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米卡 你想要什么 What do you want, Micah?
我想要这一切停止 I want this to stop.
那就说出真相 Then tell the truth.
我们不一定要有冲突 We don't have to be at odds.
我们曾经爱过彼此 We loved each other once.
你激励了我 And you inspired me.
我愿意这么说 I'm willing to say that.
你是《弃子》灵感的来源 That you were the inspiration behind Discard.
露丝 告诉波比你弄错了 Rose, tell Poppy you were mistaken.
撒谎 Lie.
这就是你的意思吧撒谎 That's what you mean, right? Lie.
-是撒谎吗 -是 -Is it though? -Yes.
你讲述那个故事太多次了 你可能感觉那就是你的人生 You've told the story so many times, you might feel like it's your life,
但它不是 那是我的人生 but it's not. It was mine.
不全是 Not all of it.
夜店里的袭击没有发生在你身上 The attack in the club, that didn't happen to you.
是发生在我身上的 It happened to me.
你说他袭击了你 因为你是个圈外人 You said he attacked you because you were an outsider.
他袭击我是因为我是黑人 He attacked me because I'm Black.
-你无法抹去这一点 -故事的重点是脆弱 -You can't erase that. -That story was about vulnerability.
放学回家后发现 Coming home from school and finding
你的寄养父母丢下你搬走了 that your foster parents have moved and left you behind.
没有任何预警 No warning.
这又是谁的故事 Whose story was that?
-露丝 听着… -是谁的 -Rose, listen...Whose?
如果你无法对自己说出真相 那就对我说 Tell me the truth if you can't tell yourself.
真相比你我都要重要 The truth is bigger than both of us.
有成千上万女孩需要我 I have thousands of girls who need me.
你利用了我 You took advantage of me.
利用了霍特的奉献 Exploited Holt's devotion.
-这不是事实 -这不是谎言 -That's not true. -It's not a lie.
霍特爱上你后整个人都变了 Holt's DNA changed when he fell in love with you.
受过创伤的男孩遇见了受过创伤的女孩 Broken boy meets broken girl.
她那些因伤痛产生的棱角 把他划得体无完肤 Her jagged edges cut him to shreds.
你记得我们在米纳街上 擅自占用的阁楼吗 You remember that loft we squatted in on Minna?
你可以在那里生活 Well, you can live a life there.
归你了 It's yours.
条件呢 If I do what?
直言真相
第二季 第 9 集
小心点 Be careful.
好 我会小心的 Okay, I'll be careful.
-好 大概就是这里 -好 -All right. Right about here. -Okay.
挂上了吗 There?
-要有信心 好了 -搞定了 -Have faith. There we go. -We got it?
是的 我不知道是否挂歪了 我看看 Yeah. I don't know if it's crooked or not. Let me see.
-不错 -是的 -That's nice. -Yeah.
詹姆斯鲍德温曾写道 接受一个人的过去历史 James Baldwin once wrote that to accept one's past, one's history,
和被其淹没是不同的 is not the same thing as drowning in it.
那是学会如何将其利用 It's learning how to use it.
但你永远无法利用一个编造的过去 But an invented past can never be used.
它会在生活的压力下碎裂瓦解 It cracks and crumbles under the pressures of life
像干旱季节的黏土 like clay in a season of drought.
米卡基思的干旱季节正式开始了 The drought has officially begun for Micah Keith.
几十年的欺骗面临着一场天崩地裂的清算 A seismic reckoning for decades of deception.
抵制米卡基思
问题是现在会发生什么 The question is, what happens now?
有一个骗子 她叫米卡
米卡的骗术是情感犯罪 Micah's deception was emotional criminality.
她利用我们中最脆弱的人 She took advantage of the most vulnerable amongst us
利用其痛苦为自己牟利 and exploited the pain for her own profit.
几乎所有她曾接触过的人都受到波及 And almost everyone she touched has felt the repercussions.
我自己的清算也迫在眉睫 My own reckoning looms as well.
因为我之前做出的选择 For the choices I've made...
我在过程中曾伤害的人 the people I've hurt in the process.
这次的故事强迫我诚实面对自己的错误 This story has forced me to be honest about my own mistakes.
我自己的报道 My own reporting.
我的初衷并非揭发米卡 I didn't set out to expose Micah.
我唯一的目标是破解 My only goal was to solve
乔希亚基思和他儿子德鲁特尼的谋杀案 the murders of Joshua Keith and his son, Drew Turney.
好吧 All right.
是露丝 It's Rose.
-喂 -医院让我出院了 -Hello? -The hospital discharged me.
别走…我马上就到 Don't leave. Don't leave. I'll be right there.
为什么要由你去接露丝 Why are you the one to get Rose?
我没有选择 I don't have a choice.
她没有地方可去 She doesn't have a place to go.
你为什么这么急着见她 Why do you need to see her so badly?
我昨晚听了对她的采访 I listened to my interview with her last night,
她说乔希因为纪录片受到威胁 and she said Josh was threatened because of his documentary.
这我们都知道 We knew that.
-但她怎么知道 -我不知道 也许是乔希告诉她的 -But how did she know that? -I don't know. Maybe Josh told her.
