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“我们都崇拜虚假的偶像” "We all worship false idols."
这是我的朋友乔希亚基思对我说过的话 That's what my friend, Joshua Keith, once told me.
他认识到崇拜的力量 He recognized the power of worship.
这种不受约束的信仰是最神圣的一种仪式 That unfettered belief was the holiest form of any ritual.
对乔希亚来说 真相是他选择的神 For Joshua, the truth was his chosen deity.
但真正的信徒盲从者却是他无法理解的 But the true believer, the blind follower, was a creature he could not understand.
乔希的纪录片主角 埃瓦尔之子 The subject of Josh's documentary, the Sons of Ivar,
将他视为他们的一员 claimed him as their own.
他们不是一个倡导男性权利的群体 But rather than a supposed men's rights group,
乔希只看到了一大群残暴的男人 Josh saw only a sea of violent men.
所以他否定了他们 So he disavowed them.
避开他们的领袖他们的理念 Shunning their leaders, their philosophy,
以及他们把他或他的艺术作品 据为己有的任何企图 and any attempts they made to claim him or his art as their own.
因此 他树敌了 And because of that, he made enemies.
埃瓦尔之子
乔希亚的案子突然结案 实在过于草率 The abrupt closing of Joshua's case is just too easy.
有太多问题还没有得到解答 Too many questions left unanswered.
那些旧金山警察局拒绝解决的问题 Questions the San Francisco Police Department refused to solve.
我们会向大家呈上已知事实 We will present the known facts.
那些被媒体和警方忽视的信息 The information ignored by the media and the police.
请收听本季《重新考虑：乔希亚基思》 Join me on this season of Reconsidered: Joshua Keith.
直言真相
第二季 第 2 集
看来《德伦吉尔》的号角把你召来了 I see the horn of Drengir beckoned you in.
要想讨好我们 其实有更简单的办法 There's easier ways to ingratiate yourself into our esteem.
我们这个群体里有太多 怨声载道脱离群体的警察了 Our group is lousy with disgruntled, alienated cops.
怎么又来一个 What's one more?
这里只有你和我 We're alone.
摘掉 Off.
不…得演得正式一点 No, no. Needs to look official.
不能暴露你的卧底身份 Don't wanna blow your cover.
是啊 暴露我也不在乎 Yeah. I wouldn't mind if you did.
贝塔男总是受害者 我已经受够了 Had about all I can take of this beta male victimhood.
基思谋杀案有什么线索吗 So you find anything on the Keith murder?
和埃瓦尔之子有关吗 Sons of Ivar involved?
双重谋杀超出了他们的能力范围 Double murder's beyond them.
我认识的那些人 就连读匿名者Q的帖子都会脸红 The guys I know can hardly read a QAnon post without blushing.
人怂可不是法官认可的辩护论点 Well, being a pussy is not a recognized defense.
但不在场证明是 But an alibi is.
当时全体高层 都在监督一个新成员加入仪式 The entire top brass was overseeing a new member initiation.
实时监控摄像头目击者 应有尽有 Live cameras, witnesses, whatever you're gonna need.
我以为这个案子已经结了 I thought the case was closed already.
是 那是警局的官方决定 Yeah, that's the official stance of the department.
那你不该回情报部了吗 So, shouldn't you be back on Intelligence?
帕内尔还在持续更新有关案子的事 Well, Parnell's keeping the story in the news.
也许她是有道理的 Maybe she's got a point.
那警长怎么看此事 So what does Sarge think about this?
不 他不想泄露案情 也不想受到干扰 No, he doesn't want any leaks or distractions.
尤其是出了欧文凯夫那事之后 Not after what happened to Owen Cave.
-那还好他信任你 -是 -Well, it's good he trusts you then. -Yeah.
要么就是他需要一个无足轻重的替罪羊 That or he needs a fall guy nobody's gonna miss.
好耶 Yeah.
唱吧 Sing it.
真好 That was wonderful.
真是…太好了 Just... wonderful.
谢谢老爸 Thank you, Daddy.
