Apple 原 创
犯罪现场调查
我是旧金山警察局的埃姆斯警监 Inspector Aames, SFPD.
这里发生了什么 What happened here?
我们接到了911报警电话 警官到达后发现一具尸体 We had a 911 call. Officers arrived to find a body.
这两个人什么都不说 Neither one is talking.
敲敲门酒吧
死者是马丁海伍德 The deceased is Martin Haywood.
他以前是旧金山警察局的 He's former SFPD.
他是发生在旧金山的乔希亚基思 He's a suspect in the murder of Joshua Keith
和德鲁特尼谋杀案的嫌疑人 and Drew Turney in San Francisco.
什么都别说 Not a word.
把他铐起来 Cuff him.
嘿 等等…你们干什么 Hey, wait, wait, wait. What are you doing?
他只是… He just
我会给迪米特里斯打电话 I'll call Mitri.
我会跟着你的 我随后就到 爸 I'll follow you. I'm right behind you, Daddy.
我爱你 I love you.
埃姆斯 怎么了 Aames, what's up?
马丁海伍德死了 死在敲敲门酒吧 Martin Haywood is dead. At The Knock.
怎么回事发生了什么 What the fuck? What happened?
他是被刀捅死的 He was stabbed.
谢里夫被带走问话了 Shreve's been taken in for questioning.
他和波比都没开口 Neither he nor Poppy are talking.
等等 波比也在场她没事吧 Wait, hold on. Poppy was there? Is she okay?
她没事 她…受到了惊吓 She's fine. She's... Well, she's in shock.
好 听着 我去市中心找你 All right, look. I'll meet you downtown.
嘿 谢谢你打电话通知我 And hey, thanks for the call.
特里妮 Trini?
什么怎么了 What? What's going on?
-听着 亲爱的 我得出去一趟 好吗 -什么 -Listen, sweetheart. I gotta go out, okay? -What?
我走后 你要把门锁好 Now, when I leave, I want you to lock the door
-一定要打开警报系统 -好 知道了 -and make sure you put on the alarm. -Yeah, I know.
我会给你妈妈发短信 告诉她我必须出门 And I'll text your mom and let her know I had to go.
-好 -你没问题吧 -Okay. -You good?
没问题 我早上要排练 所以我就去睡了 Yeah. I have crew in the morning, so I'm just going to bed.
好 我很快就回来 我会开着手机 好吗 Okay. Well, I'll be back shortly. I'm on my cell phone, okay?
当然了 如果有任何需要就打给我 You need anything, obviously you call.
爸 Dad.
是 Yeah?
注意安全 Just be careful.
拜托了 Please.
宝贝 我保证 好吗 Baby, I promise, all right?
来 我保证 Come here. I promise.
-我爱你 -我也爱你 -I love you. -I love you too.
现在把门锁好 Now you lock that door.
-立刻把门锁好 拜托 -好了 我来了 -Lock the door now, please. -Okay, I'm coming.
奥克兰警察局
嘿 能告诉我发生了什么吗 Hey. You wanna tell me what happened?
私底下还是正式的 You or official you?
我一直都是警察 波比 I'm always a cop, Pop.
我一直都是我父亲的女儿 I'm always my father's daughter.
我会等他的律师来 I'll wait till his lawyer gets here.
好吧 All right.
但如果马丁海伍德 大老远来到奥克兰你们家开的酒吧 But if Martin Haywood was all the way out in Oakland at your family's bar,
我猜他很可能不怀好意 I am going to assume he wasn't there to spread the word of God.
-嘿 -看着点 -Hey. -Watch it, man.
-让我们单独谈一会儿 -好 -Give us a minute? -Yeah.
来 我们去外面说 Come on. Let's talk outside.
嗨 Hey.
你还好吗 You all right?
他袭击了我 He came at me.
把我按住了 Pinned me down.
然后老爸不知从哪里出现 捡起了我掉在地上的匕首 Then Daddy came from out of nowhere and picked up the knife that I dropped.
他绝对是冲着你来的 He was definitely coming after you.
他本来可能会把我和老爸都杀掉 He would have killed me and Daddy both.
我知道 他伸手去掏枪了 I know it. He reached for his gun.
你可以利用这一点 对吗 You can work that, right?
我可以充分利用这一点 I can work the fuck out of that.
这是自我防卫 This was self-defense.
我先进去 我会看着办的 Let me get in there and see what I can do.
一切都会没事的 Everything will be fine.
会没事的 It's gonna be all right.
桑切斯警官 请到前台 Officer Sanchez, please report to the front desk.
老爸在那 There's Daddy.
