现代爱情 第一季 第三集
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你是谁
我是谁 Who am I?
我 I'm...
很难描述 hard to describe.
每个人都很难描述 是吧 I mean, everyone's hard to describe, right,
但我真的很难描述 but I'm really hard to describe,
你是谁
因为我有一点点 because I've got this little...
小问题 就一点点 ...thing. It's a little thing.
就这么简单 也不是大问题 Nothing more. Not like a big thing.
好吧 稍微有点大 Well... it's big-ish.
要看你怎么想了 Depending on the way you look at it.
这问题 不能说超小 也不算超大 It's-it's-it's not tiny, but it's not huge.
就是有点问题 就是这样 但是 It's a thing, that's all, but...
但是 但是 该怎么跟你说呢 But, but... how to tell you about it?
想知道我是谁吗 我告诉你 You want to know who I am? Here's who I am.
几年前 我在一家超市里 想买桃子 I'm in a supermarket, years ago, looking for some peaches.
超级想吃桃子 Like, a craving for peaches.
你懂的 有时候一醒来 You know the way you wake up sometimes
就会超级 超级想吃桃子 with, like, a crazy, crazy craving for peaches?
就是这样 Well, like that,
有机食品
我在发光 and I'm shimmering.
真的在发光 But literally shimmering, as I've chosen,
因为我早晨逛超市选择穿了一件 as my early-morning supermarket-visit attire,
我特别喜欢的亮片衬衫 a sequin shirt that I absolutely adore
一直没找到机会穿它 and which I can never find the right occasion for.
跟我的心情很搭 It matched my mood.
我心情相当好 I was in a really good mood.
问题也出在这里 Which is kind of the problem.
就在我以为心情不能更好的时候 And then,when I thought my mood couldn't get any better,
我瞧见了 I spied...
蔬菜柜台 vegetable counter.
沙拉
我表面上在寻找桃子 实际上 My ostensible search for peaches was in reality
是在寻找冒险 a search for adventure.
甚至是爱 Maybe even love.
只是当时我没意识到 I just didn't know it at the time.
假如你能在某个早晨 在一家超市里 If you can find love in a supermarket
找到真爱 这绝对是靠谱的真爱 early in the morning, you know you can trust it.
没有人会在这里下套 No one's here to pull, no one's looking
没有人会在这钓个床伴 找一夜情 for an easy lay or a one-night stand.
这里的男人不是借酒壮胆 也没有嗑嗨 Guys aren't buoyed by Dutch courage or high on cocaine.
这里的男人才是最货真价实的 Men are the real deal in here.
而且万一不成 你也不必悄悄躲进黑夜 Plus, if you strike out, you don't have to skulk off
两手空空 像个彻底的失败者 into the night, empty-handed like a total loser.
这是家商店 It's a store.
里面还打折呢 There's still bargains in here.
我喜欢结实多汁的 I like mine firm and juicy.
而且不要蹭烂的 And no bruises.
你是来买什么的 So what are you looking for?
我想吃水果沙拉 但是不想吃即食的 I had a hankering for a fruit salad, but, um, not preprepared.
-想要最新鲜的 你知道吧 -知道啊 - Like, super fresh, you know? - Right?
可是太浪费了 因为你得每一样 Because there's so much waste, because you have to buy,
都买一点 like, one of everything,
然后等到你再想吃水果沙拉 and then, by the time you want fruit salad again,
菜就不够新鲜了 everything's gone off just a little bit.
我自己一个人不会做水果沙拉的 良心上过不去 My conscience won't let me make fruit salad for just me.
除非 你有一堆到处乱跑的小孩 Unless, of course, you have a load of kids
还有个帮你吃水果的老婆 running around and a wife to help you eat your fruit.
你有老婆孩子帮你吃水果吗 So, do you have a wife and kids to help you eat your fruit?
我吗 没有 没有 Me? No, no.
-没有 -对 没有 - No? - I don't, no.
我也没有 Hmm. Me, neither.
这是你想要的吗 Is that what you're looking for?