也许她知道的东西比她自己想象中更多 Maybe she knows more than she thinks.
是为了米卡吗 Is this about Micah?
她都那样背叛你了 你为什么还在保护她 Why are you still protecting her after the way she betrayed you?
我想让米卡负责 我不想让她死 I want Micah held accountable. I don't want her dead.
明白了 Understood.
《弃子》 米卡基思著
客服可以帮你处理任何退货事宜 Customer service can help with any product returns.
我这就帮你转接 I'll transfer you now.
这里是避风港 请问有什么能帮你提升的方面 You've reached Shelter. How may we enhance you?
别把电话挂回去 出什么事了 Leave the phone off the hook. What happened?
我们今天早上来公司时 门前有很多愤怒的人 When we got here this morning, there were people out front. Angry people.
-他们冲了进来 抢夺产品 -做个深呼吸 -They pushed in, grabbing products. -Take a deep breath.
好吧 只要没人受伤 这都没关系 Okay, as long as no one was hurt, it doesn't matter.
艾维在哪 Where's Ivy?
她刚和董事会开完会 She just finished up with the board.
我的行事历上没有董事会成员会议 There was no board meeting on my calendar.
艾维让我把会议去掉了 Ivy asked me to remove it.
我明白 I understand,
但是现在有成千上万的人取消订阅 好 but people are canceling subscriptions by the thousands. Okay.
给我五分钟处理此事 我一会儿去你办公室找你 Give me five minutes to handle this. I'll meet you in your office.
不 因为诺德斯特龙和布鲁明戴尔 都取消了我们的护肤产品合约 No, because Nordstrom and Bloomingdale's both dropped the skin care line.
我不知道 那是我刚说的 I don't know. That's what I said.
艾维背着米卡独自和董事会成员开会
不…我稍后打给你好吗 No, no, no. I need to call you back, okay?
这事你打算怎么说 How do you want to play this?
董事会打算替掉你 The board is moving to replace you.
用谁替 With who?
董事会找了我 The board approached me.
你想在我自己的公司里替掉我 You want to try to replace me from my own company?
你让我别无选择 You didn't leave me a choice.
好吧 Okay.
那我们就来试试吧 Let's test this out then.
看看人们更加忠于谁 你还是我 Let's see who people are more loyal to. You or me.
这件事不必演变成斗争 You know, this doesn't have to be a fight.
不会的 It won't be.
抱歉 Sorry.
美国邮政
嗨 露丝 Hey, Rose.
我很高兴你给我打电话 I'm glad you called me.
他们需要我的床位 所以我得出院 They needed my bed, so off I go.
我给你带了几样东西 Well, I brought you a couple of things.
衣服鞋卫生用品 还有一点钱让你开始新生活 Clothes, shoes, hygiene products, a little money to get you started.
谢谢 Thank you.
你能回答我几个问题吗 Can you help me with a couple of questions?
你说乔希因为自己的纪录片受到威胁 You said Josh was threatened because of his documentary.
这话是什么意思 What did you mean by that?
我几个月前去看他的纪录片 看到他和别人吵了起来 I went to his screening a few months ago, and I saw him get into an argument.
有个人气势汹汹地威胁说要杀了他 The guy got in his face and threatened to kill him.
你知道他的名字吗 Did you get his name, by chance?
但他看起来挺有钱的 But he looked like one of those high-steppers.
有钱 High-steppers?
这些人当中有眼熟的吗 Any of these look familiar?
照片库
是他 这就是他 That's him. That's him right there.
把这个发给埃姆斯 看看他是否知道那是谁 Send that to Aames. See if he knows who it is.
-你确定他威胁了乔希 -是 我看见了 -You sure he threatened Josh? -Yeah, I saw him.
他没看见我 He didn't see me.
米卡之前来这里了 Micah was here.
她提出给我一个地方住 条件是让我闭嘴 She offered me a place to live for my silence.
我不会对自己的人生撒谎 I'm not gonna lie about my life.
无论好坏 这是我唯一拥有的 It's the only thing I have. Good or bad.
如果你需要落脚的地方 我能帮你 If you need a place to go, I can help you.
怎么帮 How?
我妹妹查了几个庇护所 My sister looked into a couple of shelters.
奥尔巴尼市有一家 埃尔塞里托市有一家 There's one in Albany, one in El Cerrito.
我可以送你去其中任意一家 帮你安顿下来 I can take you to either one. Help you get settled in.
这样你就能摆脱我了 是吗 You can just wipe your hands of me?
我不是那个意思 我只想帮忙 That's not my intention. I just want to help.
这两家都不错 很干净 Both facilities are nice, clean.
你要去哪 Where you going?
米卡来这里让我闭嘴 Micah came here to shut me up.
-你来这里利用我 -不是的 -You came here to use me. -That's not true.
我还是自己照顾自己比较好 Better off looking out for myself.
好 埃姆斯答复我了 Okay. I heard back from Aames.
露丝指认的人叫马丁海伍德 The guy Rose identified is Martin Haywood.
直到几周前他还是一名旧金山警察 And until a couple of weeks ago, he was SFPD.
-真的假的 -真的 -Are you serious? -Yes.