等等 怎么回事 Wait. What's going on?
该死 Shit.
我就觉得可能发生这种事 这叫合理理由逮捕 I thought this might happen. It's called a probable cause arrest.
他们可以拘留他48小时 就算是星期四 这… They can hold him for 48 hours. Even on Thursdays, it's
星期四是最不适合被拘留的日子 他可能要到星期二才能见到法官 Thursday's the worst day to be detained. He might not see a judge until Tuesday.
所以他要被转移到桑塔丽塔去吗 So is he being transferred to Santa Rita?
-你是知道的 -该死 -You know it. -Fuck.
岂有此理 That's some bullshit.
这和案子本身毫无关系 And it has nothing to do with the case itself.
你们没有支持者 但是都有很多反对者 None of you have fans, but you have a lot of enemies.
直言真相
第二季 第 10 集
有什么能用来帮老爸的吗 迪米特里斯已经打了两次电话 Anything we can use to help Daddy? Mitri's already called twice.
还没 但埃姆斯查出了 Not yet. But Aames came through
海伍德的通话记录和信号塔信息 with the Haywood phone records and cell towers.
看看吧 Look at this.
他从这里跟踪你 过了桥 He followed you here, across the bridge.
看起来他从我们离开他家起 就开始跟踪我们了 And it looks like he was on our tail after we left his house.
他追杀我 He hunted me.
波比 Pop,
我发现信号塔的信息显示 I found tower pings that put him in range
乔希亚和德鲁遇害那天晚上他在附近 of Joshua and Drew's murders the night of.
但这点证据太单薄了 But it's too clean.
缺了点什么 Something's missing.
这是避风港的主要号码 谋杀后第二天早上的 That's Shelter's main line, the morning after the murders.
他为什么要给避风港打电话 Why the hell would he call Shelter?
怎么了 What?
-米卡 -该死 -Micah. -Shit.
我一直觉得她很可疑 波比 She always seemed shady to me, Pop.
这就能解释海伍德家 为什么有避风港的产品了 And that would explain the Shelter products at Haywood's house.
我需要你去确认一下他给米卡打过电话 I need you to confirm he called Micah.
我们不能妄加指责 We can't just accuse.
最好还能查出他们谈了些什么 Even better, if we knew what they talked about.
好 All right.
如果避风港里有眼线的话会很有帮助 It would help to have eyes and ears inside the place,
-看看马库斯是否还能从那里得到信息 -好 -but we'll see if Markus still has an in. -Okay.
-嗨 -我刚和莉莉安谈过 -Hey. -Just spoke to Lillian.
爸今天早上从桑塔丽塔打来电话 他没事 Daddy called from Santa Rita this morning. He's fine.
她正试着给他送药 She's trying to get his meds to him.
我今天请假了 要我做什么尽管说 I took the day off. Let me know what you need me to do.
我晚些时候会去探视老爸 你想和我一起去吗 Well, I'm going to see Daddy later. You want to come with me?
不想 No.
赛迪 Cydie.
不想 我一点都不想看到老爸那个样子 No. There is no part of me that wants to see Daddy like that.
我等他回家后再看他 I will see him when he comes home.
阿拉米达县警长办公室
桑塔丽塔监狱 收容转移和释放
可以了 走吧 You're clear. Go.
下一位 Next.
去那个柜台 Proceed to the counter.
你在这里做什么 What are you doing here?
探监访客
我是来看谢里夫的 I came to see Shreve.
听着 无论你我之间正发生着什么 你知道我还是爱他的 Look, no matter what's happening between you and I, you know I still love him.
我根本不了解你 I don't know you at all.
不 你了解 Yes, you do.
下一位 Next.
马丁海伍德…是他杀死了乔希亚吗 Martin Haywood… Did he kill Joshua?
下一位 Next.
这边 Right this way.
我真不喜欢在这里见到你 I hate seeing you in here.
如果能救你 我愿意待在这里 I'd stay here if it means saving you.
别这么说 老爸 Don't say that, Daddy.
县监狱
米卡来看过我了 Micah came to see me.
我看见她了 I saw her.
让她讲出自己的故事 Let her tell her story.
-我不信任她 -不是为了她 是为了你 -I don't trust her. -Not for her. For you.
看看她有什么要说的 See what she has to say.
你不必原谅她 You don't have to forgive her.
你不必理解她信任她 但是你… You don't have to understand her or trust her, but you…
你必须把这件事了结 you do have to put this all to bed.
我不想打开一扇门 让她能够再次进入我的生活 I don't wanna open a door for her to come back through.
听我说 宝贝女儿 Listen to me, baby girl.
