「良医」前情回顾 Previously on "The Good Doctor"...
-需要帮忙吗 -我叫迈尔斯·布朗 - Can I help you? - My name's Miles Browne.
我是你父亲 I'm your father.
回家吧 Go home.
我觉得你中风了 I think you're having a stroke.
我是癌症晚期 I have terminal cancer.
我等过你 而你离开了 I waited for you, and you left.
我每天都在思念你 I thought about you every day.
幸好我们不再是室友了 It's good we're not roommates anymore.
不然我就不能这么做 'Cause I couldn't do this.
发生关系不代表我俩有什么 Having sex doesn't make us a thing.
你得跟其他女性约会 You need to see other women.
-为什么 我没这个想法 -没有借口 - Why? I don't really want to... - No excuses.
你想去我家待会吗 You wanna come back to my place for a little more?
但我需要的不仅是跟你上床 Just sleeping with you isn't good for me.
我想给希瑟一个机会 I want to give Heather a chance.
谢谢你给我做饭 Thanks for cooking.
还有这个新煎锅 And the new skillet.
鸡肉很好吃 The chicken was delicious.
我说了吧 What'd I tell you?
铸铁锅就是厉害 Cast iron kicks ass.
下次你用它煎牛排就会知道 Wait till you sear a steak in it.
差别大到你难以置信 You won't believe the difference.
我肯定会试试的 I'll definitely try it.
那一起看电影吗 So, you up for a movie?
其实我觉得我们可以就聊聊天 Actually, I thought maybe we could just talk.
我们已经聊了一整晚了 Oh. We've spent all night talking.
对 聊了工作 新闻 天气 Yeah, about our jobs, the news, the weather,
但是 but...
我们 We, uh...
我们从没好好聊过过去 We never really talked about the past.
我们聊过 Oh, we did.
在你住院时聊过 When you were in the hospital.
很少 Barely.
你原谅我了吗 Have you forgiven me?
我... I...
我宁愿看部电影 I'd rather just watch a movie.
-克莱尔 我不...-如果你想一起 很好 - Claire, I don't... - If you want to join, great.
如果你不想看 今晚就到此为止吧 If not, let's just call it a night.
好 那就看电影 Okay. Movie it is.
好 Okay.
你的演讲怎么样 How'd your presentation go?
很长 It was long.
你昨天没洗衣服吗 Didn't you do laundry yesterday?
我没在洗衣服 我在打包 I'm not doing laundry. I'm packing.
为我们的露营之旅 For our camping trip.
我们这三周除了工作什么都没干 We've done nothing but work for three weeks,
而且我们都 and neither of us feels...
-没有变好 -在森林里度周末 - Better. - A weekend in the woods
也不会改变任何事 isn't going to change anything,
而且你在沙发上都睡不着 not to mention you can't even sleep on a couch,
更别说在户外的地上了 much less outside on the ground.
我同意 I agree.
这会是个挑战 但这就是重点 It's going to be a challenge, but that's the point.
我们离舒适区越远 The further outside our comfort zones we go,
就越能分散注意力 the more distracted we'll be.
是我 是我 好吗 It's me! It's me, okay?
-别开枪 -你没事吧 - Don't shoot. - Are you okay?
我没事 你能把枪放下吗 拜托 I'm fine. Can you put the gun down, please?
我一打开门 警报就响了 I opened the door, and the alarm went off.
它坏了 It's broken.
谢天谢地 Oh, thank God.
-天啊 -我以为有人... - Man. - I thought somebody, uh...
枪没子弹 It's not loaded.
对 幸好 Yeah. Good.
不 不 不好 No. No, not good.
我一直给它上好子弹的 I store this loaded always.
我把子弹拿掉了 I unloaded it.
就是因为这个原因 你差点杀了我 For this exact reason. You could've killed me.
但如果你是入侵者 你就可能杀了我 And if you had been an intruder, you could've killed me.
我不是入侵者 是我 I'm not an intruder. I'm me.
你好 Hello?
你拿枪指着我的头 You had the gun pointed right at my head.
不 我在瞄准要害 No. I was aiming center mass.
我的手指都没在扳机上 My finger wasn't even on the trigger.
非常感谢你的道歉 Thank you very much for the apology.
真的非常感谢 Really appreciate it.
道歉 Apology?
你到底为什么会觉得 What in the world would make you think
拿掉我枪里的子弹没问题 that it was okay to unload my gun?
你差点打中我的要害 好吗 You almost shot me center mass, okay?
但无论如何 别道歉 But by all means, don't apologize!
我没有差点打中你 I did not almost shoot you,
而且如果你不停止这种道歉... and if you don't stop with the apology cr...
我要去睡觉了 I'm going to bed.
一个人睡 Alone.
良 医
第四季 第十八集
颜色比她上次检查时更红了 The discoloration is a deeper red than her last exam.
而且这里摸上去会发热 And it's warm to the touch.