埃姆斯想在早上和我们见面 Aames wants to meet us in the morning.
好 跟进他一下 我晚些和他联系 Okay. Follow up with him, and I'll connect later.
嗨 老爸 是我 我在路上了 Hey, Daddy. It's me. I'm on my way.
我想和你分享雪莉小姐完整的故事 I want to share the whole story about Miss Shirley.
不仅仅是我在播客上讲的那部分 Not just what I told on the podcast.
如果你爸真的爱你 他就不会进监狱了 If your daddy really loved you, he wouldn't be in jail.
她从来不做别人能看出来的事 She never did things that people could see.
她让我感觉自己没人要是个负担 She made me feel unwanted, a burden.
还有语言羞辱 Then it was words.
她很擅长用语言伤害我 She was real good at cutting me with those.
她越是了解我 The more she got to know me,
伤害我的方法就越多 the more creative she was about what would hurt me.
我在那里住了一个月 I had been there a month,
盼望爸爸来信 心里想着他为什么还不给我写信 waiting to hear from Daddy, wondering why he hadn't written to me,
我看见桌子上放着一封信 when I saw a letter on the table.
她不让我读那封信 碰都不让 更别说拆开了 She wouldn't let me read it, open it or touch it.
我哭着求她恳请她 I begged. I pleaded. I cried.
她却只是嘲笑我 She just laughed at me.
那封信在桌上放了大约一周 It sat there for about a week.
我终于拿着信跑掉了 Finally grabbed it and ran.
她抓住我时 我用尽全力尖叫 When she caught me, I was screaming at the top of my lungs.
虽然她没有碰我 我还是继续尖叫 Even though she wasn't touching me, I just kept screaming.
她… She...
她把信抢过去 丢进了壁炉 She grabbed it and threw it in the fireplace.
在火焰点燃信纸边缘的一瞬间 And as soon as the flames caught the edges of that letter,
我一点声音都发不出来 I couldn't utter a sound.
仿佛自己的声音被从胸口掏走了一样 It was like it ripped my voice right out of my chest.
永远失声 For good.
之后我一句话也没说过 I never spoke another word after that.
你一直把这件事藏在心里 What... You've been holding this in all this time?
你为什么从没提起 Why didn't you say anything?
记住 你必须坚强 Remember, you gotta stay strong.
不要哭 Don't cry.
没有人会在乎黑人小女孩的眼泪 Nobody cares about a little Black girl's tears.
你做的事是迫不得已 是为了生存 You did what you had to do to survive.
对不起 I'm sorry.
为什么 For what?
我曾多次贬低你所经历的一切 All the times I diminished what you went through.
不 这不是你的错 No, that's not your fault.
那是谁的错 Then whose fault is it?
爸 Daddy.
我去跟他谈 I'll go talk to him.
你怎么来了 What are you doing here?
你父亲把他的钥匙给我了 但我决定要做个体面的人 Your father gave me his key, but I decided to be respectable.
-你决定不想遭到枪击 -对 也有这个原因 -And you decided not to get shot. -Yeah, that too.
-想喝点什么吗 -好啊 -Would you like a drink? -Yes, please.
威士忌 Whiskey?
上帝的甘露 听起来很美味 The nectar of the gods. Sounds yummy.
所以… So?
跟我说说 你恨我吗 So, tell me something. Do you hate me?
这个问题一定另有深意 That's gotta be rhetorical.
我这么问是因为 你即将因自己的行为出庭受审 And I ask because you're about to go on trial over your behavior
而你的行为和欧文凯夫之死有关 as it pertains to the death of Owen Cave.
他就死在那个房间里 A death that happened in that room.
你现在要告诉全世界你让另一个人死去 And now you tell the world that you let someone else die.
你想让我怎么办这事已经公开了 What do you want me to do? It's out there now.
我们可以把雪莉小姐 虐待你的经历作为切入点 There's a world where we lean into Miss Shirley's abuse of you.
制造同情 Create sympathy.
但我们必须描述细节 我必须知道你能否做到 But we're gonna have to get in deep, and I gotta know if you can do it.
我有选择吗 Do I have a choice?
我们都有选择 但如果你不想失去这栋房子就没有 We all have choices, but not if you want to keep the house.
我有个邻居想买这房子 One of my neighbors wants to buy it.
我一直在寄出英格拉姆的物品 I've been shipping Ingram's things.
这里已经不是家了 This isn't home anymore.
从那时起就不是了 自从欧文凯夫… It hasn't been since Owen Cave...
在这里自杀时起 killed himself here.
你经历了很多困难 You've been through a lot.
但你是一个强大的女人 But you are a formidable woman.
你虽然承受着痛苦 还是为世界做了很多好事 And you do a lot of good in the world, even through your pain.
这是有价值的 That's worth something.
你到底是谁 Who the hell are you?
你这么问真有意思 Well, funny you ask.
几年前 I... Couple of years ago,
我研究了一下祖籍 I did some of those ancestry researches.
我想了解一下自己的历史 我这么优秀到底是谁造就的 I wanted to find out about my history. Who's responsible for all this glory?
马丁海伍德是埃瓦尔之子的忠实信徒 Martin Haywood is a true believer in the Sons of Ivar.