是 再次唱歌的感觉真好 Yeah, it was nice to sing again.
我来说说我不喜欢什么吧 I'll tell you what I didn't like.
听见新神父怎么说了吗 You heard that new priest?
“救赎者维持者创造者” "Redeemer, Sustainer, Creator."
那“圣父圣子圣灵”呢 What happened to "Father, Son, Holy Spirit"?
新的措辞包括了所有人 老爸 The new words include everybody, Daddy.
你永远说服不了他 别费力气了 You will never convince him, so don't even try.
他还让我们戴面纱呢 这项规定在我出生前已经废除了 He's still got us wearing veils, and those were stopped before I was born.
嘿 别提醒我你有多年轻 埃莉诺 Hey, don't remind me how young you are, Elinor.
我有很多个名字 但有人这么叫我还是头一次 Well, I've been called a lot of things but never that.
什么 What?
你叫我埃莉诺 You called me Elinor.
女儿们 过来坐下 Girls, come sit down.
波比 你坐在我旁边 Poppy, you come sit next to me.
我有话要说 I got something to say.
当我爸妈去世时 我们一家人不仅离开了路易斯安那州 When my mama and daddy died, the family just didn't leave Louisiana.
我们还离开了彼此 We left each other.
我希望你们几个团结一致 I want y'all to stay together.
到底怎么了 What's going on?
谢里夫 Shreve.
你知道我一直有些问题 You know I've been having some difficulties.
似乎可能是比较严重的病 It seems it might be something more serious.
波比送我参加了一项城里的医疗研究 Poppy got me into a medical study in the city.
你竟不想先告诉我 And you didn't wanna tell me first?
是什么病 爸爸 What kind of problems, Daddy?
我之前不想让你知道 I didn't want you to know.
不想让波比和你们任何人知道 Not Poppy, not any of you.
但你们是我的家人 家人就要相互坦诚 But you're my family, and that's what family's for.
医生认为是… Now, the doctors think it's...
慢性创伤性脑病变 因头部反复受伤导致的疾病 CTE, a brain disease from repeated head injuries.
可能是在海军拳击时落下的病根 对 Likely from boxing in the Navy, yeah.
他们不能肯定 除非我死了 解剖尸体才能确诊 They can't tell for sure until I'm dead and they cut me open.
我得去手袋里拿个东西 I need something out of my purse.
请不要因为我而被打断 Please don't stop on my account.
我也有过很多次这样的时刻 I've had plenty of those moments myself.
我相信一定不是在他面前 Not in front of him, I bet.
但也许这就是我们拥有彼此的原因 But maybe that's why we have each other.
他更害怕你发现之后 You know, he was more scared of you finding out
对他另眼相看 而并不那么害怕疾病本身 and looking at him differently than he was of the disease.
我不想失去我的男人 波比 I'm not tryna lose my man, Poppy.
我也不想失去我的老爸 And I don't wanna lose my daddy.
因此我们要坚强地对抗即将到来的一切 So we stand strong against whatever's coming.
还有 莉莉安 And, Lillian.
莉莉安 Lillian.
我们永远不会责怪彼此 We never turn on each other.
我将全程陪在你们身边 我保证 I will be here every step of the way. I promise.
我保证 I promise.
我的线人说埃瓦尔之子的嫌疑排除了 My source said that Sons of Ivar are off the suspect list.
你是听埃姆斯说的吗 You hear that from Aames?
他才不会说呢 He would never.
警方的官方态度是这案子依然是结案状态 The official stance of the department is that the case is still closed.
那德鲁特尼呢 What about Drew Turney?
没有前科 没有显著的关联 No priors, no notable affiliations.
他被南加大录取了 但推迟一年入学 He was accepted into USC. Deferred it for a year.
-家里很富裕 -不是特别富 -Wealthy family? -Not especially.
他像20几岁的年轻人一样 打多份临工 He was doing the 20-something gig job grind
直到三个月前还和五个室友住在一起 and sharing a place with five roommates until three months ago.