抱歉 这里疼了多久了 Sorry. How long has it been tender?
一周左右 About a week.
这不是瘀伤或肌肉拉伤 Well, it's not a bruise or muscle strain.
是动静脉畸形在生长 The AV malformation's growing.
所以我从她五岁起就建议做手术 Which is why I've been recommending surgery since she was five.
而且我每次都同意了 And I've agreed every time.
这是她第一次感到疼痛 It's the first time there's been any pain.
而且药物和营养补充剂都有效 And the meds and the nutritional supplements have been working.
不 它们没用 No, they haven't,
而且青春期会加速它的生长 and puberty will accelerate the growth even more,
这让她很有可能出现自发性出血 which puts her at a high risk for a spontaneous hemorrhage.
高领毛衣再也不能解决问题了 Turtleneck sweaters are definitely not the solution any longer.
她需要手术 She needs the surgery.
什么时候 When?
我们现在就可以收她入院并开始准备 We can admit her and start the prep right now.
太好了 Awesome.
我讨厌高领毛衣 I hate turtlenecks.
你的心电图正常 胆固醇偏低 Your EKG's normal, cholesterol's low,
而且我没看到任何相关的痣 and I didn't see any concerning moles.
我天天都涂高倍防晒霜 I wear SPF 50 every day.
还有一件事 There was one thing.
我注意到你之前一直在服用抗抑郁药 I noticed that you previously had been on antidepressants.
我九个月前就停药了 I stopped taking those nine months ago.
它们根本没用 而且我找到了一种替代疗法 They didn't help, and I found an alternative therapy
效果很好 that's working great.
好极了 Wonderful.
认知行为治疗吗 Cognitive behavioral therapy?
不是 我在注射裸盖菇素精华 Nope. Uh, I'm injecting a psilocybin serum
是从我在地下室种的 that I make from hallucinogenic mushrooms
致幻蘑菇里提取的 I grow in my basement.
好吧 这真疯狂 Okay, that's, uh, crazy.
你得马上停止 You need to stop that immediately.
网上有很多研究表明裸盖菇素 There's tons of studies online that show that psilocybin
会促使身体大量分泌治疗抑郁症的多巴胺 causes dopamine surges that treat depression.
但有更多研究表明 And even more studies that show that people
自己随意用三无药品治病的人 who self-medicate with street drugs
最终会变得更加抑郁 成瘾 甚至死亡 end up more depressed, addicted, and sometimes even dead.
我花了一年时间研究菌菇栽培 I spent a year researching mushroom cultivation
并学习如何提取裸盖菇素 and learning how to extract the psilocybin.
而且最重要的是 And most importantly,
这是第一种有效的疗法 this is the first treatment that's ever worked.
我从没感觉这么好过 I've never felt better.
至少让我再做些检查 At least let me do some additional tests
确保这种疗法没有任何副作用 to make sure there aren't any adverse side effects.
好 Sure.
我总是愿意接受新信息 I'm always open to new information.
早上好 需要帮忙吗 Good morning. How can I help you?
我们是来优胜美地溪露营的 We're here to camp at Yosemite Creek.
好 你们有预约吗 Great. You have a reservation?
预约 Reservation?
营地必须预约 Campsites are reservation only.
不对 That's not true.
有27个先到先得的营地 There are 27 first come, first serve campsites.
早上六点有27个营地 There were 27 campsites at 6:00 A.M.
但到6点45分 它们就被占满了 By 6:45, they were all taken.
请你们掉头回去吧 I'm gonna need you to turn the car around.
不行 我们一定要野营 No, we need to go camping.
先生 我理解您不高兴 但是 Sir, I understand you're upset, but...
不 你 你什么都不知道 No. You... You don't understand at all why...
肖恩 没关系 Shaun, it's okay.
我们可以去别的营地 We'll find another place to camp.
谢谢你 Uh, thank you.
拉紧了 Tighten up.
从外往里来 Now work from the outside in.
切除所有脉管增生 Eliminate any arterial feeders.
本来可以简单很多 This would be a lot easier
如果他们七年前就同意让我手术 if they'd let me do this seven years ago.
这不能怪他们 It's not their fault.
他们害怕让十二岁的孩子动手术 They're scared of surgery for their 12-year-old child.
他们傲慢又固执 They're arrogant. And stubborn.
你怎么那么安静 You're quiet.
不好意思 Sorry.
我在想我自己的父母 I was actually thinking about my own parents.
迈尔斯觉得我们应该解决过去的问题 Miles thinks that we should "deal with the past"
这样我们之间才会没有隔阂 so that there's not a barrier between us.
现在一切都挺好的 Things have been going pretty good.
何必破坏现状呢 And why mess with success?
我同意 I agree.
涉及到父母的事 有时候 When it comes to parents, some things,
事实上 大多数时候 都最好闭口不谈 in fact, many things, should just be left unsaid.
你跟父母都已经断了往来了 Says the guy who doesn't have a relationship with his.