我几年前安排他去当卧底 结果他如鱼得水 I planted him undercover a few years back, and the snake took to the swamp.
埃瓦尔之子
我猜这和他离开警队有关 I'm assuming this has to do with why he's no longer with the force?
-不仅如此 是我开除他的 -天啊 -There's more than that. I fired him. -Holy shit.
是 他曾一度把双方都骗了 Yeah. He was able to play both sides for a while,
但是后来事情败露了 but it caught up with him.
他一直在用一个化名 在社交媒体Parler上宣传埃瓦尔 He's been using an alias on Parler to champion Ivar.
他甚至还给全国分会捐过钱 He's even made some financial contributions to the National Chapter.
所以导致内务部盯上了他 That's what got IA onto him.
怎么会呢 How'd that happen?
老一套 Usual bullshit.
不愉快的离婚 孩子归妻子抚养 这类男人很多都是这样的 Bitter divorce. The wife took the kids. It's the same with a lot of these men.
是 他讨厌乔希 因为乔希曾否定埃瓦尔之子 Yeah. He hated Josh 'cause Josh disavowed the Sons.
所以海伍德有杀人动机 So Haywood had motive.
这对地方检察官来说还不够 不过是个开始 That's not enough for the DA. It's a start.
我们需要证据或目击证人 We need evidence or an eyewitness.
好吧 你告诉我 你觉得他有没有可能就是凶手 Okay, just tell me this. Do you think he could be our killer?
很难说 他有不在场证明 It's hard to say. He's got an alibi.
他当时在参加 埃瓦尔之子的新成员入会仪式 He was with SOI at an initiation ceremony
正好是乔希亚和德鲁遇害那晚 the night that Joshua and Drew were murdered.
他有宣誓过的声明 He's got sworn statements.
可能是在撒谎 Could be lying.
你觉得你能查出那天晚上入会 You think you could find out who was initiated
或是本来要入会的新成员是谁吗 or supposed to be initiated that night?
这也许是我们破案的方向 That could be the road for us.
你总是给私下调查出难题啊 You don't make off the books very easy,
但我会去查查看的 but I will see what I can do.
你们俩小心一点 You guys be careful, both of you.
海伍德已经疯了 我不信任他 Haywood has come loose at the seams. I don't trust him.
所以如果他动用了警方资源 来掩盖自己的行径 也许留下了线索 So if he used police resources to cover his tracks, maybe he left a trail.
想让我深入虎穴 So, stick my head all the way in the lion's mouth?
欢迎体验我的生活 Welcome to my life.
-好吧 -谢谢你 兄弟 -All right. -Thank you, brother.
我怎么会和一个警察约会 How am I dating a cop?
一个好警察 但这通常不是我的作风 I mean, a fine cop, but it's not usually my style.
再来一杯 Top you off with another one?
-为什么不呢 -好 -Why not, right? -Yeah.
-马库斯基勒布鲁 -黛丝里 怎么了 -Markus Killebrew. -Desiree. What's happening?
马库斯 Markus.
嗨 Hey.
-很高兴你在这里 -我收到你的信息了 -I'm glad you're here. -I got your message.
顶石帮的人呢 Where the Capstones at?
艾克 各位 怎么了你们… Elk. Fellas, what's happening? You
德莉亚 Drea?
亲爱的 你还好吗 Sweetheart, are you okay?
南多 给警察和急救人员打电话 Nando, call the police and the paramedics.
黛丝里 你能带她离开 去个人少的地方吗 Desiree, can you take her outta here, away from the eyes?
是 能派几位警官来敲敲门酒吧吗 沙塔克街和54街交叉口 Yeah. Could I get some officers at The Knock? Shattuck Avenue and 54th.
-德莉亚 嗨 我叫黛丝里 这是马库斯 -嗨 亲爱的 -Drea. Hi, I'm Desiree. This is Markus. -Hey, sweetheart.
我们是你母亲的朋友 We're friends with your mother.
不如我们上楼去等她吧 So, why don't we go upstairs and wait for her
马库斯会试着联系她 好吗 while Markus tries to reach her? Okay?
-没事的 -来吧 宝贝 没事的 这边 -It's okay. -Come on, baby. It's okay. It's this way.
失踪 德莉亚斯派维
跟我来外面聊聊 Come holla at me outside.
这个人就是原本要入会的新人 So this is the guy who was supposed to be initiated
乔希遇害那晚 the night of Josh's murder.
来看看他会不会确认海伍德的不在场证明 Let's see if he'll back up Haywood's alibi.
凯尔里希特 Kyle Richter?
我叫波比 我是一名记者 正在写一篇报道 My name's Poppy. I'm a reporter working on a story.
希望你能和我聊一下 Was hoping you'd have a minute to talk.
聊什么 About?
埃瓦尔之子 The Sons of Ivar.
没什么可说的 我和那个组织已经再无任何瓜葛 Nothing to say. I really don't have anything to do with that group anymore.
不好意思 那是M40A5吗 I'm sorry, is that an M40A5?
以前在德克萨斯州 我遇到过老鼠问题 Once upon a time in Texas, I had a rat problem.
这是处理老鼠的最佳方式 也是最有趣的 That was the best way to deal with it. And the most fun.