是吧 I guess.
最后总是要... Ultimately, uh...
不是 我 我是说桃子 No, I-I meant the peach.
桃子啊 Oh, the peach.
-对 -对 - Yeah. - Yeah.
是 Right.
是是 对啊 我就是来卖桃子的 Right. Yeah. No, totally came in for peaches.
嗯 是的 Yeah, sure.
你 你还好吗 You, um... you okay?
你好像有点...异常地兴奋 You seem sort of... crazy energized.
应该是因为我今天早上吃的药 Oh, well, that'll be the 8-ball I took this morning.
什么 What?
没有 我好几天没好好睡了 No, I've been up for a couple of nights.
-好像 三天没睡了 -不可能吧 - Like, um... like, three nights. - No way.
你是有什么很紧的任务吗 What, you got, like, a deadline, or something?
不是不是 就是 No. No, I just...
生活有时候就是太有趣 让你睡不着 Uh, life's just too interesting to sleep sometimes.
-你懂我意思吗 -懂 懂 - You know what I mean? - Right, right.
你就胡说吧 Tell that to bears.
不过知道点别的东西也是好的 It's good to know that other stuff, too, though.
什么别的东西 What other stuff?
就是你想要那些 You know, that you want those things.
孩子 丈夫 Kids. A husband.
为什么 Why is that?
要跟一个人约会的话 It's just good to know those things
了解这些事情还是挺好的 when you're going on a date with someone.
是 是 很有用 Yeah. Yeah, it's useful.
那 我们去哪 So... where we going?
哪都行 只要是跟你 Anywhere. With you.
-真的吗 -对 - Really? - Yes.
你真的 你简直点亮了我的一天 I mean, you just, like, totally brightened up my day.
我本来 累得很 I was all, like, tired.
熬夜工作 醒来又沮丧又没有方向 Late night. Woke up dejected, directionless,
在超市里却被丽塔·海华斯一样的美女搭讪 and Rita Hayworth walks up to me in the supermarket.
拜托 I mean, come on.
没人会让这样美好的事物从身边溜走的 You just don't let stuff like that pass you by in life,
除非是个傻瓜 unless you're a fool.
-我爱你 -什么 - I love you. - What?
我爱你说话的方式 I love the way you talk.
我 我很爱 I-I-I love it.
谢谢 Oh. Thank you.
谢谢你今天来这里 And, uh, thank you for coming in here today.
不客气 You're so welcome.
周四晚上见 So, um, I'll see you Thursday evening.
很好 Perfect.
我想说 You know...
我突然觉得工作对我来说没什么意思了 Suddenly, work doesn't seem that interesting to me.
你想 你想去吃个早饭吗 Do you want to... you want to grab breakfast?
-我才刚认识你 -我们马上就要约会了啊 - I just met you. - You're going on a date with me.
没错 不过约会是晚餐 Right, but a date is dinner.
早餐太亲密了 这不一样 Breakfast is intimate. It's different.
早餐就应该是在床头 Breakfast is, like, bed head
疲惫又慵懒... and tired and gloopy and...
没有化妆 阳光却很明亮 It's no makeup, bright lights.
可能会带来很糟糕的结果 It can go hideously wrong.
-那就晚餐吧 -酒就在这时候派上用场了 - So can dinner. - That's what alcohol's for.
好吧 Okay.
喝咖啡行不行 Um... how about coffee?
-我同意 -好的 - I can do coffee. - Okay.
那我可以吃一块司康饼吗 Um, can I get a scone?
不行 那样就算是早餐了 No, that's breakfast.
我们周四见 I'll see you Thursday.
*我遇见了真命天子* *I just met a man*
*就在一排桃子旁边* *In the peach aisle*
*他眼中闪烁着星辰* *With a twinkle in his eye*
*今天的世界多么温柔* *Today's world is kind*
*多么美好* *And fabulous*
*天空中没有一丝云彩* *Not a cloud up in the sky.*
好了 好了 够了 Okay, okay, enough.