对 因为我提起了那些该闭口不谈的话题 Yeah. Because I said things that should have been unsaid.
我同意迈尔斯 Well, I agree with Miles.
那样的谈话不会轻松 It's not gonna be an easy conversation,
但是 but...
伤口置之不理只会变得更严重 Wounds that aren't treated get worse.
她的气管插管里有血 There's blood in her ET tube.
肯定是呼吸道出血了 Must be a bleeder in the airway.
拉紧伤口 Retract the wound.
研究表明用裸盖菇素 The research on psilocybin
治疗抗药型抑郁很有前景 for drug-resistant depression is promising.
肺部顶点看起来很健康 Apex of the lungs look clear.
「有前景」和「证明有效」差远了 There's a big difference between "promising" and "proven."
更别提一个是专家开发的药物 Not to mention a drug made by professionals
一个是随便什么人在地下室种出来的蘑菇 versus some guy growing mushrooms in his basement.
你是我认识的人里最不相信 You're the most skeptical guy I know
另类疗法的 但你却认同这个 about alternative medicine, but this you agree with?
我不惊讶 I'm not surprised.
不惊讶朴是个彻头彻尾的伪君子吗 That Park's a total hypocrite?
不惊讶你们意见相左 That you two disagree.
你们就没有意见相同的时候 You never agree on anything.
我觉得你们就是 I think you just...
喜欢吵来吵去 Enjoy arguing with each other.
你得放大点看 You need to get closer.
能放大左肺下叶那里吗 Can you focus on the left inferior lobe?
-那是什么 -病变 - What is that? - A lesion.
真菌病变 A fungal lesion.
这不叫野营 这叫车尾营 This isn't camping. It's tailgating.
这里有树 There's trees,
有可以扎帐篷 a place we can pitch a tent
和生火的空地 and build a fire.
一股汽油的味道 It smells like gasoline.
我觉得是他们的发电机漏了 I think their generator might have a leak.
多适合在旁边生火啊 Just what you want right next to a campfire.
这里看得到湖 We have a view of the lake.
挺漂亮的 不是吗 It's pretty, isn't it?
是啊 Yeah.
由于出血我们不得不停止激光手术 We had to abort the laser surgery due to a bleed,
不过她现在已经清醒稳定了 在术后恢复 but she's conscious and stable now in post-op recovery.
畸形脉管已经长进肺上叶太深 The AVM infiltrated too deep into the upper lobe of the lung
没法用激光烧蚀了 to ablate with the laser.
我们只能摘除她的锁骨 We'll have to go back in and remove her collarbone
再进行更深入的手术 for better access.
还要再做一次手术 Another surgery?
摘除她的骨头 To remove her bone?
我们清除掉畸形血管后会放回去的 We'll put it back after we excise the AVM.
锁骨恢复期间她需要一直佩戴固定带 She'll have to wear a brace until the bone heals.
动脉畸形的形态多变 Vascular malformations are chameleons.
很难分辨哪里开始是畸形血管 It's hard to tell where abnormal blood vessels end
哪里又是正常血管 and normal ones begin.
你们今天早上做评估的时候 You were all a lot more confident
态度要比现在肯定得多 in your assessment this morning.
我们想带女儿回家 We want to take our daughter home.
-没错 -现在就走 - Yeah. - Now.
很抱歉 这不可能 I'm sorry. That's not possible.
激光手术使畸形脉管变得很脆弱 The laser surgery caused weakening in the AVM,
随时都可能再次出血 which means it could rebleed at any time.
好吧 Okay.
你很幸运 要是再晚一周来体检 You're lucky. If you scheduled your physical a week later,
你的肝和肺就要衰竭了 your liver and lungs would be failing.
那手术之后呢 And after the surgery?
我的抑郁怎么办 What about my depression?
这种疗法在要你的命 你还打算继续做吗 You're asking if you can continue a treatment that's killing you?
开始打裸盖菇素针之前 Before I started the psilocybin injections...
我过得很痛苦 I was miserable.
我吃不下睡不着 I-I couldn't sleep, I barely ate.
我没法再回去过那种黑暗的日子 I can't bear to face that darkness again.
我不知道裸盖菇素是真的有用 I don't know if it's the psilocybin
还是起了安慰剂作用 或是因为别的什么 or placebo effect, or something else neither of us understands,
但如果你曾找到过光明 but if you found the light once...
你一定能再次找到它 You can find it again.
来 Okay.
这火生得真好 It's a nice fire.
我把柴火堆成了圆锥帐篷型 I used the Teepee method.
我打算采用开胸和中线开腹手术 I'm thinking open thoracotomy and midline laparotomy.
我们可以做一个很小的开刀手术 We might be able to use minimally invasive scope surgery
来切除大块的病变 其余部分 to get the big lesions and attack the rest
在术后用抗真菌药物治疗 post-operatively with anti-fungals.
没效果的吧 More like minimally effective.