我犯过不少错 有大错有小错 你也是 I've made mistakes. Some big, some small. And so have you.
但你一辈子都没能摆脱这些错误 But you've dragged them behind you your whole life.
你做的一切都是因为那年我入狱了 Everything you've done has been because of the year I went to jail.
那年我抛弃了你 The year I abandoned you.
-爸爸 -不…听我说 -Daddy. -Uh-uh-uh. Just…
杀死那个人来救你 Killing that man, saving you.
如果这样能够减轻一些你的痛苦 我愿意杀他一百万次 I would kill him a million times if it would help ease some of your pain.
所以我要你问自己 So I need you to ask yourself,
在米卡的生活中 是什么让她变成现在这样的 what in Micah's life made her who she is?
如果你不去听她的故事 If you don't hear what she has to say,
这会成为你身上新的负担 it'll be the new thing that you carry with you.
不要用一个负担取代另一个 Don't replace one burden for another.
你明白吗 Do you feel me?
天啊 我好爱你 God, I love you.
嘿 不准接触 Hey, no touching.
嗨 雪伊 我是马库斯基勒布鲁 Hey, Shae. This is Markus Killebrew.
嗨 马库斯 你好吗 Hey, Markus. How you holding up?
听着 我非常需要你帮我个忙 Listen, I really need your help with something.
好 Okay.
乔希和德鲁遇害后第二天 有人打来一通电话 A call came in the day after Josh and Drew were killed.
早上8点07分 打的是避风港主要号码 8:07 in the morning. To Shelter's main line.
我想知道 你把那通电话转给谁了 明白吗 I need to know where you sent that call, you understand?
好 早上8点07分 Okay, 8:07 in the morning.
-我去查查看 -谢谢 -Let me see what I can do. -Thank you.
回头聊 Talk soon.
他不应该被谋杀 He didn't deserve this.
是米卡在认识他之前撒的一个谎 导致了他的死 A lie Micah told long before she even met him led to his death.
如果她不承认这一点 答案是不会令人满意的 There's no satisfaction in the answers if she doesn't admit to that.
或是她和谋杀案有关 Or her involvement.
一个谎言毁了六个人 A single deception destroyed six lives.
乔希德鲁露丝霍特拉蒙 Josh, Drew, Rose, Holt, Ramon…
甚至还有那个疯子马丁海伍德 Even that lunatic, Martin Haywood.
七个 Seven…
如果我们不把我爸救出监狱的话 if we don't get my father out of jail.
八个 如果你把她自己也算上的话 Eight, if you include her own.
避风港在苦苦支撑 Shelter's struggling.
如果她和我想得一样是一只街头的野猫 And if she's the alley cat I believe her to be…
活动日期 延期
这件事可以说是把她逼到墙角了 ...that leaves her with one of her nine lives.
我想让她承认自己的谎言 I want her to admit to her lies.
我想听到她说要对此负责 I wanna hear her own it.
灰烬重生 米卡基思 活动取消
波比帕内尔来电
你这是自食其果 米卡 This is what you reap, Micah.
波比 你想怎样 What do you want, Poppy?
你为什么要偷走露丝的人生 Why did you steal Rose's life?
你事业有成的代价是毁了她 You built your empire on her back.
你把她的故事据为己用 抹去了她的名字 You took her voice. Erased her name.
你真虚伪 You're such a hypocrite.
你想聊抹去名字的事吗那你呢 You... You wanna talk about erasing names? What about you?
你搬去了纽约 和自己的出身家庭断绝了关系 You moved to New York and shed any link to your roots, to your family.
你为什么在当记者时 放弃了斯高威尔这个姓 Why did you drop the name Scoville when you became a journalist?
我用帕内尔这个姓是为了纪念母亲 I took Parnell to feel close to my mother.
波比帕内尔 Poppy Parnell.
这个大名让所有人黯然失色啊 Everyone takes a back seat to that name.
胡说 That's a lie.
英格拉姆说得对 Ingram was right.
他早知道你永远无法完全忠于他 你只忠于你自己 He knew you could never fully commit to him. Only to yourself.
所以你现在孤身一人 That's why you're alone.
和我一样 Just like me.
哇 Wow.
露丝告诉我说如果你被逼到角落 就会像困兽一样反击 Rose told me you'd fight like a trapped animal if you got cornered.
还有谁能替我反击 Who else is gonna do it for me?
并非一切都是谎言 Well, not everything was a lie.
我没有家人 I had no family.
我的亲生家庭抛弃了我 My blood family abandoned me.
但谢里夫 他… But Shreve, he was…
待我就像一位父亲 a father to me.