你这里还有什么我能看看吗 What else have you got back there? Can I?
这是一支马林336A This is a Marlin 336A
还有一支雷明顿540XR and a Remington 540XR.
不错啊 Not bad.
那是你父亲吗 Is that your father?
那个军人 Military man?
我在信箱上看到了他的名字 Saw his name on the mailbox.
他已经去世了 He's dead.
我很遗憾 I'm sorry.
是啊 那一定很令人伤心 Yeah, that must've been hard.
你们走吧 You should go.
我爸爸曾是德克萨斯州骑警 也当过兵 去过越南 My dad was a Texas Ranger and military. Vietnam.
我想儿子失去父亲一定非常伤心 I can only imagine what it must have been like as a guy.
在你的入会仪式那晚 和马丁海伍德之间发生了什么 What happened the night of your initiation with Martin Haywood?
-他知道你们来这里吗 -不知道 -Does he know you're here? -No.
以后也没必要让他知道 And he never needs to know.
那天晚上发生了什么 What happened that night?
马丁没来 错过了整场仪式 Martin was a no-show. He missed the whole thing.
马丁海伍德
所以马丁海伍德没有不在场证明 So Martin Haywood doesn't have an alibi.
没错 他说谎了 Nope. Lied.
还吩咐所有参加仪式的人替他圆谎 Have all the people at the initiation to back it up.
刚刚收到了避风港的群发电邮 Just got an email blast from Shelter.
看起来你的朋友试图挽回声誉 Looks like your friend's attempting to rise from the ashes.
对你提出的指控… The accusations lodged against you have
从根本上攻击了一切我在避风港努力争取 Well, attacked the very core of everything I've tried to accomplish
和创建的东西 and build here at Shelter.
和对手打交道
我们的初衷是赋权 给女性赋权 We are about empowerment, female empowerment, from our inception.
这场诋毁运动背后的推手却是另一位女性 For another woman to be the architect of this damaging campaign.
这整个过程中损失的是我做的工作 And what's being lost in all this is the work I do.
我没有要求得到这个职位 我写了一本书 I didn't ask for this position. I wrote a book.
书引起了人们的共鸣 And it struck a chord.
它给了我一个平台 It gave me a platform
让我能向其他人展示如何化逆境为力量 to be able to show others how to turn adversity into strength.
我这么说是因为我对此深信不疑 And I say it because I believe it.
-接下来呢 -回到根本 -What's next? -Getting back to the core.
所以我非常期待我的周末健康研讨会 Which is why I'm very much looking forward to my weekend wellness seminar
地点在提尔顿国家公园 at Tilden Regional Park.
我希望所有正在观看本视频的人都能参加 Which I hope anyone watching and everyone watching can make it.
宝贝 准备好了吗 Baby? You ready?
这个时间桥上的交通非常拥堵 You know, traffic is a beast on the bridge at this time of day,
所以我们得出发了 so we need to head out.
我不去了 I'm not going.
这些话我一点都不想听 谢里夫 我们走 I'm not trying to hear any of that, Shreve. Now, let's go.
我说不去就不去 I mean what I said.
艾克跟我说了找到德莉亚的地方 Elk told me where they found Drea
还有他们进去救她时都看见了什么 and what they saw when they went in there to pull her out.
这种事怎么会发生在我住的街区 How could shit like this happen in my neighborhood
而我竟然一无所知 and I have no idea about it?
换在以前 若是顶石帮不点头 谁也不敢轻举妄动 Used to be nobody made a move unless the Capstones gave a nod.
这不是你的错 谢里夫 This isn't your fault, Shreve.
这些预约什么用都没有 只是让我分心 These appointments have been nothing but distractions.
别这么说 你知道这是不尊重医生的 Now, don't use that. You know that's disrespectful.
我再也不会去了 I'm not going. Ever.
宝贝 我知道你因为生病而心烦 Baby, I know that you're upset about being sick.
但真正令你不开心的是波比 But what you're really upset about is Poppy
和她对家里人说的那番话 and what she told the family.
你们俩好像 You two are so much alike.
她比两个妹妹加在一起还要像你 She's more like you than the other two combined.
去和她分享你的痛苦吧 这样她才能和你分享她的 Share your pain with her so she can share hers with you.
马丁海伍德 这是我们寻访可怕男子之旅的第二站 Martin Haywood. Stop number two on our creepy man tour.
我们去过更可怕的地方 采访过更可怕的人 Well, we've been scarier places and interviewed scarier men.
是 但我们当时 有强大的《纽约时报》做靠山 现在… Yeah, but then we had the might of the Times behind us. Now...
我只是想采访他 问他一个几个问题 I just wanna interview him. Ask him some questions.
该死 好 我们上吧 Shit. All right, let's do it.
海伍德在这里搞了个生产冰毒的实验室 Is Haywood running a meth lab back here?
这地方令我毛骨悚然 This place is giving me the creeps.
我们走吧 Let's just... Let's go.
-好吧 -走吧 -Okay. -Come on.
避风港
他为什么会有避风港产品的盒子 What's he doing with boxes of Shelter products?
什么 What?
-嗨 -嗨 -Hi. -Hey.