他没打招呼就辞职了 还搬去了海港区的一家豪华公寓 He quit with no notice and moved to a luxe studio in the Marina.
室友们都不知道他的钱从哪里来 None of 'em knew where the money came from.
不过… But...
乔希亚是六个月前开始给德鲁打电话的 Joshua's calls to Drew started six months ago.
没有通过App或中介 No app, no intermediary.
到了上个月 几乎每天都打电话 By last month, the calls were almost daily.
有时通话时间长达一小时 Sometimes lasting as long as an hour.
所以这是正式确定了的关系 So this was a full-blown relationship.
嫉妒的妻子可能有强烈的杀人动机 但她当时和你在一起 A jealous wife is a strong motive, but she was with you.
天啊 Lord.
我现在该扮演什么角色呢 What role am I supposed to serve here?
是朋友 Friend,
知己 confidant
还是记者 or journalist?
我不能在没有任何答案的情况下 埋葬我的朋友 I can't bury my friend without any answers.
避风港
你真的不想坐下吗 You really don't wanna sit?
米卡的粉丝让我有点紧张 Micah's fans make me a little nervous.
我不介意离出口近一点 I don't mind being near the exit.
感谢各位今天来参加乔希亚基思的追悼会 Thank you all for joining us in today's celebration of the life of Joshua Keith.
为了释放我们的悲痛 我们必须解放我们的思想 In order to free our grief, we must release our minds.
请闭眼 Close your eyes.
把思绪放在呼吸上 Center your breathing.
我们真要这么做吗 We're really doing this?
是 Yeah.
英格拉姆… Ingram! Ingram!
悲伤会把记忆像多米诺骨牌一样排列起来 Grief lines up memories like dominoes.
“发生了这件事” 悲伤如是说 "This happened," grief tells us.
“然后是那件事” "Then that."
直到你把一系列事件整齐地排好 Until you have a series of tidy narratives.
然后你在这些事件中 And you roll them...
思前想后 backwards and forwards.
尝试去理解… Trying to make some sense of the...
它们的意义和… meaning, the finality...
不可改变的死亡 of death.
我们支持你 米卡 We've got you, Micah.
谢谢你的鼓励 Thank you for your uplift.
任何可能的答案只会引出另一个问题 Any possible answer just brings up yet another question,
这是个无尽的循环 and it's an endless loop.
但也能找到安慰 记忆里有安慰 And there's comfort. There's comfort in the memories.
故事里有安慰 There's comfort in the stories.
但你无法为痛苦和悲伤做准备 But there's no way you can prepare for pain or grief.
生活就是准备 Life is the preparation.
我会拿走你的悲伤 米卡 I'll take your grief, Micah.
不…不能在投资人面前把事情闹大 No, no, no. No scene in front of the investors.
那就不叫把事情闹大 That's not making a fucking scene?
没关系 It's okay.
你叫什么名字 What's your name?
鲁茜 Ruthie.
你曾在自己的旅程中 使用我们的悲伤规程吗 Have you had to use our grief protocol for your own journey?
是的 Yes.
是因为我儿子 For my son.
你在照顾其他人时 是谁在照顾你 And when you were taking care of everyone else, who was taking care of you?
没有人 No one.
我的家人尝试过 但他们很快就忘记了 My family tried, but they rushed to move past it,
他们没意识到把我落下了 and they didn't realize they'd left me behind.
我很清楚你的感受 I know exactly how you feel.
乔希亚 Joshua...
他并不完美 但他属于我 He wasn't perfect, but he was mine.
我会慢慢悼念他的死 不做任何评判 And I will take the time to mourn his loss without any judgment.
即使我身边的所有人 都想对他的工作和生活品头论足 Though everyone around me wants to judge his work and his life.
你想不想看看我们的恢复室 Would you like me to show you to one of our recovery rooms?
想 Yes.
好 Okay.
米卡常说 触觉是悲伤中 最重要但总是被忽略的感官 Micah always says touch is the most important but ignored sense in grief.