而你就像我的姐妹 And you, my sister.
我在你们身边很有安全感 I felt safe with you guys.
你知道那对我意味着什么吗 Do you have any idea what that meant to me?
你们接受了真实的我 Just accepted me for me.
我以为我们将彼此视为家人 I thought we found family in each other.
但是你知道 我一生都希望得到家人 But, you know, I've been chasing that my whole life.
我到处找寻 想要… I'm just searching everywhere to…
找到家人 find that.
不要再试图操纵我了 Stop trying to manipulate me.
你又戴上那副面具了 There's that mask again.
-我没有戴面具 -你有 -I don't have a mask. -Yeah, you do.
我第一次是在纽约看到这面具的 I saw it the first time in New York
我花光了最后一分钱 就为了找到你 when I spent every last dollar of mine trying to find you.
你当时把你的手稿交给了我 When you gave me your manuscript.
露丝的手稿 Rose's manuscript.
我看到你和新的朋友们在一起 I saw you with your new friends.
你认为他们比我优秀 比你优秀 You thought they were better than me. Better than you.
你穿着廉价的鞋 操着低人一等的口音 还有你的历史 With your cheap shoes and your cheap accent. Your history.
你浑身都流露着自卑感 You had inferiority written all over you,
而你还因为我而感到难堪 and you were embarrassed of me.
你让我措手不及 You caught me off guard.
只有在朋友们都离开了你时 你才想起自己爱过我 You only remembered that you loved me when your friends left.
我在那天看到了真实的你 一个一心想往上爬的人 I saw the real you that day. The climber.
见风使舵见人说人话见鬼说鬼话 Changing colors, depending on who you were with.
真是八面玲珑啊 A different face for everybody.
但我还是爱你 But I still loved you.
你根本不知道 You have no idea
我身处那个世界是什么样的情形 what it was like for me in that world.
根本不知道 No idea.
你说得对 And you're right.
我们很像 We are alike.
我们都是幸存者 We're survivors.
但和你不同的是 我存活下来 没有伤害身边的人 But unlike you, I survived without tearing down everyone around me.
你却利用别人 米卡 You use people, Micah.
就像你利用了马丁海伍德 Just like you used Martin Haywood.
你说什么 Excuse me?
他在谋杀后的第二天早上 给避风港的主要号码打过电话 He called the Shelter main line the morning after the murders.
你在说什么我当时在家 What are you talking about? I was home.
你为了保护自己 利用马丁海伍德杀害乔希 You used Martin Haywood to kill Josh to protect yourself.
你还认为我和谋杀案有关 You still think I had something to do with this?
我的天啊 Oh, my God.
你认为我能伤害他 That you think I could hurt him.
你还在怀疑我 You still suspect me.
我不想怀疑 但是没错 I don't want to. But I do.
你参加了我的婚礼 You were at my wedding.
你也参加了我的 You were at mine.
我会把你想要的答案全都告诉你 I'll give you all the answers you want.
你可以录音 And you can record it.
我们可以把事情全部说清楚 We can set it all straight.
嗨 我刚刚得到了雪伊的答复 Hey. I just heard back from Shae.
她发来了避风港的通话记录 She sent over the phone records from Shelter.
你查一下短信吧 Why don't you take a look at your text?
有人全盘招供的话 我们的工作就容易多了 A full confession would make all our lives easier.
但是 好 我可以就此展开调查 But yeah, I can work with this.
嘿 马库斯 我再给你回电 Hey, Markus, let me... let me call you back.
好 一言为定 All right, bet.
你们看什么看 What the fuck are you looking at?
那么米卡 在我们认识之前 你是谁 So, Micah. Who were you before we met?
一切都是如何开始的 Where did it all start?
我的母亲叫芳恩 My mother, Fawn. That was her name.
她在哪 Where is she?
五年前去世了 Dead. Five years ago.
她一直都在世 She was alive all this time?
这么说也行 If you can call it that.
我当时已经超过15年 没有见过她了 也没有她的消息 I hadn't seen her or heard from her for over 15 years.
他们在俄罗斯河附近发现了她的尸体 They found her body out near Russian River.
自然原因死亡 因为她长年滥用药物 Natural causes, after years of abusing herself with drugs.
她在红木林里的一棵树下睡着了 Just went to sleep in the redwoods, under a tree.
他们发现 They found…
她的胸罩里塞着一张《弃子》作者的照片 the author photo from Discard tucked into her bra.
她在照片上写了“我的女儿” And she had written "my daughter" on it.
警方通过我的出版商找到了我 Police tracked me down through my publisher.