这不是《爱乐之城》 This isn't La La Land.
我很高兴 不过这是真实生活 I'm happy, but it's still real life.
你们懂我意思的 You get the idea.
IP的案子 The I.P. file.
-给点提示 -说唱歌手告了那个男生乐队 - Remind me. - The rapper suing the boy band.
因为他们用了音轨采样 没付钱 Over the sample they never paid for.
没错 我知道这个说唱歌手告乐队的案子 Right. I know that a rapper is suing a band.
非常混乱 他们要我处理这事吗 It's so topsy-turvy. They want me on it?
他们点名要你这位新秀 They insist on our new hotshot.
-他们是这么说的吗 -当然 - Did they use those words? - Of course.
在你出现前 我是那个新秀 I was the hotshot until you arrived.
看看你 就像一只吃到奶油的橘猫 And look at you-- like a ginger cat who got the cream.
你看起来就像丽塔·海华斯 You look like Rita Hayworth.
你是今天第二个这么说的人 You're the second person to say that to me today.
-第一个是谁 -一个男的 - Who said that? - A guy.
-很不错吗 -非常棒 - Nice guy? - Very nice.
你在哪遇到他的 我猜昨天搞到很晚吧 Where did you meet him? Somewhere late, I presume,
因为你上午十点才进门 because you swanned in here at 10:00 a.m.
看起来就像昨晚没回家一样 怎么... And you look like you haven't been home last night. Wha...?
在超市里 今天早上 The supermarket, this morning.
什么 What?
谁会在超市里搞到约会 认真的吗 Who gets a date at the supermarket? Really?
我在冷鲜肉制品和奶酪区 他在果蔬区 I was in cold meats and cheese. He was in fruit and veg.
我们知道 这就是爱情 We knew it was love.
或许我们可以见见这一位 Maybe we can meet this one.
我以为你和那个搞音乐的人在约会呢 I thought you were seeing that musician guy.
之前是的 但我们不合适 I was. It wasn't a match.
你太挑剔了 You're way too choosey.
人力资源部门让我提醒你 HR asked me to mention to you.
二十天里你旷工了四天 You missed, like, four days out of 20.
就上个月吧 Last month, apparently.
我知道 我知道 我知道 I know. I know, I know.
我有肠易激综合征 It's that irritable bowel syndrome.
真的吗 那是挺惨的 Really? I'm very sorry to hear that.
不过不管你工作做得多好 It doesn't matter how good you are at your job.
我都没办法在老板面前 I just can't defend anyone
为你这么多天的缺席做辩护 missing days like that to our bosses.
我知道 我会处理的 I know. I'm totally on it.
好的 因为我可不想你离开 Okay. Because I don't want to lose you.
你才到这里 我挺喜欢你的 You just got here, and I kind of like you.
我也挺喜欢你的 I kind of like you, too.
晚点一起喝酒 说说他的情况吧 Drinks later, you can tell me all about him?
-说定了 -好啊 - Date. - Okay.
这就是问题的根源 And this is where the problem starts.
我不知道是什么引起的 I don't know what kicks it off.
血糖 化学药物 Blood sugar? Chemical?
心理问题 谁知道呢 Psychological? Who knows?
但当它出现时 But it comes...
就像老黑白电影里的怪物 追着你 like a monster from an old black and white movie, walking,
无论你跑得多快 它一直紧跟着你 and no matter how fast you run, he keeps up with you.
只有一个地方可以躲开它 And there's only one place he can't find you.
你好 莱克丝 Hello, Lexi?
我是杰夫 It's Jeff.
我想和你确认下你的街道号码 I was just ringing to confirm your street number.
除非你不想约会了 Unless you want to cancel.
你还有两分钟的考虑时间 I... I mean, you still have two minutes.
没有 No.
你来吧 Come over, yeah.
来约会吧 For the date.
所以 So...
丽塔·海华斯有个约会 Rita Hayworth got herself a date, huh?
你好啊 Oh, hey.
你好 杰夫 Hi, Jeff.
糟了 Oh, shit.