还是积极些 把病变部分一次性都取出来 Better to be aggressive, take them all out at once.
那样手术会很大 恢复会很痛苦 That's a huge operation with a long, painful recovery.
他的病变范围就是很大 He has a huge problem.
病变看起来已经延伸到肝脏后面了 This lesion looks like it extends behind the liver.
你是高级外科住院医师 You're the senior surgical resident.
你要开始做这些决定了 You need to start making these calls.
我不这么认为 I'm not so sure about that.
抱歉 但是我质疑朴医生 I'm sorry, but I question Dr. Park's objectivity
面对雷兹尼克医生时的客观性 when it comes to Dr. Reznick's ideas.
面对的是谁不重要 I don't care where an idea comes from,
我也不喜欢你这样指控我 and I don't appreciate you accusing me...
那不算是指控 It wasn't an accusation.
那你管它叫什么 Then what would you call it?
真挚而有礼貌的提问 A respectful and sincere question.
答案是什么呢 What's the answer?
我的客观意见是 My objective opinion is...
采用小开刀手术最合适 A minimally invasive approach is best.
好 Okay.
在我们开刀之前 I want it all mapped out with a 3D reconstruction simulation
做一个详细的三维仿真模拟 before we go in there.
我们早上动刀 We'll operate in the morning.
这其实挺治愈的 It's actually kinda soothing.
让我想起之前的公寓里那个滴水的龙头 It reminds me of the dripping faucet in our old apartment.
那声音很助眠 The sound helped me fall asleep.
我很喜欢那栋楼 I loved that building.
我们在那里第一次拥抱 It's where we had our first hug.
这绝对不治愈 Definitely not soothing.
这个或许有用 These might help.
你来野营还带了耳塞 You brought earplugs to a camping trip?
你有时候会打鼾 Sometimes you snore.
谢谢 Thank you.
我受够了 That's it.
放弃了 I give up.
我带了维修工具包 I have a repair kit.
我不想修东西 肖恩 I don't want to fix things, Shaun.
我只想回家 I just want to go home.
我 I...
不想回家 Don't want to go home.
你想待在又冷又湿又漏雨的帐篷里 随便 If you want to stay in a cold, wet, leaky tent, go ahead,
我要去车上睡 but I am sleeping in the car.
29分32秒 29:32.
我以前休养期不到25分钟就能跑完 Yeah. I used to do sub-25 on recovery days.
你上班之前有时间吃点东西吗 Hey, you have time to grab a quick bite before you go in?
我其实在想 I was actually thinking, uh...
我们也许可以聊聊 Maybe we could talk.
非常乐意 I would love that.
你离开之前 我最后一次见你时 The last time I saw you before you left,
我 我冲你叫 I... I screamed at you
因为你错过了我的生日派对 because you missed my birthday party,
很长一段时间里 and for the longest time,
我都在想 如果我跟你说对不起 I thought if I could just tell you I was sorry,
你就会回来 that you'd come back.
不是因为你 克莱尔 It wasn't you, Claire.
和你无关 None of it.
你 I mean, you...
是个好孩子 were a great kid.
那么聪明 体贴 So smart and thoughtful.
你怎么能就这么消失了 How could you just disappear?
你妈妈和我之间的关系非常差 Things between your mother and I were such a mess.
有天晚上 她又发作起来 One night, she was having one of her episodes,
说我一无是处 told me I was worthless.
我唯一的优点就是有钱 The only thing I was good for was money.
我说 「行 如果你就只要钱 I said, "Okay, if that's all you want,
我就只给你钱」 "that's all I'mma give you."
我每个月给她寄一张支票 I sent her a check every month.
再也没跟她见过面或者说过话 Never saw or spoke to her again.
我很残忍 很小气 It was mean and petty.
很可悲 Pathetic.
我们从来没收到什么钱 We never got any money.
你在说什么 What are you talking about?
我每个月都寄抚养费 直到你大学毕业 I sent monthly support until you finished college.
我打两份工 I worked two jobs.
我借了助学贷款付学费和我们的房租 I took out a loan to pay for tuition and our rent.
我寄的钱用来付房租 Look, I sent more than enough for rent,
和衣食费用绰绰有余 for clothes, for food.
她把我小孩的钱偷了 She stole my money from my child.
被你彻底抛弃的小孩 The child you totally abandoned.
没有彻底抛弃 No. Not totally.
她把钱挥霍掉了又不是我的错 It's not my fault she squandered that money.
我成长过程中没有父亲不是你的错吗 It's not your fault I grew up without a father?
也没有社交生活 Without any social life
因为我忙着给自己的妈妈当妈 because I was so busy being a mom to my own mom?
当生活不再有意思 The woman that you walked out on
你就弃之不顾的那个女人 when things stopped being fun?
好吧 对不起 Okay, listen, I'm sorry, okay?
我没想过谈话会变成吵架 I didn't mean for this to become an argument.