我很遗憾 I'm sorry.
那你父亲呢 And your father?
任何人都有可能是我父亲 Could have been anyone.
芳恩以前很喜欢希腊神话 Fawn used to love the Greek myths.
她会读给我听 那是我心中关于她 为数不多的美好回忆 She read them to me. One of my only fond memories of being with her.
我问起我父亲时 她会说 And when I would ask about my father, she would say,
“女神不需要男人来生女儿” "Goddesses didn't need men to have daughters."
-你从她身边逃跑了 -我迫不得已 -Did you run away from her? -I had to.
虽然我当时还是个孩子 我也知道我必须离开 I knew I had to get away, even as a little kid.
我暂时离开过几次 想看看 她是否会注意到我出走的时间越来越长 I mean, I tried it in spurts to see if she noticed my absences getting longer,
但她没有注意到 but she... she didn't.
我当时独自待在西奥克兰邮局附近 一栋废弃的建筑里 I was alone in an abandoned building near the post office in West Oakland.
我藏在一个狭小的空间里睡觉 And I hid in a crawl space to sleep.
她最后一次回来是为了我 The last time she came back, she came back for me.
她带了一个男人 She had this guy with her.
我在弄清那对我意味着什么之前就跑掉了 And I ran before I could find out what that meant for me.
那并不难猜 It was not hard to guess.
你跑去了哪里 Where'd you go?
布什罗德公园 我在那里睡觉 I was at Bushrod Park. I'd been sleeping there.
我看见了你和妹妹们和谢里夫在一起 And I saw you and your sisters with Shreve.
有一条狗挣脱了牵引绳 直接朝你跑了过去 And this dog got off a leash, and he made a beeline right for you,
我当时在攀登架上 and I was on the jungle gym.
谢里夫看见那条狗 把你们三个扔上了那个铁丝护栏 Shreve saw the dog, and he tossed the three of you on that chain-link fence
让你们一直爬到最高处 and told you to keep climbing to the top.
大喊着：“一直爬到最上面 它够不着的地方” Yelling, like, "Keep climbing and get to the top, out of reach."
我记得那件事 I remember that.
我一直都没有忘记 I've never forgotten it.
我刚刚从不知道如何保护我的人身边逃开 I had just run from someone who didn't know how to protect me,
我看到他的本能不是自保 而是保护你们三个女孩 and I saw that his instinct wasn't for himself, but for you three girls.
我想得到那样的保护 I wanted that.
想感觉自己是受保护的 想得到安全 Wanted to feel protected. Safe.
在一段时间里 我确实感受到了 For a while, I did.
从乔希亚那里 With Joshua.
所以接下来会怎样 So how's this gonna go?
幸运的是 我刚刚洗过手 You know, it's lucky I... I just washed my hands.
嗨 特里妮 Hey, T.
喷射机篮球队
嗨 Hey.
等等 你怎么来了 Wait. What are you doing here?
我想给你个惊喜 Thought I'd surprise you.
来 我帮你拿 我的表亲们刚从亚特兰大过来 Here. Let me take that. My cousins, they just got in from Atlanta.
我好久没见他们了 要带他们去城里转转 Haven't seen them in a while. Gonna show them around town.
-你想一起来吗 -好…我想来 -Want to come? -Yeah, yeah. I'd love to.
我父母还要几小时才回家呢 所以… My... My parents won't be home for a couple of hours. So…
酷 Cool.
-就是他们 -对 就是他们 -That them? -Yeah, that's them.
嗨 Hi.
-那我现在能认识你的家人了 -是的 -So, now I get to meet your family. -Yeah, you do.
-嗨 -嗨 你有空吗 -Hey. -Hey, you got a sec?
-有 米卡刚走 -你在哪 -Yeah. Micah just left. -Where are you?
奥芬剧院 The Orpheum.
我刚刚采访完她 I just interviewed her.
-我拿到避风港的通话记录了 -然后呢 -Well, I got the phone logs from Shelter. -And?
记录显示 Well, turns out
马丁海伍德在谋杀案后的早上 拨打的是艾维阿伯特的电话 Martin Haywood called Ivy Abbott's phone the morning after the murders.
-你说真的 -是 -Are you serious? -Yeah.
听听这个 我把马丁的通话记录 Check this out. I compared Martin's phone records
和艾维的对比了一下 结果显示海伍德和艾维 with Ivy's, and it shows Haywood and Ivy together
在乔希亚和德鲁遇害那天早上 都在瓦列霍的一个仓库里 at a warehouse in Vallejo the morning that Joshua and Drew were killed.