糟糕 很抱歉 Shit, I'm sorry.
没事的 It's okay.
这个开头不太顺利 It's not getting off to a great start.
-你没事吧 -没事的 - You okay? - It's fine.
那是什么 What is that?
木刻的小桃子 It's a little wooden carved peach.
崭新的 Out of ash.
你是木工吗 You're a woodturner?
不是 我 我不是木工 No. I-I'm not a woodturner.
我在一家店里看到的 I passed it in a store.
感觉很有象征意义 It seemed symbolic.
你真好 That's sweet.
我们走吧 Let's go?
行 Okay.
那 你想去哪里 So, uh, where-where do you want to go?
随便 去哪都行 I don't care. Just somewhere casual.
你没事吧 You okay?
没事啊 Hmm? Sure.
你想吃什么 So, what do you want to eat?
什锦麦片 Muesli.
这个点不太好找吧 That might be hard right now.
现在 It...
我认识一个地方 跟我来 I know a place. Come on.
-给 莱克丝 -谢谢 辛西娅 - Here you go, Lex. - Thanks, Cynthia.
你应该 没有双胞胎姐妹吧 You don't have a twin... by any chance?
没有 No.
-谢谢 我很喜欢 -没事 - Thanks so much. Appreciate it. - Of course.
这是 This was, uh...
你想不想吃 Do you want to get...
冰激凌 ice cream?
行 Okay.
当然行了 没问题 Sure, yeah. Yes. Yeah.
那好 Cool.
你要不要上去喝杯咖啡 So, do you want to come up for coffee...
-或者做爱什么的 -这样吧 - or sex or something? - You know what?
其实不必了 I'm okay, actually.
我明白 Yeah, I understand.
嗯 我还是不要打扰你了 Yeah. No, I-I should just leave you to it.
打扰我什么 To what?
做你今晚本来该做的事情 To whatever it is you're doing this evening
肯定比这样有趣多了 that's more interesting than this.
你不应该强迫自己跟我出来 You shouldn't feel obliged to do this.
没 没没没 不是 No. No, no, no, it's not that.
这 我没有 我没强迫 It's... I'm not... I don't feel ob...
好吧 我是有点强迫自己了 Okay, I do feel obliged a little bit,
但不是你想的那样 but it's really not what you think.
只是 我 It's, you know, I've...
我生病 我生病了 I'm s.... I'm sick, and, uh...
我是说 我得流感了 I mean, I've had the flu,
所以就 就对事情提不起兴趣 and I just, I don't really feel up to much.
抱歉 Oh, I'm sorry.
你怎么不早点说 Why didn't you say that earlier at...
你 You...
你说得对 我 我回去睡一觉就好了 Yeah, yeah. I'll-I'll sleep it off,
下次我们再好好约一次 行吗 and we'll do this again properly, you know?
打我电话吧 Call me?
这样吧 I'll tell you what, um...
你要是想打给我 就打吧 you call me, if you want.
你有我号码 You have my number.
问题是从高中开始的 It began in high school.
有一天 我想赖床 One day, I wanted to stay in bed.
我爸妈就由着我 以为我生病了 My parents let me, presumed I was sick,
因为我实在没法把自己拖下床 as I couldn't physically pull myself out of bed.
21天之后 我还在床上 21 days later, I was still there.
小孩接受新事物总是很快 Children have an amazing way of dealing with new information.
他们不知道自己有时候 They don't know certain things aren't
不应该是那样的 the way they're supposed to be.
所以我想到该如何应付的办法 This is where I figured out the knack for living with this.
我可以用整段紧绷高效的学习时间来弥补 I could make up for it with intense bouts of productivity.
我会突然变成优秀学生 I would become a star student.
所以我凭着优秀的那半年 This is how I could miss 50% of the year--
可以翘半年的课 by being brilliant the other half.
追逐你的梦想 Follow your dreams! Whoo!
在瓦萨学院也一样 Same at Vassar.