这不是个好主意 This is not a good idea.
为什么不是 Why not?
因为很危险 Because it is dangerous.
参与者全都没有经过充分审查 None of the attendees have been fully vetted.
这些人都爱我 These people love me.
我号召了一下他们就来了 I called, and they came.
你再这样干下去会毁了避风港的 You keep doing this, you're going to destroy Shelter.
请大家听我说 Can I get your attention, everyone?
-嗨 欢迎 -嗨 米卡 -Hi. Welcome. -Hi, Micah.
我们今晚有一位新的发言人 So, we have a new speaker this evening,
艾维阿伯特 Ivy Abbott.
今天活动的揭幕由她来主持 And she's gonna start us off today.
去吧 舞台交给你了 Go ahead. The floor is yours.
不如你来主持焚烧典礼吧 Why don't you lead us in the burning ceremony?
这个主意太好了 That's a great idea.
谢谢 Thank you.
请各位拿出今天带来这里的物品 If I can ask you to take out whatever item you brought here today.
焚烧典礼意味着… A burning ceremony signifies...
净化 a cleanse.
重生是要浴火的 There is fire in renewal.
请大家用一点时间想一想 你带来的物品在你心中代表着什么 Take a moment and think about what your item represents to you.
它是如何拖累你的 How is it holding you back?
它为什么能代表你的痛苦 How does it represent your pain?
你的局限 Your limitations?
你的失败和失望 Your failures and your disappointments?
闭上眼睛 Close your eyes.
来吧 闭上眼睛 Go ahead, close your eyes.
大家把精神集中在 I really want you to focus
手中的那个物品上 on whatever item it is that you have in your hand.
我们都受困于 不健康的工作感情关系生活 We all get trapped in unhealthy jobs, relationships, lives.
但我们永远都有选择 But we always, always have a choice.
有一种内在的力量 An inner strength.
那内在的力量在我们心中燃烧 就像这熊熊烈火 And that inner strength, it burns inside of us just like this fire.
它只需要一点点气息就能被点燃 All it needs is just a little... little breath to ignite.
谁想第一个上前来 Who would like to be the first to come up?
我们想要米卡 We want Micah.
对 米卡… Yeah, Micah. Micah.
好 Right.
谢谢你 艾维 Thank you, Ivy.
谢谢 Thank you.
这些是仇恨邮件 This is hate mail.
美国邮政 大号分拣邮件托盘
全都是 All of it.
死亡威胁 Death threats,
仅仅因为我有勇气发声 simply because I have the courage to use my voice.
是时候放下所有这些包袱了 It's time to release it all.
放下任何… Any...
放下一切… and everything...
拖累我们的东西 that holds us back.
你记得我常喝的饮料 You remember my regular?
谢谢你让我来看你 Thanks for letting me come see you.
我每天都在想发生在你身上的事 I think about what happened to you every day.
翻来覆去地想 Just replays in my mind.
我也是 但那不是你的错 Mine too. But it's not your fault.
你记得那个小姑娘吗 德莉亚斯派维 失踪的那个 You remember that young girl, Drea Spivey, who went missing?
记得 Yeah.
是 顶石帮找到她了 Yeah, well, the Capstones, they found her.
而且… And...
此事令我感到不适 it's fucking with me.
波比 我做的事有什么意义 What good am I doing, Pop?
我还是警察时 我有一种使命感 I mean, when I was on the force, I had a purpose.
我感觉每天都在为这个世界做贡献 It felt like I was doing good for the world every day.
但是现在的我 But here I am...
给名人当保镖 与此同时 却发生这种糟心事 guarding some celebrity while shit like this happens.
像德莉亚这样的小姑娘被剥削利用 Young girls like Drea getting exploited.
-所以你要再次披上你的英雄披风 -差不多吧 -So you need to put your cape back on. -Well, something like that.
既然我们开诚布公 Well, since we are baring our souls...
我和英格拉姆要离婚了 Ingram and I are getting a divorce.
你知道了 You knew?
扎丽娜告诉我了 Zarina told me.
-扎丽娜是怎么知道的 -米卡 -How does Zarina know? -Micah.
没错 That's right.
我不该感到惊讶的 但是… Well, I shouldn't be surprised, but...
抱歉 我把你牵扯了进来 sorry I drew you into all of this.
拜托 我是个成年人 Please. I'm a grown-ass man.
我是可以拒绝的 I could've said no.
她曾经欺骗过你吗 Did she ever fool you?
没有… No. No.
但你要知道 我不信任米卡 But you see, I didn't trust Micah
因为她的反应和 我看待事物的方式总是不一致 because her reactions never were in line with the way I saw things.
但我从来没有因为任何事怀疑过她 But I never suspected her of anything.
我只是不信她推销的那一套话术 I just wasn't buying the bullshit she was selling.
你知道为什么 我总是觉得和你有一种联系吗 You know why I've always felt a connection with you?
因为你知道害怕到不敢停下奔跑的脚步 是什么样的感觉 Because you know what it's like to be terrified to ever stop running.
因为如果停下 恶魔就会追上你 Because if you did, that demon could catch you.
把你重新关起来 Put you right back in that bottle.