我猜她指的是双方都同意的那种接触 I'm gonna guess she meant the consensual kind of touching.
我失去儿子时 是她拯救了我 She saved me when I lost my son.
谁来拯救她呢 Who's gonna save her?
米卡感激你的提议 真的 Micah appreciates your offer, she does.
但她现在正处于独自哀悼的阶段 But she's on her own grief journey at the moment.
但她需要我 But she needs me.
请转告她好吗 Would you tell her please?
我永远支持她 I'm always here for her.
当然 Sure.
乔希亚基思追悼会
那到底是怎么回事 What in the world was that?
天知道 Oh, my gosh.
你是不是要去办公室 我知道你正在处理一个案子 Do you need to head into the office? I know you're in the middle of a case.
不 别担心 Nah, don't worry about that.
我没事 I'm fine.
有诺雅和马库斯在 Noa and Markus are here.
我今晚给你打电话 I'll call you tonight.
是香奈儿 Chanel?
看起来有人做出了正确的决定 Looks like someone made the right decision
放弃了真正的新闻报道 改做播客 to leave real reporting behind for podcasting.
我很怀念当年和你一起做真正的新闻 I miss doing actual journalism with you.
我非常遗憾 听说你的书卖得不好 I was so sorry to hear your book flopped.
如果有机会印第二版的话 也许我能帮你宣传一下 Maybe I can blurb the second printing if it ever gets there.
抱歉 羽衣甘蓝让我变得刻薄 Sorry, kale makes me bitchy.
我想象中的“酒水免费”可不是喝这个 This isn't what I thought they meant by "open bar."
今天还没结束呢 我要去贝沃特见鲍勃 The day's not over. I'm meeting Bob down at the Baywater.
乔希亚很喜欢俗气的旅游酒吧 You know, Joshua loved nothing more than a tacky tourist bar.
我很乐意加入 听听你对案件的看法 I'd love to join. Hear your take on the case.
我不会含蓄婉转 你会听到不想听的内容 It won't be sanitized. You'll hear things you wish you hadn't.
我已经听过了 I already have.
不…埃瓦尔那群疯子 必须是你的重点调查对象 No, no, no, the Ivar kooks have to be on top of your investigative list.
这是毫无疑问的 你一定要请一位来上你的节目 No doubt about it. You need to get one of them on your show.
米卡怎么可能与案件无关 You know, on what planet is Micah not involved?
她令人毛骨悚然 She's creepy.
-她丈夫搞外遇 -别说了 -Her husband's having an affair. -Stop.
-我只是说… -真别说了 -I'm just saying...I mean it.
先不说不在场证明 You know, aside from the alibi,
米卡从一开始就知道乔希亚不忠 Micah's known about Joshua's skirt chasing from the beginning.
我们都知道 除了一本正经的波比 We all have, except for prim Poppy over here.
他以前也搞过外遇 He's done this before?
开什么玩笑 他把自己的不检点称作“一路风流” Are you kidding? He called his indiscretions "road treats."
这是公开的秘密 It's an open secret.
你不必花多少功夫调查 You wouldn't have to dig very much
就能找出一个他过去的风流对象 来上你的播客 to find one of his past treats for your podcast.
和男生倒是第一次听说 出轨不是 Boys are new. Cheating's not.
如果你要报道这个故事 那就好好报道 If you're doing the story, do it right.
就像乔希亚被米卡控制之前那样去报道 Like Joshua would've done before Micah got her claws into him.
不要让她毁掉你剩下的新闻操守 Do not let her kill what's left of your journalistic integrity.
不 请继续 No, please.
别因为我而被打断 鲍勃 Don't stop on my account, Bobby.
跟我展开讲讲我毁掉了些什么 Tell me more about what I've corrupted and killed.
你不能假装说他近几年没有衰退 You can't pretend that he wasn't diminished in recent years.
被你的名气和成功遮住了光芒 Eclipsed by all your fame, success.
并没有衰退到 你不想来找他合作拍纪录片的地步 Not so diminished that you didn't approach him about partnering on a documentary.