你才不觉得抱歉 No, you're not sorry.
不然的话 你就不会到现在还怪她 If you were, you wouldn't still be blaming her,
拿她当借口 using her as an excuse.
你离开是因为你太软弱 You took off because you were too weak
不敢承担起父亲的职责 to do what a father is supposed to do...
照顾我 保护我 to take care of me, to protect me.
现在你回来了 因为现在容易了 And now you're back when it's easy,
我不需要父亲了 when I don't need a father?
算了 就这样吧 No, you know what? Forget it.
-克莱尔 -别 - Claire... - Look, just don't...
别打电话 别来我家 Don't call, don't come to the door.
离我远点 Just leave me alone.
我以为这样有用 I thought this would be helpful.
我错了 I was wrong.
我们可以回家 We can go home.
要不然先按你的计划去徒步 Why don't we do the hike you planned first?
你想去吗 Is that what you want?
应该想 I think so.
好 Okay.
新计划 New plan.
吃蓝莓煎饼 然后去徒步 Blueberry pancakes, and then hike,
然后回到家里温暖舒适干爽的床上 and then back home to our warm and cozy and dry bed.
把胸锁乳突肌的胸骨端分离 Divide the sternal attachment of the SCM.
完成 And done.
摘除锁骨内段 Removing the medial clavicle.
你们聊了吗 You have the talk?
是啊 Yeah.
我从来没说过这事很容易 I never said it would be easy.
要切除肿瘤就免不了流血 You can't excise a tumor without some bleeding.
有些肿瘤做不了手术 Some tumors are inoperable.
他想得到原谅 He wants to be forgiven.
我做不到 I... I just can't.
他不值得原谅 He doesn't deserve it.
孩子没有义务 Well, it's not the kid's job
让父母自我感觉良好 to make the parents feel good about themselves.
这团血管侵入了上肺组织 This mat of vessels is invading the upper lung tissue.
你那端入侵有多深 How deep does it go on your end?
我看到肺尖里面有 I can see underneath the apex,
但分不清哪个是肿瘤 哪个是锁骨下动脉 but can't tell what's tumor and what's subclavian artery.
要切除的话 We can't get this out
就得把整个肺上叶拉出来 without pulling out the whole upper lobe of her lung.
她父母不会乐意的 Well, the parents are not gonna like that.
我去 I-I'll go.
他们不信任你 They don't trust you.
这不是你该考虑的 Well, that's not your problem.
那也不该让她父母有顾虑 Well, it shouldn't be the patient's either.
我比你更有可能让他们同意 I'll have a better chance of getting their consent.
我买了些点心 I bought some pastries.
我不用 Uh, I'm good.
对不起 我 I, uh... I'm sorry that I, uh...
没告诉你就取下了子弹 unloaded the gun without telling you.
谢谢 Thank you.
我很感激 I, uh... I appreciate that.
我知道你对枪很紧张 I know that you're nervous around guns,
正因如此 which is all the more reason
你更不应该动我的枪 that you should just leave mine alone.
有个办法说不定更好 Well, maybe there's a better way to deal with this.
你的枪还是放在你的床头柜里 So, w-what if we kept your gun in your nightstand like always,
但是子弹放在另一个房间 怎么样 but we keep the ammunition in another room?
所以你所谓的让步就是 让我同意 So your idea of a compromise is that I agree to do
你一直背着我做的事情 what you've been doing behind my back all along?
闯进来的人不会等我 An intruder is not gonna wait for me
从客房柜子里拿我的子弹 to collect my bullets from the guest room closet.
我家没那么大 My house is not that big.
我不懂了 I don't... I'm so confused.
你反正要跑上楼来拿枪的 You still have to run up the stairs and get the thing either way.
你有没有注意到 每次话题一涉及 Do you ever notice that whenever we're talking about
我们俩共同居住的家 something related to the home that we both share,
你都会说成你家 that you always refer to it as your house?
有吗 I do?
这不是枪支安全的问题 This isn't about gun safety.
而是你的房子 你的规则 This is about your house and your rules
以及你希望能支配我 and your wanting to control me.
你不相信我能替自己做决定 You don't trust me to make decisions about my own life.
我只是在想办法让你有安全感 I'm just trying to find a way to make you feel safe.
我不需要你或者其他任何男人 I-I don't need you or any other man
想办法让我有安全感 to find a way to make me feel safe.
谢谢你 Oh, thank you.
离露营地已经挺远了 It's actually pretty outside the campground.
再走半英里 我们就能看到湖了 Another half-mile, and we can see the lake.
你好可爱 我想拍张照 You're really cute. I want to take a picture.
去站在那个树干上 Go stand on that log.
我从下往上拍 I'll get you from a low angle.
英雄角度 因为你是我的英雄 A hero angle because you're my hero.
好 Okay.
往左一点点 Okay, a smidge to the left.
肖恩 Shaun!
你没事吧 Are you okay?
天啊 你有事 Oh, my God. You are not okay.