如果这是真的 那就说明米卡无罪 If this is true, then it could clear Micah.
等等 Just hang on.
我们还需要证明他们共同策划了谋杀案 We still need the proof that they actually planned the murders together.
如果艾维偷走了 If Ivy stole the code
乔希保险箱的密码 她就有可能把乔希的枪给他 to Josh's lockbox, she could have given him Josh's gun.
是 Yeah.
听着 把仓库的地址用短信发给我 Look. Text me the address to the warehouse.
我会让诺雅 I'll ask Noa
去看看是否能找到监控录像 to see if she can find some security footage.
好 让她到剧院来和我们会合 Okay, cool. Have her meet us at the theater.
-我正在赶来的路上 一会儿见 -好 -I'm on my way to you. See you soon. -Okay.
-嗨 -嗨 -Hey. -Hey.
你们一定不信 马丁海伍德被抓了个正着 You're not gonna believe this. Dead to rights. Martin Haywood.
他在瓦列霍那个仓库的监控上被拍到了 看看是谁和他在一起 On camera at the warehouse in Vallejo. And look who's with him.
该死 这两个混蛋 Damn, those motherfuckers.
是她杀害了我的朋友 She murdered my friend.
她被捕时我一定要在场 I need to be there when she's arrested.
乔希是我的朋友 Josh was my friend…
《重生》 米卡基思著
我很爱他 …and I loved him.
“重新开始”巡回签售
你在说什么 What are you talking about?
艾维阿伯特 你被逮捕了 Ivy Abbott, you're under arrest
你涉嫌谋杀乔希亚基思和德鲁特尼 for the murders of Joshua Keith and Drew Turney.
-双手放在背后 女士 -你有权保持沉默 -Hands behind your back, ma'am. -You have the right to remain silent.
但你所说的每一句话 都可以在法庭上作为指控你的不利证据 Anything you say can and will be used against you in a court of law.
怎么回事 What's going on?
艾维 发生什么事了 Ivy, what's happening?
什么情况 What?
怎么了 What?
米卡 Micah.
怎么回事 What's happening?
旧金山市
我们找到了 艾维和马丁海伍德见面的监控录像 So, we found footage of Ivy meeting with Martin Haywood
时间是你丈夫遇害那天早上 the morning of your husband's murder.
她不肯开口 Now, she's not saying a word.
她想先和你说 She wants to speak to you first.
她说的话我一句都不想听 I don't want to hear anything she has to say.
米卡 最简单的定罪方法是让嫌疑人认罪 Micah, the cleanest way to a conviction is a confession.
你能做到的 米卡 You can do this, Micah.
为了乔希 For Josh.
我只想知道原因 I just want to know why.
你让我别无选择 You left me no choice.
要知道 露丝告诉了乔希一切 You see, Rose told Josh everything.
而乔希不想生活在谎言中 And Josh wasn't comfortable living a lie.
把关于你的真相曝光 会毁了你和避风港 Exposing the truth about you would have destroyed you, destroyed Shelter.
我不会让这种事发生的 I wasn't gonna let that happen.
海伍德自己也对乔希亚有意见 Haywood had his own bone to pick with Joshua
是因为那部纪录片的余波 over the fallout from their documentary.
所以说服他并不难 So it wasn't hard to convince him.
好 Okay.
我用了很多年来打造避风港的品牌 I had spent years architecting Shelter's brand.
我投入了自己的资金和我拥有的一切 来让它获得成功 Pouring my own money and everything that I had into making it a success.
东15街415号
乔希准时抵达 Josh arrived right on time.
独自一人 Alone.
这是我改变未来的机会 This was my chance to change the future.
将我自己的故事写进避风港历史的机会 To write myself into the story of Shelter.
我想以正确的方式做到这一点 And I wanted it done the right way.
计划很完美 The plan was perfect.
保险箱密码乔希的枪 The combination to the lockbox, Josh's gun.
我们都搞定了 We had it all worked out.
但有一件事出乎了我们的意料 But there was one thing we didn't anticipate.
嘿 Hey.
不好 Shit.
见鬼 Oh, fuck.
你做这些是为了保护我 You did all that to protect me?
为了保护避风港 To protect Shelter?
你真是不可思议 You're unbelievable.
你还是不能认可我 You still can't see me.
我考虑过取消行动 因为你决定参加晚宴了 I considered calling it off when you decided to go to dinner
和波比一起 with Poppy.
因为我想让你在那里 Because I wanted you to be there.
我们打算杀死乔希 We were going to kill Josh,
然后我们打算杀死你 and then we were going to kill you.
本来应该只有你和我两个人一起的 It was just supposed to be just you and me together.