我是想帮他 I was trying to help.
当时已经不再有 正规新闻机构愿意采访他了 There wasn't a hard news outlet that would touch him anymore.
是 那是他告诉你的还是你的假设 Yeah, is that what he told you or what you assumed?
我开始明白 为什么这里只有你没得过普利策奖了 I'm starting to understand why you're the only one here without a Pulitzer.
我们走吧 Let's get outta here.
他一向这么混蛋 He's always been such a prick.
该死 Damn it.
不好 Oh, shit.
拜托 Come on.
快啊… Come on. Come on. Come on.
敲敲门酒吧
我们得谈谈我在播客上 能播什么不能播什么 We need to talk about what I can and cannot air on the podcast.
全部播出 Air it all.
我一生的事业 都在鼓励彻底接受和坦诚相待 I've spent an entire career encouraging radical acceptance and transparency.
现在不能改变规则 Can't change the rules now.
看看我今天拿回了什么 Look what I got back today.
维多利亚时代有用珠宝表示哀悼的习俗 The Victorians had mourning jewelry.
所以你才要一缕他的头发 Is that why you asked for a lock of his hair?
是 Yeah.
我本想要白色盖在黑色上面 I wanted the white over black
表明他在死时是未婚的 indicating that he was unmarried at the time of his death.
米卡 Micah.
看起来很合适 对吗 死在另一个男人怀里 Seems appropriate, right? Dying in the arms of another man.
但珠宝商说服我放弃了这个想法 But the jeweler talked me out of it.
你知道他出轨的事吗 Did you know about his cheating?
三次晚期流产是很伤人的 Three late-stage miscarriages takes its toll.
我曾为自己很坚强的想法感到自豪 I was proud of the idea of being strong.
那想法很诱人 It was very seductive.
即作为一个女人 能够… You know, being the woman who could...
肩负起所有重担 bear all the weight.
但是… But...
我做不到 I couldn't.
我们疏远了 We grew apart.
他变得不忠 He strayed.
而我睁一只眼闭一只眼 And I turned a blind eye.
我为此心痛了很久 然后痛苦消失了 It hurt for a long time, and then it didn't.
当我们终于开始解决问题时 And when we finally came up for air,
我们都已经改变了许多 we were both in a very different place.
你为什么不离开 Why didn't you leave?
我不想 I did not want to.
我爱他 I loved him.
我知道他会浪子回头 And I knew he'd be back.
总有一天会 One day.
慢性创伤性脑病变诊断研究项目
圣哈维尔医疗中心
供医疗保健提供者参考信息
神经科检查都有哪些项目
简介 记忆 近期记忆
联合用药 体征和症状
联合用药表
嗨 弗兰克 你还需要有人替你顶班吗 Hey, Frank. You still need relief on your shift?
皮蒙特的C路线 Route C on Piedmont.
好 我这就来 All right. I'm on my way.
你确定要做这个报道吗 You sure about doing this story?
我没事… I'm fine. I'm fine.
你呢你能照顾老爸吗 What about you? You gonna be able to handle Daddy?
我刚刚接到电话 得去上班 I just got called into work.
你是小妹 You're the baby.
以前一直是被照顾的那个 Used to being taken care of.
如果压力太大就告诉我 Just tell me if it's too much.
压力太大了 It's too much.
好 Okay.
不如我们和黛丝里莉莉安一起坐下来 So why don't we sit down with Desiree and Lillian
看看你能做些什么 and find out what you can do?
我就知道有问题 I knew there was something wrong.
我们都知道 We all did.
虽然他说没有 Even when he said there wasn't.
工作前我不能哭 今天的值班时间很长 I can't be crying before work. I got a long shift today.
好吧 Okay.
怎么了 What?
诺雅让我听了这周播客的几个片段 Noa let me listen to some of the segments for this week's episode.
是关于重新调查乔希亚案件的 About getting Joshua's case reopened.
-所以呢 -那个和乔希亚死在一起的男孩 -And? -That boy killed with Joshua,
他也有生活有故事 he had a life and a story too.
