make an effort, don't you?
♪ I learned the truth at 17 ♪
♪ That love was meant for beauty queens ♪
♪ And high-school girls with clear-skinned smiles... ♪
有时一切会豁然开朗 Sometimes, everything is suddenly really simple.
就好像世界在一瞬间转变 It's like everything shifts in a moment.
而你跨出了自己的身体 And you step out of your body,
跳脱自己的生活 out of your life.
你抽离自我，清楚看见你身在何处 You step out and you see where you are really clearly.
你看见自己 You see yourself.
而你心想… And you think...
“管他妈去死” Fuck. This. Shit.
♪ And those of us with ravaged faces ♪
♪ Lacking in the social graces ♪
♪ Desperately remained at home ♪
♪ Inventing lovers on the phone ♪
詹姆斯 James!
生气和悲伤交杂的感觉 似乎燃起了我的欲望 I think being angry and sad at the same time really turns me on.
过来吧 Come here.
我觉得自己大概可以爱上他 I think I could fall in love with him.
而且，他有一台车 Also he has a car.
我考虑着如果把她翻过身去 会不会比较容易割她喉咙 I wondered if it'd be easier to slit her throat if I flipped her round.
不看着她的脸会不会比较好 Whether it would be better not to see her face,
但那样的话，角度不对 but then, the angle.
那是一大难题 It was a conundrum.
-怎么了？ -我们离开这里吧 - What? - Let's get out of here.
-什么？ -我说真的 - What? - I'm serious.
我们立刻离开这个破烂小镇 Let's leave this shithole town. Now.
你讨厌这里，我讨厌这里 You hate it. I hate it.
我们的父母都是白痴，而你有一台车 Our parents are dickheads. You've got a car.
-那是我爸的车 -你爸是个白痴 - It's my dad's. - Who's a dickhead.
不管你要不要陪我，我都会离开 要一起走吗？ I'm going, whether you come with me or not. Are you in?
拜托答应我 Please say yes.
我发现我并不急着杀她 I figured I wasn't in a rush.
好啊，走吧 Yeah, all right.
♪ Superboy, Supergirl ♪
♪ Oh, I've got a question for your Superworld ♪
♪ What gets you through? ♪
♪ And who gets your past? ♪
我不知道我们要去哪里 也不知道何时会杀了她 I didn't know where we were going, or when I was gonna kill her,
但我揍了我爸的脸一拳 然后开走他的车 but I punched my dad in the face and stole his car.
当下感觉这似乎是个好的开始 And that felt like a good place to start.
♪ Who you are ♪
♪ Well, it can't be the same ♪
♪ 'Cause I hear you're from outer space ♪
♪ Pretty far ♪
♪ And Superboy's got his problems and girl's got her hang-ups ♪
♪ And I know that it can't be easy to be... ♪
你会害怕吗？ Are you scared?
不知道 I dunno.
或许有一点 A bit, maybe.
我不怕 I'm not.
她可能大胆过头了 She probably should have been.
♪ I said, "Please don't let them get you down ♪
♪ 'Cause you're the only superhero ♪
♪ In our town" ♪
♪ I said, "Please don't let them ♪
♪ Get you down ♪
♪ 'Cause you're the only superheroes ♪
♪ In our town" ♪
♪ I said, "Please don't let them... ♪