天啊 只有我们俩时 我们简直无所不能 God, when it was just the two of us, there was really nothing we couldn't do.
因为我相信… Because I believed…
我相信你说的一切 I believed everything that you said.
我信任你 I trusted you.
我把一切都给了你 I gave everything to you.
给了你我的钱我的时间 Gave you my money. Gave you my time.
我给了你我的人生 I gave you my life.
我为你流过血 I bled for you.
我爱过你 I loved you.
我对你的爱超过了我一生中对任何人的爱 I loved you more than I've loved anyone in my whole life.
天啊 乔希永远无法理解 永远 God, Josh could never understand that. He could never.
杀死你本来可以拯救你 Killing you would have saved you.
会把你变成一个烈士 Would have turned you into a martyr.
我告诉你 你不配拥有避风港 You know what? You don't deserve Shelter.
你不配拥有我们给你的爱 And you don't deserve all the love that we gave to you.
你不配拥有我们对你的奉献和尊重 You don't deserve the devotion and the respect that we gave to you.
因为你是个骗子 是你的谎言害我们走到了这一步 'Cause you're a con artist. Your lies are what led us here.
我希望你最后落得一无所有 And I hope you are left with nothing!
我希望你最后身边一个人都没有 And I hope you're left with no one!
一个人都没有 No one!
一个都没有 Nobody!
我是自己生命中的基石 I am the cornerstone of my life.
我可以东山再起 我可以重新开始 I can rebuild, I can start fresh.
一点点添砖加瓦 Brick by brick. Brick by brick.
从悲伤的混乱中重生 From the chaos of my grief.
一点点添砖加瓦 Brick by brick. Brick by brick.
米卡 Micah?
米卡 Micah.
你警告过我了 You tried to warn me.
我们会发现更多真相 而不仅只有我们想知道的那些 That we'd find out more than we'd want to know.
现在既然有录音 我想全世界都会知道了 And now, with the recording, I guess, so will the whole world.
听着 Look…
任何一个孩子都不应该 承受你所经历过的事 no child should ever have to endure what you did.
我对你经历过的事感到遗憾 I'm sorry for what happened to you.
但露丝也是一名弃子 和你一样 But Rose was a discard, just like you.
如果我放弃报道此事 If I let this go,
就意味着你的痛苦比她的更重要 it means your pain was more important than hers.
这是不行的 That can't be.
我知道 I know.
“当你在晨曦中找到那条路 "When you find that patch of pavement in the morning sun
一个人不得不绕过你行走 那身影一闪而过” and a shadow passes as someone has to step around you…"
“至少你知道自己仍存在” "…at least you know you still exist."
这是《弃子》开篇的句子 Those are the first lines of Discard.
露丝的句子 Rose's lines.
我爱你 I love you.
我会永远爱你 And I always will.
除了永远爱你 我不知道还能如何去爱 I didn't know how to do it any other way.
我也爱你 I love you too.
当我们想到代代相传的东西时 When we think about things that get passed down from generations,
我们常常会想到身体特征 we often think of physical traits.
你的眼睛也许很像母亲 笑起来很像父亲 You may have your mother's eyes or your father's smile.
我们也许会想到家族的传家宝 Maybe we think of family heirlooms.
经过长时间收藏传承的珍贵物品 Treasured items, collected and passed down over time.
但我们也能… But we can also
继承他们的痛苦 inherit their pain.
他们的错误 Their mistakes.
他们的创伤 Their trauma.
过去的痛苦往往在我们意识到之前 就已经决定了我们的未来 And the pain of the past often writes our future before we've even realized how.
就像某种无声的不可阻挡的惩罚 Like some silent inexorable punishment.
我讲述过定义了我一生的那一年 I've talked about the year that has defined my whole life.
我失去的那一年 My lost year.
我一路走到今天 年龄已经是当时的四倍 I've been alive three times past that, and here it is.
然而我的选择 Still, my choices,
我的选择造成的后果 the consequences for my choices.
谋杀造成的后果有着深远的影响 The consequences of the murders have had far-reaching ripples.
避风港已经关闭了 Shelter has been shuttered.
真相的光芒已经照进了它黑暗的角落 And the light of the truth has been let into its dark corners.
米卡基思从此将何去何从 Where Micah Keith will go from here,
只有交给时间来回答了 only time will tell.
但我斗胆猜测 真相会给她自由 But I'd venture to guess that the truth will set her free.
我们是有实体的人 We are people of substance.
有血有肉有骨骼 Of flesh and bone.
有纤维和体液 Fiber and liquids.