数到三 Okay. On the count of three.
好吗 Ready?
一 二 One, two...
你应该等我数到三 You were supposed to wait until I got to three!
我知道 但电影里 I know, but in the movies,
都是提前一点 打个措手不及 they always go early to catch you off guard.
脚踝复位可不需要 You don't need the element of surprise
措手不及 to reduce a dislocated ankle.
好吧 复位了吗 Okay, but did it work?
好了 Yes.
你 You...
复位完全正确 You relocated it correctly.
太好了 Damn.
不过 But...
我的脚趾还是没有多少知觉 my toes are still dusky and numb.
胫后动脉撕裂 The posterior tibial artery's torn.
我以为只是夹到了 I thought it was just pinched.
如果不尽快恢复血液循环 If circulation isn't restored,
将出现永久性的组织损伤 I'll have permanent tissue damage,
甚至可能需要截肢 maybe even have to have my foot amputated.
不要担心 This is not a problem.
我可以跑到有信号的地方叫救护车 I can run to where I can get a cell signal and call 911.
从这里跑到露营地 It'll take at least two hours
至少需要两个小时 for you to run back to the campground.
你低估了我的速度 I'm faster than I look.
你说过你讨厌跑步 You told me you used to skip phys-ed class
所以经常翘掉体育课 because you hated running.
我是讨厌跑步 但也跑得很快 I can hate it and still be good at it.
不行 No.
我的小刀和手术刀一样锋利 My pocket knife is as sharp as a scalpel.
帐篷修理工具包里有尼龙线 The tent repair kit has nylon thread,
鱼钩可以当缝合针用 and you can use a fishhook as a suturing needle.
你一定是精神错乱了 You are obviously delirious
我是不可能做手术的 because there's no way in hell I am doing surgery.
手术过程并不复杂 It's not a complicated procedure.
外科医生当然不觉得难 我可不行 For a surgeon, which I'm not!
我会一步一步指导你 好吗 I'll guide you step-by-step, okay?
只要缝合两下 我见过你给裤子缝边 It'll just take two sutures. I've seen you hem your pants.
动脉可不是裤子 An artery is not a pair of jeans!
我背包里有一瓶龙舌兰 There's a bottle of tequila in my backpack.
切口需要消毒 You will need to sterilize the incision,
-我也需要一点麻醉 -肖恩 我 - and I will need anesthesia. - Shaun, I...
龙舌兰 立刻 Tequila! Stat!
我们以为你们之前很有把握 We thought you were certain before.
我知道你们很担忧 情况也很复杂 I know you're scared and this is confusing.
我们送她来的时候她只有一点炎症 We brought her in with some minor inflammation.
不 炎症很严重 No, the inflammation was not minor.
我们的方案会损伤她的肺功能 What we are proposing would reduce her lung capacity,
但她仍然能过正常的生活 but she can still live a normal life.
不 不行 我们要转院 No. No, we're taking her someplace else.
听听别的医生怎么说 We're gonna get a second opinion.
我们不能做主切掉女儿的一块肺 We can't cut out part of our daughter's lung.
她永远不会原谅我们的 She'd never forgive us.
也许本就不该原谅 And maybe she shouldn't.
多年前利姆医生提出手术 You were wrong to refuse the surgery
你们不该拒绝的 that Dr. Lim proposed years ago.
你是想用负罪感来逼迫我们同意吗 A-are you trying to guilt us into agreeing with you?
你们确实有罪责 You are guilty.
艾娃落到这步境地 Ava is in this situation
就是因为你们不敢做决定 because you were too afraid to make a tough decision,
现在你们又要怪到别人头上 and now you are trying to blame everyone else
因为你们无法面对铸成大错的负罪感 because you can't deal with the guilt of having messed up.
你们不能再只想着怎么做 You need to stop thinking about
才能自认为是合格的父母 what is gonna make you feel like a good parent
而是认真考虑女儿的需求 and start thinking about what your daughter needs.
别喝多了 Careful with that anesthesia.
我需要你全力配合 全程指导 I need you coherent enough to guide me through this.
别担心 Don't worry.
我算好了摄入量 I've calculated the proper dosage.
不 不 不是这样 N-no. No, not like that.
手术刀在托盘左侧 棉布在右侧 The scalpel goes on the left of the tray, sponges on the right,
持针器和缝合线在中间 needle driver and sutures in the middle.
好的 好了 Okay. Got it.
好 Okay.
能不能不要用吼的 And might I suggest not barking instructions at me?
我已经够担惊受怕的了 I'm freaked out enough already.
我尽量做到 I'll do my best.
不过即便喝了龙舌兰 你下刀的时候 But even with the tequila, when you cut into my ankle,
我还是会极度疼痛 也许会发脾气的 I'll be in extreme pain, which can cause irritability.
我做不到 I can't do this.
你必须做到 You have to.