你为什么不谈他的事 Why aren't you talking about him?
因为我还不知道他和作案动机之间的关系 Because I don't know how he fits into the motive yet.
除非绝对必要 为什么要曝光他的家人呢 And why expose his family other than what's absolutely necessary?
就像你对我那样 Like you did to me.
那是我每天都承受的心理负担 赛迪 That weighs on me every day, Cydie.
我还在因此做噩梦 Still gives me nightmares.
但请不要抹去那个男孩的存在 But don't erase that boy.
上车 小心头 Get in. Watch your head.
这些要摘掉 Gotta take these out.
别动 手放平 看着我 向右转 Hold still. Put your hand flat. Look at me. To the right.
帕内尔女士 Mrs. Parnell.
请节哀 I am so sorry for your loss.
这是我母亲最爱吃的 These were my mother's favorite.
我想她的时候还是会买 And I still get them when I miss her.
你真好 That's sweet.
谢谢 Thank you.
埃姆斯警监让我们不要配合你 Inspector Aames told us not to cooperate with you.
你们为什么改变主意了 What changed your mind?
他开始不理我们了 He started ignoring us.
说案子已经结了 我们无法接受这个结果 Said the case was closed, and we just couldn't accept the result.
我们的儿子虽然不是名人 但他对我们很重要 Our son may not have been a celebrity, but he mattered.
我昨晚看了个节目 他们聊了20分钟这个案子的事 I watched a program last night where they talked about the case for 20 minutes,
一次德鲁的名字也没提 they didn't say Drew's name once.
他为了做研究员把南加大推迟了一年 You know, he deferred a year at USC to do a fellowship.
说他想和一位真正的艺术家合作 获取实践经验 Said he wanted practical experience working with a real artist.
乔希亚的同事都不知道研究员的事 Joshua's associates weren't aware of any fellowships.
那他为何会那样告诉我们 Why would he tell us that then?
特尼先生特尼太太 Mr. and Mrs. Turney,
谢谢你们抽时间和我谈 thank you for being so generous with your time.
这是个很好的开端 This is a great start.
-我可以给你们打电话跟进吗 -可以 -May I call with follow-ups? -Please.
当然 谢谢 Of course. Thank you.
嗨 二位 Hey, you two.
嗨 Hi.
那是证据吗 Is that evidence?
米卡让我顺路拿几样东西 Micah asked me to stop by and grab a few things
要赶在她今晚的直播前 before her livestream tonight.
她还让你参加德鲁的坐七 Did she ask you to attend Drew's shiva too?
那是我的工作 That's what I do.
是我们避风港所有人的工作 That's what we all do at Shelter.
我们替她打理事务 好让她能继续光彩夺目 We take care of things for her, so she can continue to dazzle.
给她的事业添砖加瓦 最后大获成功 Build her castle into the sky. Brick by brick.
你听起来很生气 You sound angry.
在避风港 我们更喜欢用悲恸这个词 At Shelter, we prefer grief-struck.
你到底在做什么 What were you doing?
-你好 -艾丝塔 是 -Hello? -Esta. Yes.
又是我 波比帕内尔 你有空吗 Poppy Parnell again. Do you have a minute?
你有什么发现吗 Did you find something?
有些似乎有用的线索 Something promising.
但可能谈论起来有点痛苦 But it may be a little painful to discuss.
德鲁是你们领养的吗 Was Drew adopted?
他是否曾试图寻找亲生父母 Did he ever try to find his biological parents?
没有 No.
他知道那会令亚瑟十分伤心 He knew that would devastate Arthur.
他是我们的儿子 He was our son.
不 我不是质疑这一点 No, no one is questioning that.
谢谢 艾丝塔 Thanks, Esta.
-我很快会再联系你的 好吗 -谢谢 -I'll be back in touch soon, okay? -Thank you.
避风港
你调查案件的直觉怎么会如此准确 How do we bottle and sell that gut of yours?