在寝室待几个星期不出去 Weeks in my dorm not coming out,
又在图书馆待几个星期补回去 and then weeks in the library making up for it,
考试分数高得要命 getting killer grades.
你有什么毛病 What is wrong with you?
然后搬到了纽约 And then moving to New York.
我在许多公司的竞争中脱颖而出 I beat out the competition in numerous firms.
可是他们一个个 Until, one by one,
都发现我像法医一样认真对待细节 they all realized my forensic attention to detail,
为个案子就会熬夜搞得昏天黑地 burning off gallons of midnight oil when I'm on a case,
这一切也无法弥补我无尽的矿工 simply wouldn't make up for my disastrous attendance records.
这样的生活里 还要加上数不清的问诊 Over the course of all this was the countless couches--
诊断分析 电击治疗 the analysis, the electroshock therapy,
认知行为治疗 the cognitive behavioral therapy,
药物治疗 你想得到的都有 the drug therapy, you name it.
与此同时 我还 Meanwhile, I kept...
在老板 家人 朋友面前 employers, family and friends
用借口把他们都骗过去 blissfully unaware with excuses,
只有我状态超好的时候才见人 only showing up when I was sure to impress.
然后我的生活就这样了 This was how life became.
没有人知道我到底是谁 And no one really knew who I was.
喂 我是莱克丝·多诺霍 Yes. Lexi Donohoe.
没错 对 我 Absolutely, yes. I am...
什么 明天 Uh, uh, by tomorrow?
行 我明天能弄好 没问题 Oh, yeah, I could have it by tomorrow. Okay, no problem.
但是 But...
只要阴云最后都散去 as long as the clouds ultimately passed,
我就能应付 I could deal with it.
说到这个 Uh, speaking of which....
一个美妙的早晨 A perfect morning.
小鸟在我的窗外歌唱 Birds tweeting outside my window.
刚修剪过的草散发清香 The smell of fresh-cut grass.
杰夫 Jeff!
杰夫 世界上最好的男人 Jeff, the nicest man in the world.
笑容最可爱的杰夫 Jeff with the loveliest smile
能带给生活无限可能 and all the potential in life
在他身上我看到了希望 and the promise in one, single human being.
早上六点半打给杰夫太早了吗 Was 6:30 in the morning too early to call Jeff?
不 没事的 No, it's fine.
喂 Hello?
-杰夫 -什么事 - Jeff? - Yeah?
我是莱克丝 It's Lexi.
真的吗 Really?
现在太早了吗 不算太早对吧 Is it too early? It isn't too early, is it?
-告诉我不算太早 -做什么太早 - Tell me it's not too early. - Too early for what?
吃早餐 这次你吃什锦麦片 Breakfast. This time, you have the muesli,
我吃牛排 and I'll have the steak.
你全部倒过来了吗 Are you the reverse of everything?
也许真的是 Actually, you know what, maybe I am.
你没事吧 Are you okay?
那天晚上你到底怎么了 What was really up with you the other night?
真的没什么 我就是太累了 Nothing, nothing. I was just tired.
那天工作特别忙 现在都不重要了 I've been crazy busy at work. That doesn't matter now.
今晚见吗 你想一起吃晚餐 Can I see you tonight? Do you want to have dinner?
看电影 还是去酒吧 Go to a movie? Go to a club?
我就是想见你 I don't know, I just want to see you.
糟糕 今晚可能不行 Shit, tonight's kind of tricky.
周二怎么样 How about Tuesday?
周二 周二好像要一辈子以后了 Tuesday? Tuesday's a-a lifetime away.
谁知道我们能不能活到周二 Who even knows if we'll make it to Tuesday?
就是明天 我们还是有可能活到明天的 It's tomorrow. I think we have a good chance.
那个神秘人管命 With you-know-who in power?
不不不 一天内什么都可能发生 No, no, no, anything could happen in 24 hours.
就定... 拜托 今晚为什么不行 Let's just, come on, what's wrong with tonight?
好好 今晚有什么特别的 Okay, okay. What's so special about tonight?