我们只有在 人们拒绝看到我们时才会被忽视 We are only invisible when people refuse to see us.
我要补充一点 And I'll add,
还有在我们拒绝看到自己时 when we refuse to see ourselves.
不幸的是 世界上到处都是被忽视的人 Unfortunately, the world is filled with invisible souls.
《重新考虑》 波比帕内尔
露丝吉尔一辈子遭人忽视 Rose Gil was invisible her entire life.
我们现在知道 是她的文字 We now know that it was her words,
和她的经历激励了成千上万人 her experiences that inspired thousands.
那些文字被米卡占为己有 Words that Micah claimed as her own.
露丝吉尔私人财产
你为什么要拿走露丝的日记 Why did you take Rose's journals?
当露丝和霍特被抓…被逮捕时 When Rose and Holt got caught,
我拿走了她的背包 替她保管 放在自己身边 I took the backpack to keep it for her. To keep it with me.
我打开一看 发现了她的文章图画和她的人生 And when I looked inside, I found all her writings, her drawings, her life.
我就知道…它很特别 我能感觉到 I knew... I knew it was special. I could feel it.
我还知道它就是我的出路 And I knew it was my way out.
但你是在撒谎 But it was a lie.
我根本没想到这本书 能影响这么多人 令他们产生共鸣 I never expected the book to shake the world.
它的发展超乎了我的想象 It grew beyond anything I ever imagined.
亲如姐妹
但唯一能弥补我对露丝的所作所为 But the only way I could make up for what I've done to Rose,
为我盗用了她的人生赎罪的方式就是行善 to reconcile the theft, was to do good.
我也这样做了 我帮助的人要比我伤害的人多 And I did. I helped more people than I hurt.
米卡 这还不够 That's not enough, Micah.
肯定的 It has to be.
但现在全世界都知道露丝吉尔这个名字了 But now the world knows Rose Gil's name.
她亲口告诉我了这对她意味着什么 She told me, in her own words, what it meant.
米卡把我所有的日记原稿都还给我了 Micah returned all my original journals.
重读日记就像是和老朋友重逢一样 It was like reuniting with an old friend.
看到我过去的样子我走了多远 Seeing how I used to be, how far I've come.
我又能呼吸了 I can breathe again.
真相为世人所知 The truth is known.
我也一样 And so am I.
我可能再也不会见她了 I'll probably never see her again,
但我们总是联系在一起的 but we're always linked
联系我们的是这个故事 by the story
和小时候经历的一切 and what we survived as kids.
另一方面 米卡基思 Micah Keith, on the other hand,
从未被人看到过她真实的一面 was never seen for who she truly was.
她的死忠粉没看到过 Not by her devoted fans…
就连她最亲密的朋友也没有 or even her closest friend.
但我们讲述的关于自己的故事会带来后果 But the stories we tell about ourselves carry consequences.
对于我们这些有幸拥有一个平台的人来说 For those of us privileged enough to have a platform,
为什么要把我们的声音 浪费在一件虚构的事上 why waste our voices on a myth?
奥克兰顶石帮
我用了很长时间 I spent my life
来打造波比帕内尔的形象 crafting the image of Poppy Parnell.
我选了一个将我和母亲联系在一起的名字 I chose a name that linked me to my mother
这让我和养育我的家人变得不同 and differentiated me from the family that raised me.
即斯高威尔一家 The Scovilles.
但我自己的虚构故事 But my own myth
已经不再为我服务了 no longer serves me.
我跑得越远 The further I ran,
就离自己的真相越远 the further I got from my own truth.
我放任痛苦来定义我 I let pain define me.
但是现在我要回家了 But now I'm going home.
报生纸 凯撒奥克兰医疗中心
孩子 波比帕内尔
父亲姓名 亚历山大迈克尔特洛伊
母亲婚前姓名 埃莉诺苏塞特帕内尔
父亲职业 音乐家
我追随自己的内心回到奥克兰 I'm following my heart back to Oakland.
回到永远支持我的家人身旁 To a family who will always ride with me.
而我也有支持他们的自由 And I am free to ride with them.
埃里森曾写道 As Ellison wrote,
“当我发现自己是谁 "When I discover who I am,
我就会获得自由” I'll be free."
这句话 Those words
教会了我如何再次回家 teach me how to go home again.
如何看见自己 How to see myself.
如何让那些 And how to be visible
真正重要的人看见我 to those who truly matter.
感谢各位的收听 So, thank you for listening.
我是波比斯高威尔 I am Poppy Scoville,
希望大家能够重新考虑 and I'd like you to reconsider.
直言真相 第二季 完
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