最坏的情况无非是你失败 The worst that could happen is you mess it up
对我的脚造成永久损伤 and cause permanent damage to my foot,
不做手术结果也是一样 which is exactly what will happen if you don't do it.
好吧 Okay.
龙舌兰 立刻 Tequila. Stat.
抽吸 Suction.
可以了吗 That enough?
完美 Perfect.
纵膈清理完毕 Mediastinum's cleared.
现在进入肺部病灶 Now onto the lung lesions.
这里操作有点困难 I'm having a problem maneuvering in here.
之前的菌类摄入造成了大量腹膜瘢痕 There's too much peritoneal scarring from the fungal deposits.
可以干净利落地切除吗 Can you cut at it sharply?
离胆总管太近了 I'm too close to the common bile duct.
需要帮助吗 Need help?
摩根说对了 Morgan was right.
根本无法从腹腔清除病灶 There's no way to remove all the lesions laparoscopically.
好的 移除窥镜 开膛 All right, let's pull the scopes and open him up.
好了 流了好多血 Okay, the blood's pouring out.
现在怎么做 What do I do now?
好 Okay.
扎紧止血带 Okay, tighten the tourniquet
然后用棉布擦掉血液 and then use a sponge to clear the blood.
好 Okay.
擦干净了 It's clearing up.
你应该能看到 You should be able to see...
看到了 还有个洞往外冒血 I see it. And the leaking hole.
现在只需要用持针器 Now you just need to use the needle driver
把两侧缝在一起 to sew the edges together.
注意别 Be careful not...
别怎么样 Be c-careful not to what?
肖恩 Shaun?
在我的头下面垫好背包 Put the backpack under my head.
这跟脚踝有什么关系 How's that gonna help with your ankle?
没关系 It...won't,
但我快要失血过多失去意识了 but I'm about to lose consciousness from blood loss,
我不想弄脏 and I don't want dirt in my...
肖恩 Shaun?
肖恩 Shaun.
肖恩 肖恩 醒醒 Shaun. Shaun, come on.
醒醒 肖恩 Come on, Shaun.
肖恩 Shaun.
好吧 Okay.
加油 莉亚 Come on, Lea.
能缝裤腿 If you can hem a pant leg,
自然也能缝血管 apparently you can do this.
好吧 All right.
来 Okay.
胸膜已清理完 I have freed the pleural membrane.
血怎么这么滑 Oh, why does blood have to be so damn slippery?
我连线都拿不住 And how am I supposed to tie a knot
还怎么打结 if I can't even grip the damn thread?
好了 好了 There we go. There we go.
好 Okay.
来吧 Here we go.
你是一位女性 You're a woman.
没错 Um, yup.
我一直自认为支持女性权益 I've always considered myself a supporter of women,
就是 同工同酬 you know, equal pay for equal work,
选择的权利什么的 the right to choose.
代表全体女性谢谢你 Uh, thank you, from all of us.
黛比似乎觉得我... Debbie seems to think that I am...
有点专横和控制欲过强 Overbearing and, uh, controlling.
我前夫是人文学科教授 My ex was a humanities professor
也是美国公民自由联盟的主席 and ACLU chapter head.
但是我挣钱更多 But I made more money,
不过我觉得他没有意识到这一点 and I don't think he was conscious of this,
但是我确实觉得他会感到威胁 but I do feel he was threatened by...
因为我的独立性 my independence.
他越没有安全感 就越有控制欲 The more insecure he got, the more controlling he became.
必须由他选择我们去哪个餐厅吃饭 He had to pick the restaurants where we ate,
看哪个电影 the movies we saw.
我确实也有我的问题 I mean, I definitely had my own issues, but...
但是他对我的控制是 His need to control me was
我们婚姻失败的一个原因 one of the many reasons our marriage fell apart.
我的脚趾有知觉了 I can feel my toes.
你结束了吗 Are you finished?
没 No.
现在我结束了 Now I'm finished.
保持组织活性的血供足以支撑 There's enough flow to keep the tissue alive
我们赶到手术室 until we get to an ER.
你用帐篷修理工具做到的吗 You did this with a tent repair kit?
还有一个鱼钩 And a fishhook.
她很擅长修补东西 She is very good at fixing things.
你很幸运 You're lucky.
是啊 Yes.
我很幸运 I am.
你感觉如何 How do you feel?
像一条开膛破肚的鱼 Like a gutted fish.
抱歉 I'm sorry.
我们不得不打开你的身体来检查所有损伤 We had no choice but to open you up to access all the lesions.
但他们能够在不损害任何器官的情况下 But they were able to remove them all
将它们全部取出 without damaging any of the organs.
你会痊愈的 You should recover fully.
身体痊愈 Physically.
有一些新的抗抑郁药你还没试过 There are new antidepressants you haven't tried.
但我也不会停止培养蘑菇 But I also wouldn't stop the mushroom cultivation.
真的吗 Really?
事已至此 After all this?
培养 Cultivation.