所以罪案现场的血型都匹配上了 So the blood types at the crime scene match?
乔希亚和德鲁都是AB阴性血型 最少见的那种 Both Joshua and Drew were AB negative. The rarest type.
我们真的即将超越双胞胎杀手案了吗 Are we really about to top murderous twins?
这条线索不会用在播客里 We're not using this in the podcast.
她已经在崩溃的边缘了 这件事羞辱性太强 会把她压垮的 She's barely holding it together. This is humiliating enough to break her.
你在开玩笑吗米卡批准了 没有限制 Are you joking? Micah gave her permission, no limitations.
这会彻底推翻案件的先谋杀后自杀理论 It blows the official murder-suicide theory of the case out of the water.
如果我们不用这条线索 别人也会用的 Someone else will use it if we don't.
那就让他们去承担鲁莽的后果吧 So let them live with the repercussions of their recklessness.
什么 What?
会有内疚感的不只你一个 You don't have ownership over guilt.
那你为什么不支持我 So, why won't you back me?
因为我不相信折衷的做法 Because I don't believe in half measures.
我们要么做 要么不做 Either we do this, or we don't.
播客是我的节目 诺雅 It's my show, Noa.
情况如何 What's our status?
信号准备好了 会在57个国家直播 The feed is ready. We'll be live in 57 countries.
小场面 No big deal.
你觉得她能行吗 You think she's got this?
我只是好奇 Just curious.
-嗨 -嗨 -Hey. -Hi.
倒立体式 疏通淋巴 Inversions. It's just lymphatic drainage.
精神重振 Mental reinvigoration.
促进循环 Circulation.
重回办公室感觉如何 So, how does it feel to be back in the office?
头下脚上这个比喻还不够明显吗 Is literally being upside down a potent enough metaphor?
对你来说 搞活动还是太早了 It's too soon for you to be doing events.
是 我网上的粉丝 可等不了一星期让我去哀悼 Yeah, well, my virtual fans can't wait a week for me to grieve.
我们一直在大力宣传这次活动 We've been promoting and hyping this event.
如果我取消 就会失去投资人 If I cancel, I'll lose my investors.
我去参加了德鲁的坐七 I went to Drew's shiva.
然后我去了工作室 And then I went to the studio.
乔希亚和德鲁有大量相同的遗传特征 Joshua and Drew had a slew of identical genetic features.
我觉得德鲁不是他的情人 I don't think Drew was his lover.
而是他的儿子 I think he was his son.
我很抱歉 我… I'm so sorry. I
我不会在播客里公布这些信息 I'm not using any of this in the podcast,
如果你希望 我们可以暂停整个调查 and we can suspend it entirely if you prefer.
米卡 Micah.
米卡的讲话要开始了 不如我带你出去吧 Micah's talk is about to begin. May I show you outside?
再给我点时间 谢谢 Not just yet. Thank you.
埃瓦尔之子与乔希和德鲁之死无关 Sons of Ivar had nothing to do with Drew and Josh's death,
正如我第一次所说 like I said the first time.
你是想说服我还是你自己 You trying to convince me or yourself?
但这让我不禁去想 But it got me thinking.
避风港有很多类似相同的地方 Shelter, there's a lot of parallels, lot of similarities.
这就有点牵强了 That's a stretch.
提高抵抗力的 你不要吗 Immunity blaster? No, you don't want one?
或者你不相信它的恢复能力 Or you don't believe in its restorative powers?
这里很多人都相信 A lot of people here do.
你来这里有什么目的吗 因为如果没有 我… Is there a purpose for this visit? Because if not, you know, I...
你认识贾斯珀盖恩斯吗 You know Jasper Gaines?
我爸以前一起跑步的伙伴 My daddy's old running buddy?
你对他有什么印象 What do you remember about him?
他像个家人 总是在我们身边 He was family, around all the time.
我们小时候的每一次生日 他都在场 怎么了 He was at all of our birthdays growing up. Why?
他在1984年和1989年之间杀死了七个人 Well, he killed seven people from 1984 to 1989.