这该死的诉讼… This goddamn lawsuit is...
要把我的整个公司拖垮了 You know, it's drying up my whole business.
我显然没在避风港工作 I'm obviously not working at Shelter.
剩下几个临时的安保工作 仅够给手下人发工资的 And the few security gigs I do have pay for my men but not much else.
特里妮就要上大学了 Trini, she's going off to college.
一个新宝宝即将出生 I got a new baby on the way.
马库斯 为什么不让我帮你 Markus, why don't you let me help you?
毕竟是我把你牵扯进来的 Since I dragged you into all of this.
如果我需要你帮助 我会联系你的 好吗 I'll get at you if I need your help, okay?
帮我另找一份工作 To help me find another job.
好了 你最近和米卡谈过吗 So, talk to Micah lately?
没有 但我得找她谈谈 No, but I need to.
怎么需要我陪你去吗 So, what? You need some backup?
冒着被你老婆用网球拍打死的风险 And risk your wife beating me to death with her tennis racket?
不要了 No.
都是因为荷尔蒙什么的 Hormones and all that.
那可不是荷尔蒙 That ain't hormones.
是“你的前女友烦死人了”这类原因 That's "your ex-girlfriend gets on my nerves" and all that.
如果我是坏人的话会容易些 It'd be easier if I was a bad guy.
反派 A villain.
我有没有美化过我的故事 Did I embellish my story?
是 我有 Yes. I did.
我有没有让 300多个流落街头的孩子有家可住 Did I get more than 300 unhoused kids off the street and into homes?
我有没有在旧金山建造住房 Did I build housing in San Francisco,
这是全国生活成本最高的城市之一 one of the most expensive cities in the country,
我给80个无家可归的家庭提供了住房 and put 80 unhoused families in homes?
我背叛了我的朋友 I betrayed my friend.
我并没有坦诚地说出一切 I wasn't truthful about all four corners of my heart.
哪个女人做得到 What woman is?
但我爱我的丈夫 But I loved my husband.
我深爱着他 我每天都很想他 I deeply loved him, and I miss him every day.
但不知为何 这一份真正的失去却被遗忘了 And somehow that real loss is just forgotten.
是波比 It's Poppy.
波比帕内尔 Poppy Parnell.
人无完人 We're all imperfect humans.
她来这里做什么 What's she doing here?
是关于米卡的播客 That podcast on Micah.
这里不欢迎你 You're not welcome here.
-没关系 -你最好离开 -It's okay. -You should leave.
没关系的 It's okay.
你是来参加我们活动的吗 Did you come to join us?
不 我是来确保没有人会受伤 No. I came to make sure no one gets hurt.
他们来这里都是自愿的 我没有强迫他们 They're all here 'cause they wanna be. I didn't force them.
但你强迫我说出了 我一生中最痛苦的一段经历 But you forced me to reveal one of the most painful moments of my life.
那我的痛苦意味着什么 And my pain means what?
我不知道 I have no idea.
因为我不知道你到底有没有感情 Because I don't know if you're capable of feeling anything.
你凭什么判断这一点 What makes you the judge of that?
你有没有和马丁海伍德合谋杀害乔希 Did you team up with Martin Haywood to kill Josh?
当然没有 Of course not.
你身边已经一个盟友也不剩了 You don't have a single ally left.
在你这番事业之前就认识你的人 全都离你而去了 No one who knew you before all this is left in your life.
这有什么安全感可言 Where's the safety in that?
你们相信我吗 Do you believe in me?
相信 Yes.
-你相信我吗 -相信 -Do you believe in me? -Yes.
谢谢 Thank you.
-你相信我吗 -相信 -Do you believe in me? -Yes.
我相信你 米卡 I believe in you, Micah.
我相信你 I believe in you.
-我相信你 -我相信你 -I believe in you. -I believe in you.
我相信你 米卡 I believe in you, Micah.
雪莉小姐知道有关我爸爸的真相
嗨 老爸 Hey, Daddy.
嗨 宝贝女儿 很高兴你来了 Hey, baby girl. I'm glad you came.
准备和我聊聊吗 You ready to talk to me?
我只是不想自言自语 I just didn't want to talk to myself.
我对你之前的那番话深恶痛绝 I hated every word that you had to say.
我辜负了你 辜负了你们姐妹仨 I failed you. The girls.
在方方面面都辜负了你们 In so many ways.
这不是我告诉你那件事的原因 That's not why I told you any of that.
雪莉小姐在去世前对我说 你不是我父亲 Before she died, Miss Shirley told me you weren't my father.
一天晚上她喝了酒 One night she had been drinking,
我无意间听到她在和一个人通电话 and I overheard her talking with one of her callers.
她发现我在偷听 She caught me eavesdropping.
然后她告诉我说 妈妈在认识你时已经怀孕了 And then she told me that Mama was already pregnant when she met you.
你相信我是你父亲吗 Do you believe I'm your father?
我当过你的父亲吗 Have I been your father?
宝贝 这就是你当时停止说话的原因 That's why you stopped talking, baby girl?
是吗 Really?
雪莉小姐是你的什么人 What was she to you? Miss Shirley?