如果能够帮助你 If this helped you,
那它要么是安慰剂效应 it was either the placebo effect,
要么是因为你投入了全部的精力 or all the focus you put into perfecting the process.
有时分散注意力是最好的药物 Sometimes distraction is the best medicine.
我们 We are...
非常抱歉 so sorry.
这是我们的错 This is our fault.
没关系 It's okay.
我爱你们 I love you.
我本以为我们的关系只是消遣 I thought our relationship was just a fun distraction,
但当你推开我 but when you pushed me away...
我意识到不仅如此 I realized it was more than that.
我很受伤 I was hurt.
很气愤 Resentful.
这让我们每一次的交集 Which made every interaction we had...
异常复杂 complicated.
你在说什么 What're you talking about?
是你把事情弄得一点都不复杂的 You made sure it wasn't complicated at all.
我们不做炮友 做朋友 We stopped having sex, and now we're friends.
你知道不是这么简单的 You know it's more than that.
而且不能这么简单 And it can't be.
再也不能 Not anymore.
这话到底是什么意思 What does that even mean?
我们还在一起工作 还得交谈 We still work together. We have to talk to each other.
只谈工作 仅此而已 About work. That's it.
我们不能试图保持所谓的友谊 We can't try to keep some sort of friendship going.
这意味着不能调笑 不能挑逗 Which means no more jokes, no more teasing,
不能做任何不专业的事情 nothing that isn't totally professional.
所以 我们只是 So, what? We just...
像机器人一样对待对方吗 act like robots around each other?
我不希望这样 I don't want that.
太无聊了 It's boring.
不 No.
我们回到同居之前那样 We act like we did before we ever moved in together
然后让我们进入 and let ourselves get into this...
不专业的 unprofessional...
混沌 mess.
是的 Yeah.
假装一切都没有发生 Pretending that what happened didn't happen.
屡试不爽 That always works.
你是个糟糕的父亲 You were a horrible father.
你的所作所为也覆水难收 And you can't undo the harm you did.
但是 But...
我应该原谅你 I should forgive you.
你应得的 You deserve it.
我也需要它 And I need it.
因为我需要你 Because I need you.
所以 我愿意和你多相处 So, I-I'd like to keep spending time together...
多聊天 and talking.
我很乐意 I would love that.
你觉得 Do you think...
觉得我们能不能 think maybe we could, uh...
让一切重新开始于一个 restart everything with a...
拥抱 hug?
我错了 I was wrong.
我试图确信我是正确的 然而我错了 I convinced myself that I was right, and I was wrong.
我把 I took...
你选择的权利夺走了 a choice away from you.
我会竭尽所能去弥补 And I will do everything I can to make it right.
我 I-I'm...
我很抱歉 I'm so sorry.
你不必抱歉 你能停下吗 You don't have to a-apologize. Can you stop doing that?
我觉得我做不到 I don't think I can make this work.
这种感觉已经几个月了 I have had this feeling for months.
如鲠在喉 It's like a pit in my stomach,
我本来视而不见 and I-I-I didn't want to...face what it was,
但我们每次吵架 but when we were fighting,
我感到释然 感到被释放 I just felt, like, relief, like I had an out.
你认为我不尊重你 我不 You think I don't respect you. I don't...
我尊重你 I do.
亚伦 你差点不愿跟我结婚 只因为 Aaron, you almost walked out of our wedding because...
我的语法很糟糕 I used bad grammar.
是很糟糕 That was bad.
那是一段糟糕的时光 That was a bad moment.
婚姻就是由许多时光组成的 对吗 Marriages are made up of moments, right?
我们很多的时光 So many of our moments are... are just...
很美好 are great.
更多时候 Too many are so...
是煎熬 just painful.
♪ And I will hold you tight... ♪
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这太荒唐了 This is crazy.
我们很相爱 We love each other.
我爱你 I love you.
♪ ..will keep you warm ♪
♪ I will build... ♪
我很爱你 I love you so much.
♪ And I'll build a fire... ♪
只是还不够 It's just not enough.
♪ And in our hearts ♪
♪ We still pray for sons and daughters ♪
♪ And all those evenings out in the garden ♪
♪ With red, red wine ♪
♪ These quiet hours turning to years... ♪
谢谢 Thank you.
大雨滂沱 酩酊大醉 The rain, the drunks,
独自在车里瑟瑟发抖的夜晚 the freezing cold night alone in my car,
以及你差点失去一只脚 and you almost losing your foot
绝对比我预想的散心离谱多了 was definitely a bit more of a distraction than I was hoping for.
但我真的很高兴你带我去露营 But I'm really glad you took me camping.
不用谢 You're welcome.
♪ And I'll build a fire ♪
♪ You fetch the water, and I'll lay the table ♪
♪ And in our hearts ♪
♪ We still pray for sons and daughters ♪
♪ And all those evenings out in the garden ♪
♪ With red, red wine ♪
♪ These quiet hours turning to years ♪