因为我不想再浪费一天不与你相知 'Cause I don't want to waste another day of not knowing you.
说得真好 That's nice.
那就今晚见 So, see you tonight?
来我家 我做饭 My place? I'll cook?
好 Okay.
好 拜 Okay. Bye.
不知道你怎么样 但我这么开心时 I don't know about you, but... when I'm in this kind of mood,
就好像我身处自己电视节目的片头 it's like I'm in the title sequence from my own TV show.
莱克丝秀
莱克丝·多诺霍饰演莱克丝
贾德·赫希饰演出租车司机哈里
你今天怎么样 莱克丝 How are you doing today, Lexi?
贾德·赫希饰演亚历克
开心还是难过 Up or down?
你觉得呢 亚历克 What do you think, Alec?
贾德·赫希饰演马奥尼警官
我得清理这里的躁郁气息 I got to clean the bipolar out of this place.
这是纯粹的喜悦 Here was pure joy.
好莱坞最无瑕闪耀的时刻 Hollywood at its absolute, shameless best.
头发一丝不乱 Every hair in place.
每个举止如画 不出一丝差错 Every move a picture. Not a step wrong.
然后我想起丽塔·海华斯常被引用的那句话 Then I remembered an oft quoted line by Rita Hayworth:
"每个我认识的男人与吉尔达共眠 "Every man I knew went to bed with Gilda
醒来却看到了我" and woke up with me."
然后我觉得很伤感 And I felt very sad.
拜托 Please.
开心起来 开心 Come on. Come on.
别这样 Come on.
开心起来 开心起来 Come on, come on, come on, come on.
要开心 要开心 Come on, come on. Come on.
又来了 And there it is.
那种寂静 The silence.
又一个男人还没走进大门 The sickening silence of another man walking out
就笼罩我的生活的恶心寂静 of my life before getting past the porch door.
我自己造成的寂静 A silence of my own making.
就像一个嫉妒作祟的疯狂老妈 Like a jealous, crazy mother shooing teenagers
把女儿锁在楼上 把男孩从门前都赶走 from her doorstep with her daughter locked upstairs.
他会留下吗 Would he have stayed?
杰夫 Jeff?
如果他知道 If he had known?
如果我在超市那次就坦白说 If I came clean that time in the supermarket and said,
"对了 我有躁郁症 "By the way, I'm bipolar.
我在慢慢克服 你愿意吗" I'm dealing with it. Will you?"
他会被吓跑吗 跑到冷冻食品区 Would he have run for the hills or the frozen food section
礼貌笑着说"好吧" with an "okeydokey" and a polite smile?
他是一个连蹭烂的桃子都不要的人 Here was a man who didn't want his peaches bruised.
他会怎么对待一个精神病 How would he deal with a damaged psyche?
请你回来 不要回来 Please come back, don't come back.
请你...回来 Please... come back.
然后 躺在那里 And then, lying there,
而一个特别可爱 漂亮的男人 with a perfectly sweet, beautiful man
从我门前离开 walking away from my door...
直觉告诉我不能再这样了 something told me this had to stop.
不是说疾病 它永远好不了 Not the illness-- that'll never stop--
而是不给人机会 but-but not giving people a chance
自己看我是什么样的人 to make up their own mind about me.
至少给他们一些机会 To giving them at least some cards in the game.
肯定会有人 Surely, there's someone out there
会接受这样的我 who will take me for who I am.
会有人接受我的两面 One human being who accepts the two people in you.
不能只给别人看其中一面 You can't show only one part of yourself to someone.
那是好莱坞 那是吉尔达 That's Hollywood. That's Gilda.
那样很美 And it's beautiful...
却不能长久 but it can't last.
等等 Wait up.
你不准备道别吗 Weren't you gonna say goodbye?
当然要 我只是... Of course. I ju-- you know, I...
我只是不想小题大做 I just didn't want to make a big deal about it.
抱歉这个决定不如你意 I'm sorry the decision didn't go your way.
你不在了 我肯定会迷茫 I'm gonna be lost without you here.