我在一个调查邪教 和边缘群体的工作组里干了许多年 For years, I was part of a task force studying cults and fringe groups.
对 在邪教圈里 我们称他那种人为“追随者” Yeah, he's what we call in the cult world, a follower.
是这样 这些群体的成员 See, the thing about these groups is that its members,
通常可以分为两类 they usually fall into two categories.
忠诚的追随者和有魅力自恋的领导者 The loyal followers and the charismatic, narcissistic leaders.
谢里夫米卡 Shreve, Micah.
他们都符合这些特征 They fit the profile.
-你满口胡言乱语 -也许吧 -You're so full of shit. -Maybe,
但只要你还继续调查我的案子 but as long as you're poking around my case,
让侦查工作看起来像个笑话… making a mockery of detective work...
重新审理此案 Reopen the case.
这些是我曾经称之为家的东西 These are pieces of what I once called home.
人们喜欢对我们女人说 They like to tell us, us women,
要保持家中整洁 to keep our house in order.
但我们到底该怎么保持 But how in the hell are we supposed to keep it in order
流浪者之家的整洁 when we were dealt a bum house?
任何一个家的第一块砖 The first brick of any house...
是信任 is trust.
信任你在建造的东西 信任你能承受的东西 Trust in what you are building and what you can withstand.
对我来说 它代表着我的卧室 For me, that represented my bedroom.
第二块砖 The second brick...
保持家中整洁 Keep your house in order.
也许有人应该把这话对我丈夫说 Maybe someone should have told my husband that.
是我让他有能力还债 I kept him solvent.
当他的工作违背了 我的一切信条时 我支持着他 I stood by him when his work defied everything I stand for.
为了什么 And for what?
好让他能背着我有个私生子 So he could hide a son from me?
好让我可以站在这里向所有人解释 So I could stand up here and explain to everybody
为什么我丈夫会因保护孩子而被杀害 why my husband was murdered protecting his child?
这算什么安全避风港 What kind of safe shelter is that?
至少我流落街头时 我可以… At least when I was on the street, I could
我很清楚自己不必对任何人抱有期待 I knew better than to expect anything from anyone!
米卡… Micah. Micah.
米卡 Micah.
切断直播 Cut the feed.
避风港 直播结束
下班时间到了 It's quitting time.
一定要检查一下遗失物 Make sure you sweep for lost items.
我可不想再接到那个女人的骚扰电话了 I don't want that woman calling and harassing me again.
帕特里夏总能找到借口 和主管说话 绝对的 Patricia will find her excuse to talk to a supervisor, believe that.
我也一把老骨头了 A bitch is getting old.
好吧 Okay.
在哪呢… Where is that...
你吓死我了 You scared the shit outta me!
你不能待在这里 停车场是私人场所 You can't be in here. The depot is private property.
对不起 我在后面睡着了 I'm sorry, I dozed off in the back here.
错过站了 I missed my stop.
你车开得很稳 You do give a smooth ride.
我又不能爽到 Not if I can't get off.
那算是邀请吗 That an invitation?
下车 Step off the bus.
刚才我车上有个人 There was a guy on my bus.
什么样子 What's the description?
蓝色帽衫 蓝色牛仔裤 Blue hoodie, blue jeans.
他试图吓唬我 个子特别高 Like, he's trying to scare me. This dude is tall as fuck.
我们会搜查总站 We'll search the terminal.
老天啊 Jesus.
你还好吗 宝贝 You staying strong, baby girl?
你还没趴下 Well, you still standing.
如果你上网的话 不要刷新页面 If you go online, don't scroll down.
是 Yeah.
鸡尾酒
你的家在等待
《重新考虑》 波比帕内尔
怎么了 What's going on?
你是波比帕内尔吗 Are you Poppy Parnell?
是谁找事来了 Who's asking?
我是 I am.
你被传唤了 You've been served.
阿兰娜凯夫 就欧文凯夫的非正常死亡起诉我 Alana Cave is suing me for the wrongful death of Owen Cave.