是我认识埃莉诺之前的相好 Just a woman I ran with before I met Elinor.
我用了很长时间才意识到 Took me a long time to realize
她爱着我 就像我爱着你母亲那样 that she loved me like I loved your mother.
我离开她后她从未原谅我 She never forgave me when I left her.
-所以她才会拿我当出气筒 -她从未对我展示那一面 -That why she took all her rage out on me? -She never showed that to me.
一次都没有过 Not once, ever.
她住在附近 还会光顾酒吧 She was neighborhood. She still came to the bar,
还会参加我和你母亲曾经举办的卡牌派对 the card parties me and your mother used to throw.
她只向我展示过一个面目 She only showed me one face.
如果我知道还有其他情况 我是决不会把你留在她身边的 I never would've left you with her if I knew anything else.
你相信我吗 Do you believe me?
看这个 Look here.
我之前从没看过你和妈妈的这张照片 I've never seen this one of you and Mama before.
你和她一模一样 You look just like her.
我很爱你 宝贝 I love you so much, sweetheart.
我为你感到非常骄傲 你这么坚强 I'm so proud of you. So goddamn proud of how strong you are
你闯出了自己的一片天 and how you've made your own way.
你母亲也会为你感到骄傲的 但不会惊讶 Your mother would be too, but not surprised.
你还是个婴儿时 她管你叫“小银河” She called you "Milky Way" when you were a baby.
不是吧 She didn't.
是的 She did.
所有人都会联想到 巧克力或是你深色的皮肤 Everybody thought the candy bar or your pretty brown skin.
但她这么叫你是因为你是她的整个星座 It was because you were her whole constellation.
她的星系她的小银河 Her galaxy. Her little Milky Way.
我从来不知道这件事 I never knew that.
我曾经为此取笑过她 但其实我也爱听她说这个名字 I used to tease her about it, but I loved to hear it too.
你就是我们的女儿 You are our daughter.
你是埃莉诺的女儿 你是我的女儿 You are Elinor's daughter. You are my daughter.
是 Yeah.
迪米特里斯 是我 Mitri, it's me.
深夜来电 有意思 怎么了 A late-night call. I'm intrigued. What's happening?
我不想出庭受审 I don't want to go to trial.
我还想在斐济享受退休生活呢 怎么了你打退堂鼓了 And I want to retire in Fiji. What's wrong? You getting cold feet?
没有 No.
我看清了 Clarity.
庭外和解吧 Settle the lawsuit.
满足阿兰娜的全部要求 Meet the terms of Alana's demands in full.
你的头又被人打了 Were you smacked on the head again?
我是认真的 I'm serious.
不是所有人都值得拥有 安宁和善始善终 但是… Not everyone deserves peace and closure, but...
她应该拥有 she does.
-波比 你在家吗 -我在这 -Poppy! You home? -I'm in here.
我让迪米特里斯去把诉讼和解了 I told Mitri to settle the lawsuit.
我要把房子卖了 I'm selling the house.
那我们接下来去哪 Well, where we going next?
-你要和我一起住 -住到不能住为止 -You staying with me? -Until I can't.
你和老爸谈得怎么样 How was your talk with Daddy?
谈得很好 It was really nice.
那我很高兴 Well, I'm glad.
雪莉小姐对我说他不是我父亲 Miss Shirley told me he wasn't my father.
她说妈妈和他认识时已经怀孕了 That Mama was already pregnant when they met.
开什么玩笑 What in all fuck?
他怎么说 Well, what'd he say?
他说我是他的女儿 That I was his daughter.
很好 Good.
竟然用“已经怀孕了”来诋毁妈妈 Running Mama name through the gutter like that, "already pregnant."
我打赌 老爸一定强烈否认了这个谎言 I bet Daddy stomped on that lie.
你相信我是你父亲吗 Do you believe I'm your father?
你去哪 Where you going?
敲敲门酒吧
老爸 Daddy?
老爸 你在吗 Daddy, you here?
别过来 You stay the fuck back.
不要继续在播客上大放厥词 It's time you stop running your mouth on your podcast.
批判我们所有人了 tearing every one of us down.
如果你不听 Now, if you don't...
我可以保证你父亲将在监狱里度过余生 I can make sure that your father goes to jail for the rest of his life.
你能保证个屁 因为你已经不是警察了 You can't make sure of shit, 'cause you ain't a cop anymore.
我让你别过来 And I said stay the fuck back!
嘿 Hey.
-过来 嘿 -谁来救救我 -Come on. Hey. -Somebody help me!
-闭嘴 -救命 -Shut up. -Somebody help me!
把你的脏手从我女儿身上拿开 Get your motherfucking hands off my daughter.
我的天啊… Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
没事了 我在这 It's all right. I'm here.
他们会把你关回监狱的 这都是我的错 They gonna send you back to jail, and it's gonna be my fault.
没事了… It's okay. It's okay.
-他死了 爸 -别担心 -He's dead, Daddy. -Don't worry.
-你不能再进监狱了 -我哪里也不去 -You can't go back to jail. -I ain't going back anywhere.
我保证 I promise.
-没事了 来 -好 -It's okay. Come on. -Okay.
来 没事 Come on, it's okay.
没事 It's okay.